A walk in my world

Meghan, 40+, Canadian, mom, wife 👭, nerd, gamer, constant reader, fanfic writer, c-drama watcher. 📖 AO3: darknutmeg 📝 Multi-fandom: ➰Shadowhunters 🐇The Untamed/MDZS 💚Wang Yibo 👾Malevolent ⚖️Ace Attorney 🌧️Fangs of Fortune 🐦‍⬛Love and Deepspace Sideblog: @fortheloveofdeepspace

[darknutmeg]

My Fic

Shadowhunters

🏚️ Buried Beneath

| Rated M | 17 Chapters, 35k words | Malec, Silent Hill horror AU

👻 Dressed in Blood

| Rated T | 10/20 Chapters, 24k words (WIP) | Malec, ghosthunter AU based on Anna Dressed in Blood

📝 Canon Anthology

| Rated T | 4 Chapters, 2.5k words | Canon related one shots

🐦 Birds of a Feather

| Rated G | One Shot, 1.2k words | Park ranger Alec takes his young son on a bird watching trip.

🗓️ 31 Days of 3B Fix-it's

| Rated M | 31 Chapters, 28k words | Season 3B fix-it's

🥃 Immortal Friends

| Rated T | Series: 2 works, 3.3k words (WIP) | Spike (BTVS) / Magnus, friendship

💔 Thirty Days Without You

| Rated T | 32 Chapters, 17k words | Malec, Quarantine with your Ex.

🗡️The Night Grows Ever Longer

| Rated M | 4/10 Chapters, 2.9k words (WIP) | Malec, Bloodborne hunter AU

📚 Canon Drabbles

| Rated G | Series, 4 works | Canon rewrites and codas of 3B.

🫂 Goodbye Old Friend

| Rated T | One Shot, 579 words | In which Ragnor's friends say goodbye.

💕 It's Not Worth Your Life

| Rated T | One Shot, 922 words | A little canon rewrite of a 3x16 Malec scene.

🔞 It's Good to Be Home

| Rated E | One Shot, 1.2k words | A lovely sight awaits Magnus after a long work trip.

💟 Say Hello, Wave Goodbye

| Rated T | 4/13 Chapters, 11k words (WIP) | Malec, The story of three best friends, the bond they share and the love which will lead them back together.

🫶 Helping Hands

| Rated T | One Shot, 880 words | In which magic tired Magnus gets a little TLC from his husband.

📑 Fix It's, Codas and Other Things

| Rated T | 8 Chapters, 6k words (WIP) | Fix-it fics, codas and other canon centric fics for various episodes/scenes of season two and three.

Fangs of Fortune

❤️‍🩹 Words of Affirmation

| Rated T | One Shot, 748 words

| A missing scene from episode 28.

[pixopix]

Pride Swords: O - T

More Swords: A - B || D || G - N || O - T

Pride Masterlist

Omnisexual

Pansexual

Polysexual

Progress

Rainbow

Trans

Please credit @pixopix, likes and reblogs are appreciated!

[pixopix]

Pride Swords: A - B

More Swords: A - B || D || G - N || O - T

Pride Masterlist

Agender

Aromantic

Asexual

Bigender

Bisexual

Please credit @pixopix, likes and reblogs are appreciated!

[darknutmeg]

I'm emotionally overwhelmed by racing through 4 chapters which included:

Luo Wenzhou putting his heart on the line and Fei Du ripping his guts out, including old pain and secrets and bearing it to him. That was a lot. The greater conspiracy and all the threads tied to so many people is complex and very dangerous.

But I'm going to hold onto these two parts.

Luo Wenzhou's father offering Fei Du familial support

And Luo Wenzhou confessing with his whole chest

I love these two and their messy, traumatic love.

"Yes, I care for you."

[sunflower-galaxy-star]

If I die young - The Band Perry

[tilescel]

THROWING UP ALL OVER MY FLOOR.....ZHUO YICHENS BROTHER PUT BELLS ON HIM SO HE WOULDNT EVER LOSE HIM.......................................SIBLINGS ARE DOOMED FOREVER

[darknutmeg]

Home. Family. 😢

And then he asks Fei Du if he wants to stay with him and an errant chili pepper ruins the mood.

