To The Birth Father Who I Know Will Never Read This, I love you but not as the I'm in love with you. We need to be together type of way. It's not even like a brother or sister way. I wish I hated you. I wish could just shrug you off. But honestly how could I hate you or just shrug you off? Yes we used each other and never really cared. Hurts like hell knowing you don't even wonder who your child may be. It's hurts worse knowing you feel she's a mistake. But I love you for blessing me with her. I might not have her in my arms every night or see what sweet smile every morning. But I do still get to be part of who is she. I don't want to say thank you for the ways you you used me or hurt me. Yet I do thank you for bringing the best most beautiful gift into my life. She's gorgeous and as much as I hate to say it.. she has your skin, eyebrows, eye color just a little darker, eyelashes and she even pulls some of your faces. Sadly I don't even hate you a little. If it wasn't for you I wouldn't have her. So as much as I hate to say this.. I forgive you for everything. If it wasn't for you I wouldn't have my daughter I would be living my same old messed up life. I would never have grown up. So thank you. I do wish you the best in life and hope your family turns out as you dream. I hope you have found ways to truly stay clean and that you will be an amazing dad one day. I wish all the best and truly send you a huge thank you. That little girl is the light and joy to my life. She's my smile on hard days and my heart. I don't know what I'd do without her. Thank you for giving me the love of my life and brightens of my future. Not only thank you for her but for helping me mold into someone I can love and be happy with. Thanks to finding myself I was able to be come one with an amazing man who helps me more than I could dream of and loved my little girl almost as much as I do. So thank you for my baby girl and my chance to better myself. I don't hate you. I love you for the gifts and blessing you given me. My daughter will always have parts of you in/with her. Thank you. - Marissa


















