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⛧ 𝖉𝖊𝖒𝖔𝖓 ⛧

I'm Dorian, a 30 year old entity that pretends to be human. I'm agender aroace, and my pronouns are it/its (I'm fine with he/him as well, but they're not my preferred ones). I post whatever I find fun or interesting here, there's no real theme.

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I'm a luciferian, or theistic satanist, or demonolator, depending on which definition fits the most. My faith is very important to me. Lucifer is my patron demon and main guide.

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I love anything horror, feel free to give me any suggestions because I'm kind of new to the genre, most of what I've seen and liked is psychological horror/thriller, body horror, cosmic horror. My favorites are Antiviral, the Magnus Archives, Malevolent, Nope, Annihilation, Hannibal.

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I love videogames, I play whatever strikes my fancy, although I am not good at them, but I enjoy myself anyway. Some of my favorites are the Outer Wilds, Hades, Cyberpunk 2077, the sims (2 and 3), dragon age (all), No Man's Sky, and more.

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I suffer from bad mental health so sometimes I vent on here because I don't know who to turn to.

TW: self harm, suicidal ideation, paranoia, probably delusions

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And that's it, have a nice day! ⛧

#intro post #me

olekssus111

my robot of flesh and steel

#ultrakill

gender-incinerator

actually microlabels and xenogenders and weird pronouns are cool as fuck and anyone who says otherwise lacks whimsy in their life send post

hello I return from the depths of the void to talk shit about myself, as usual. my objective rn is to od from one of my meds because I have the chance to do so. I don't even know why, I just want to feel light and floaty and close to death.

I might be in a manic episode but whatever. my therapist doesn't believe I have bipolar so I guess I'm not manic then, even if I sleep very little, I'm restless all the time, I crave adrenaline and dopamine, but since I don't talk much I'm not manic right?

#whatever #i dont know yet if ill really od or not #cause i plan on taking quite a lot of pills #but i have to find a way to do it so that my educators dont notice #i really miss that feeling #i really should start doing drugs man #me #my life #mental illness #bipolar disorder #actually bipolar

sle3epyyyyyy

dont know how to explain it but someone conffesing to you when you aroace af feels like this

akward,,,

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www.destroyedandbetrayedyourselffornothing.com/careers

feralratbitesu

this grave keeper edible aint shit

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who gors there ,

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Fontainebleau State Park, Louisiana by Lana Gramlich

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I started hearing voices again, one is the usual old one who wants me to suffer and hurt myself, but now there's a new one who tells me that I need to repent for my sins through physical pain, and one who tells me that I'm a machine and under my blood and muscles and flesh there are circuits and cables and that makes me immortal.

It's really hard not to listen to them, some days are better than others, but my next psychiatric appointment is in two weeks and I don't know what I can do in two weeks. I'll try talking to one of the educators who are here first I guess. I just feel a lot of shame about this.

#mentally ill #mental illness #voices in my head #actually bipolar #bpd #actually bpd #cluster b #actually ocd #probably #me #my life #vent post #tw sh

Does anyone have any advice on books on the Kabbalah that are respectful of the practice and explain how it works? I don't intend to practice it but I'd like to study and understand it, given how important it is in the esoteric world. I ask because there are a million books on it and I don't really know which one to pick. I also come from a luciferian and demonolator viewpoint, if that's of any help.

#kabbalah #esoteric #book advice #pagan #luciferian #demonolatry

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