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about ppl with BPD, perceived by someone with ASPD

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Actually? I do think us antisocials should get a lot more recognition for trying to get better because we essentially don't really get better at our core, and a lot of it is for the sake of others.

Of course it's not all of it, I would never try to get better if it didn't benefit me significantly, but even then I constantly feel like other people are winning more than I am with the work I put in.

Some of my antisocial traits ultimately make things hellish for me, and I would love those gone. But I have to suppress and learn to manage a lot more than that to be considered "in the process of recovering" by others.

So yes, I think they should appreciate the fact that I'm even willing to compromise on that.

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I don't think I'll ever understand the whole "strategy" of rewarding yourself after working on something that you need to get done. Do people genuinely experience a greater sense of reward if they worked for it? Because I'm convinced that it's a lie everyone has decided to come up with for the sake of messing with me.

And don't get me wrong, I have tried it. I have tried taking care of my responsibilities and rewarding myself afterwards plenty of times, but it does nothing for me. Most of the time, I just feel like having the reward first because who even cares about future me, even if it's only hours away? And the times I've managed to hold back, I never felt anything different when getting it. If anything, it just makes me mad that I did all that work for a reward that isn't even good enough.

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Sup, idk if you’ve talked about this but how’d you come across ASPD and what made you suspect you had it? Btw cool username.

I had first seen it while searching about psychology stuff when I was like really young idk 11-12?? but yeah it wasn't before I turned 16 when some friend of my parents (he is a psychiatrist) pointed out that my behaviour wasn't normal and heard them talking about conduct disorder and how it might turn to some personality disorder including aspd in future and he was basically saying "take that poor kid to a doctor before it's too late" which my parents didn't bother to do. Then like few months ago (like just before I turned 18) I decided to search about it again and this time I took my time to see what is required for diagnosis, talked to some actually diagnosed people on internet (not teenagers btw like actual adults who were willing to talk about their diagnosis) and realized I also fit into criteria so much. But again, I am not diagnosed and I don't really claim to have aspd right now even though I'm heavily suspecting that I have. It might be something else too because I heard people mostly confuse aspd traits with autism or chronic depression (since those disorders also affect to your empathy levels and socialization) but I don't know. I mostly use the aspd tags to reach a certain audience on tumblr who will find me relatable more than others tbh. I will probably find out this year because it's very likely I'll go to a psychiatrist now (I was fucking around way too much lmao). Don't really wanna get diagnosed tho heard that cluster b disorders fuck you up if you want to apply to certain jobs.

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Me versus my friends when we check our letter box.

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Do you mask a lot around other people and do you think anyone can tell? how differently do you act when you’re masking vs when you aren’t?Is there anyone you’ve unmasked around before?

Idk if you follow my posts at all but you probably don't (because I was talking abt it a lot). I do mask a lot and the difference between me masking or not masking is fucking huge. I mostly unmask on internet, I do try to unmask in real life too since it prevents me from actually getting help (because I mostly mask my depression. For aspd part I usually don't even bother to mask unless people around me decided to be behaviour-police or if I need something from people and that requires me to be nice/normal.) Actually the reason I broke up with my bf recently is because he couldn't handle me unmasking lmfao what a manlet.