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I think a lot of people were quite surprised by the Kitty and Kurt situation, so I guess that’s understandable. As far as understandable goes these days. Which reminds me of the fact that Blaine’s probably going to meet up with Kurt. Not my favorite thing in the world either, but I guess it’s just one of these things we’ll have to understand.

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I kind of didn’t believe it at first. I mean then I saw the kid proof and I believed him afterwards. Yeah. I know he was. He called me, gave me a little warning. Kurt also texted me about it, so I knew they were going to meet up. Are you having as hard of a time with that concept or are you just cool about it?

#c:sebastian

Text: Kurtofsky

Kurt: We were happy before this, right? Even through what you said about me and the things I've done or am not doing now.. We were happy?

Kurt: All those things you've shown me and the pictures I've seen. We look like we were.

Dave: I'd like to think we were really happy. I mean. We were talking about doing a vow renewal and honestly, I personally just kind of fell in love with you all over again every time I saw you. I love you so much, and I'm pretty sure you felt the same. So yeah, I think I can say we were happy. I know I said all the stuff about me being annoyed, but that isn't any indicator towards our marriage not working or us being unhappy.

#t:kurt

Text: Kurtofsky

Kurt: Thank you.

Kurt: Dave?

Dave: yeah?

Text: Kurtofsky

Kurt: Alright. I'm just saying you don't have to. I'm going to go.. I have to think.

Dave:Oh. Okay. Yeah. I'll be here. Take your time.

#t:kurt

Text: Kurtofsky

Kurt: Good.

Kurt: [after the delay]

Kurt: You don't have to. Okay?

Dave: [Post Delay]

Dave: I want to.

#t:kurt

Text: Kurtofsky

Kurt: We can talk later. Okay?

Kurt: [after the delay]

Kurt: Sure. See you then. Get some sleep. It's getting late.

Dave: Yeah. Teah, later works.

Dave: [Post Delay]

Dave: I'll be fine. I'm just going to wait for you.

#t:kurt

Text: Kurtofsky

Kurt: Well, you shouldn't be sorry but I get it. Thank you.

Kurt: I know.

Kurt: [after the delay]

Kurt: I'll be there soon.

Dave: I know I shouldn't but yeah. Yeah. You're welcome.

Dave: [Post delay]

Dave: Good. See you soon?

#t:kurt

Text: Kurtofsky

Kurt: It's just better that way. Neither one of us gets hurt, really.

Kurt: Don't feel bad. You said what you needed to say.

Kurt: I guess.

Kurt: [the delayed texts, after another thirty minutes the messages scroll as received.]

Kurt: I just need to be alone right now.

Dave: But isn't just keeping it to yourself hurting you?

Dave: I still am sorry. thats no way as your husband that I should do.

Dave: I love you. I know you don't feel the same way but I really do.

Dave: [after the delay]

Dave: Kurt...let me be there for you.

Text: Anderofsky

Blaine: It's one of the few things that have cropped up in flashes. I remember what a huge monumental asshole I was and that's why I wanted to tell him in person rather than over the phone I thought it would be a less of a blow to hear it from me in person again without the melodrama to it.

Blaine: // he laughed nervously

Blaine: I wanted to give you a heads up because one I Kurt's going to need you, I've already talked to Bas and plan on meeting up with him later. I want more information on my life and well our life together I'm accepting this Dave I'm accepting what this future is and if it's just Kurt's best friend or friend or just acquaintance that's fine I understand my role isn't the same as it use to be

Dave: Right, because telling your boyfriend from the past that you cheated on him isn't something that shouldn't be melodramatic. It's going to be dramatic no matter how. Maybe you don't know how broken Kurt was the first time, but he's going to experience it all over again, and it can't be just categorized as him being dramatic.

Text: Kurtofsky

Kurt: I just didn't think it was a good idea to bring it up anymore. I was trying to keep from disappointing you because I see it in your eyes.

Kurt: You just said what you were thinking. Why apologize? Don't..

Kurt: I don't sound that amazing..

Kurt [delayed text, auto reply]: --message sent, not received--

Dave: Yes. Yes I'm disappointed but you shouldn't have to feel like you need to keep it in.

Dave: I feel bad. Like...I was more harsh then I should have been.

Dave: You are, trust me.

Dave[the delay]: Kurt please come home, please.

Text: Anderofsky

Blaine: Look I want to explain that I remember something, I remember what I did how bad I hurt him. I understand how important Sebastian is to me and how important Kurt is to you and I am going to explain that to him tonight

Blaine: // fiddled with his the end of his shirt as he sat in his drivers seat.

Dave: //He felt his anger rising up.

Dave: Let me understand this, You remembered what you did to him? You remember cheating on Kurt...?

Text: Kurtofsky

Kurt: You got that because you got me the morning after my life was completely different! How was I supposed to know any better? How was my first thought not to be to see if he was okay?! You knew me back then. What could you possibly expect?! But I've kept things to myself since! I haven't brought him up much in the last couple weeks! Because I was trying for you after you've been so incredibly sweet doing what you're doing, I feel awful even voicing how scared I am or what I'm thinking about! Because I don't want to hurt you!