Because of course.

[darknutmeg]

Love is patience.

He wants all of this but it's not time for that yet, so he'll wait patiently, but with much persistence. Slowly unraveling all the parts of himself that Fei Du wishes to share. Until he's ready.

Ooff. No one writes slow, emotional romance likes priest.

[darknutmeg]

"I don't like you being in pain."

Also this passage is important.

[darknutmeg]

I'm normal about this. COMPLETELY NORMAL.

Also that Fei Du fell asleep while listening to Luo Wenzhou's heartbeat.

That's fine.

[darknutmeg]

So Luo Wenzhou sends his mother to bring Fei Du food at the hospital, and then Fei Du sends him FLOWERS and then Luo Wenzhou takes him home so can take care of him.

"I want to take care of you. Can't I?"

AND he put on the cologne that Luo Wenzhou loves. Perfect. Great.

"Why don't I remember you confessing?

I sent my mother to bring you food, what don't you understand?"

I'm paraphrasing, obviously but THAT EXCHANGE

TWO CHAPTERS INTO BOOK FOUR

Sorry for yelling, I'm fine 🙂

[darknutmeg]

Book 3 of Mo Du completed!

The plot of the Zhou family was intricate and complicated, keeping track of all the players and their positions was not easy to follow and I think I deserve credit for being able to follow along. 😅 (Though years of watching cdramas is helpful in following complex plots)

This was a group of people fighting for power which resulted in a whole lot of death and destruction. The Dong family being pulled into the mess was especially heartbreaking. Full credit to priest for being able to tie all the strings together, it was truly impressive.

Chapter 79 will live in my heart as my one of my favourite chapters of any book I've ever read - with a top tier confession and Luo Wenzhou being his absolute best self. He found Fei Du's secret room and didn't leave. He came back, made him a meal and took him to work with him, didn't let Fei Du out of his sight. He basically said "You let me in, there's no way I'm leaving now."

Then there was a BOMB 😵‍💫 and Luo Wenzhou waited around in the hospital for Fei Du to wake up, hung out in his room every day and he told his parents and Tao Ran that Fei Du was his "Lover". That's fine.

Also these two parts. I am here for forehead kisses and gentle touching. GIVE IT.

Gah! These two are EVERYTHING and I know there's still a lot to unpack and so much more trauma and strife to be had but I'm so happy and I can say:

I get it now. I see it. Luo Wenzhou is Fei Du's "light in the darkness."

I give this one a full 5 ⭐ again

*insert Absolute Cinema meme*

[darknutmeg]

"I'm here. Everything is alright."

Well those few chapters were certainly a harrowing experience 😵‍💫

(I'm nearly done with book 3 and it continues to astound how much this book has consumed me but I'm also afraid to finish it, because then what will I do? 😢🥲)

[darknutmeg]

I need to talk about Chapter 79

(I will preface this by saying that I've seen some clips from the drama so I knew there was something involving a chair with straps coming.)

SO, Luo Wenzhou finds this room, this situation laid out to him. He leaves the room and then we cut to Fei Du watching him drive away and feeling nothing, he knew he would leave and WE think he did.

EXCEPT he didn't.

Luo Wenzhou comes back, gets Fei Du out of his room, makes him a meal, gives this whole speech:

And then takes Fei Du to work with him, like he's not letting him out of his sight.

He basically said "You let me in and there's no way I'm leaving now."

I'm losing my mind over this. It's so much. SO MUCH.

[darknutmeg]

Luo Wenzhou looked up at him. "You can remember her forever, never abandon your search for the truth, but you can't trap yourself inside it. Actually, what I forgot to say to you that day..."

Fei Du used a bit of strength, forcefully pulling his hand away. "The cause of her death isn't what's trapping me."

Now we're getting somewhere.

(Nothing like kissing someone for the first time and then almost passing out afterwards.. )

[darknutmeg]

*aggressive wailing*

Good GAWD

[mariemarion]

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Magnus commission for @soulless-baka tysm ToT 🌌​!! yes this one it's meant to be paired with the Alec one🩵