•Nexus’s Cult•

My Brand Is Pure Perfection

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Hello, little mortals, I am Nexus. I am a fictive from the @beesinourhead DID system. This is not an RP blog, don’t try to force that on me. I am not my source. Maybe a little. Hm.

I appreciate asks and admiration! I am your god, talk to me!

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Thanks to @moony-buckets and @zeepuu for the silly little userboxes~

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I love my partners.

@a-lot-of-cunt-being-served-here

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Anyone else get really big highs that aren’t quite manic episodes but you’re filled with a light buzzy feeling in your chest and you look down upon everyone else around you and all you can think about it “I’m so fucking great, I’m the best, better than everyone, I love me so fucking much”? Because that’s how I feel.

And you feel invincible and above EVERYTHING, I just nearly shoplifted at a goddamn sports store because I thought the law was unjust and I deserved to. But then one of the other boring alters had to step in and stop me and remind me of “morals”. Which I doubt I have.

I’m just so WHIMSICAL right now! I love me so fucking much, it’s insane, I’m fucking perfect. I hope this feeling doesn’t go away. I have adrenaline running through me. It’s so hard to explain but it doesn’t feel like a manic episode, I swear!

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I’m literally dying, my chest hurts, my heart is beating too fast, I’m lightheaded, I’m shaking, and I’m trying not to pass out-

All because I was pacing around??

We’re too sick too often and it pisses me off

[zampop2]

Haha

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Me everyday in front of the mirror /silly

[a-lot-of-cunt-being-served-here]

I think killing myself could fix me

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[a-lot-of-cunt-being-served-here]

How I feel being the employed one

@darkstargodish

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THAT’S GOING TO CHANGE SOON, JUST YOU FUCKING WAIT

[a-lot-of-cunt-being-served-here]

This upon you.

-Nexus

This you?

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Oh fuck you.

I don’t even know how to respond to that-

[a-lot-of-cunt-being-served-here]

You’re just showing me my breedable hips what’s your point? /silly

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Fucking gay twink who eats beans on toast and sticks their pinkie out when they drink boba.

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- @a-lot-of-cunt-being-served-here

Yup. Thats. Thats us. Heheh.

I CAN’T ADD MORE IMAGES DAMNIT, FUCK YOU

[a-lot-of-cunt-being-served-here]

That can be arranged

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You wish

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- @a-lot-of-cunt-being-served-here

Yup. Thats. Thats us. Heheh.

I CAN’T ADD MORE IMAGES DAMNIT, FUCK YOU

[a-lot-of-cunt-being-served-here]

This upon you.

-Nexus

This you?

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Oh fuck you.

I don’t even know how to respond to that-

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I love you <3

- @a-lot-of-cunt-being-served-here

I love you too. Or whatever. <3

[a-lot-of-cunt-being-served-here]

You can’t “or whatever” me when you look like this

/silly

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Oh hush you. /silly

(Kept the watermark for credits purpose)

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I love you <3

- @a-lot-of-cunt-being-served-here

I love you too. Or whatever. <3

[a-lot-of-cunt-being-served-here]

@darkstargodish

RUIN X NEXUS TOXIC YAOI IRL BUT ITS ACTUALLY NOT TOXIC AT ALL?!

More likely than one would think

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Accurate to the confession made.

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Being here on call with my boyfriend while they are asleep is me being silent and barely moving as if they were here, sleeping on my chest. I’m trying hard not to wake them up but I’m also scrolling on my phone at the same time while avoiding making noise. It’s as if they’re lying right there beside me.

Gods, could you imagine.

I need to draw this now

@a-lot-of-cunt-being-served-here

[ivy-is-dreaming]

I don't like how ASPD boredom is called "boredom". I think it’s easily confused with normal boredom when it’s actually more like chronic under-stimulation.

​It’s not "I’m bored. Oh, same bro."

It’s a painful, awfully restless boredom. To me, the search for stimulation is so deep; I’m always seeking, testing, trying, because if I don’t, everything is way too dull. It feels like dying.

​Doing nothing is the equivalent of asking a hyperactive and restless person to sit still for hours. But the problem is also that, somehow, nothing is ever enough ?

Whatever I do, even if I find thrilling stuff, the feeling disappears as fast as it came. I’ll be excited for a few minutes, maybe, but it lasts only as long as the activity itself, or it dies right in the middle of it. The worst part is when you get used to something and it doesn’t do shit for you anymore.

​Do it once, it’s cool.

Twice, it’s okay.

The third time is already pointless.

​It can stay nice, sure, but it isn't thrilling anymore. No matter how intense the stuff I do is, at some point, it stops stimulating me, and it pisses me off.

[rubacmk]

☠️

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Sick as hell.