Kurt: Because I don't REMEMBER ANY OF THAT! I DON'T KNOW! When were you in the hospital?! Why did I fall out of touch with you?! YOU LEFT ME STANDING THERE AT PROM. You. left. me. With a whispered "I can't" while everyone else stared at me!! You did that! And that's pretty damn recent enough to remember. Why did you marry "that guy" then? Why?

Kurt [two hours later, post meeting with Blaine]: --message received, not read--

Dave: I would have rather you have said how scared you were then keep it to yourself. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being a dick tonight.

Dave: Hospital? I never said anything about when I was in the hospital...

Dave: I married "that guy" for several reasons. It had been one sided forever, but I'd been in love with you since probably a little before prom. Two, you are an amazing person Kurt. Three, you gave me a chance.

Dave[very upset 2hrs later]: Kurt....?

Text: Anderofsky

Blaine: // bit the inside of his lip when Dave said hi and felt uneasy

Blaine: how has things been?

Dave: // Dave stared out, looking around him. How was things going? Things were a mess. He was sure Kurt hated him now, and everything was going to shit.

Dave: They're going okay. You?

#p:blaine

Text: Kurtofsky

Kurt: It is what you think.. All of this is exactly what you think. Or you wouldn't be saying it.

Kurt: I've cared about you for months now, David. So, yes, 18 year old me still would have. Unless there's something else awful about me that you'd like to enlighten me on.

Kurt [post delayed text]: I have to go.

Dave: So maybe it is. Do you really blame me? All I got at first was Blaine this Blaine that. And it feels like shit feeling like your husband is horrified to be married to you. I know this is all shitty for you, but I feel like I'm back in high school again and it sucks.

Dave: Really? Says the guy who didn't really talk to me like at all once I left prom? Really? I don't even know what part of that year you came from, but you didn't even talk to me till I met you in Scandals. So please, do explain to me how you've 'cared about me for months'. I know MY Kurt.

Dave: I'm sorry. I'm sorry i'm getting angry. And rude. And just being terrible. I'm not normally like this. I promise. Just. Yeah.

Dave[delayed texts]: Kurt...I'm sorry. Please text me back. I'm sorry.

#t:kurt

Text: Kurtofsky

Kurt: Are you saying we're not trying when you mean I'm not trying? Because we both know you're doing your best and you've been trying so hard. Movies, DVDs, pictures. You've done it all. So..

Kurt: You think I'm not trying..

Kurt: Well I am. I'm trying so hard. I've watched everything you've asked me to. I've looked at every picture and every memento you've given me. And I feel like it's right at the tips of my fingers but just out of reach. If you want me to miraculously wake up someday and be who I was before this.. I don't know if that's how this works.

Kurt: It's been a month and I haven't turned my back on him. I can't do that. I wouldn't do that to anyone I care about. You can't just stop caring about someone like that, Dave. Well. Maybe other people can. I can't.

Kurt[Replied 10 minutes after message sent]: Take that back. Please..just take that back.

Dave: No. No that's not what I think.

Dave: I mean. God yes. Yes and no. I feel like I just have this roadblock placed in front of me when I try to talk, and sometimes I feel like you don't even want to know. And then I get discouraged or frustrated and give up, when I should still be trying. So it's not just you.

Dave: Don't be so sure you wouldn't, maybe you wouldn't now, and maybe my Kurt wouldn't now, but you have. Then again, maybe when we were 18 you didn't actually care about me.

Dave[after kurt replied late]: I wish I could. I shouldn't have said it. I'm sorry I told you.

#t:kurt

Text: Kurtofsky

Kurt: That sort of happens when you forget over a decade of your life, which I am sure includes some very important things like--oh becoming a father and getting married for example--so yes. I don't understand a lot of things. I'm sorry how frustrating this is to you but it's just as frustrating to me, too.

Kurt: Am I some sort of person you can't tell when I've made you uncomfortable to? Is that why you're telling me now? If I've been making you uncomfortable for years because I'm friends with Blaine--say something! But I don't even know what kind of friends we are! Not right now! I can't even say I wish I knew because maybe I did. Maybe I didn't. Maybe I'm not the type of person you can trust. Maybe I am. If I'm anything like I am now and who I hope to be? If you helped me through that and we're married, I hope you at least trust me? Do you? Do I know you don't if you don't? You tell me.

Kurt: Fine. Don't tell me. I'm almost there anyway. I'll just get it from the horse's mouth.

Dave: I'm trying. I'm really really trying hard okay? I'm trying to be okay with you because I know this sucks for you too. But I feel like I keep running into a brick wall. I feel like we're not even trying to make this work. It's been almost a month like this.

Dave: No. You're not. But I'm the kind of person who would rather see you happy, and I just delt with my frustrations and now i'm just really frustrated and it's all coming out and I'm sorry that its coming out now, maybe because you're so close to him again and I'm just on the edge of whatever.I trust you. I do. Just. It really fucking sucks seeing your husband and the guy he used to be in love with be buddy buddy and now be like this. I don't tend to be a jealous person, in fact i'm pretty much the least jealous spouse of a celebrity, but god when it comes to Blaine, I'm the most jealous person in the world. Maybe you realized that, maybe you didn't. I wont ever know unless you remember.

Dave[Sent like 20 minutes later]: He cheated on you.

#t:kurt

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