angela

15 | cancer 🪐⋆｡°𝟒𝟒𝟒

[dawnriver]

I want to be your sun.

The one who sees you first every morning.

You'll probably be tired to see me, i don't care after all.

I want to be the one giving you warmth on that cold day,

Melting of the ice that other people gave.

I hope to be your main source of light,

Of love,

And of everything in between.

I want to be your sun.

Even if you look at me with squinting eyes, i wouldn't care.

Because your the reason I'm here.

If it's not for you, who else is there?

[dawnriver]

I wish I was someone's moon.

Not someone's, i wish I was your moon.

I want to be your moon so you'll always look at me, with loving eyes,

The way you stare at the moon every night.

I want to be your light in the darkness,

Yet you give that place to someone else.

You're my sun and I want to be your moon.

Not anybody else's, your moon.

[dawnriver]

People think we're best friends.

We talk about everything, nothing left behind.

Yet I don't know why,

I slight feeling of guilt everytime you're passing by.

We talk for hours and hours,

Nights and days and everything in between.

But I just cant seem to believe the things you say to me.

Maybe it's because you've lied too much or I've hidden more than that,

But every single time someone says we're best friend's,

I don't know if you feel the same.

[dawnriver]

I miss you more than I remember you.

I dont remember your voice anymore.

I don't remember your face as clearly as I did that november night.

Yet how you made me feel so heard and safe,

I don't think anyone will be able to replicate that way.

I know you don't feel the same.

I know you don't even remember me anymore.

Yet how could I ever forget you?

Because I miss you.

I miss you so much.

So much that I miss you more than I remember you.

[dawnriver]

I still wake up with things to tell you.

I don't know what tho

I wake up with the thought of you,

My heart feels empty knowing that

I'm not with you no more.

It feels like stepping on an autumn leaf but not hearing anything,

Like expecting something great but it took the worst turn.

I miss you

And I hope you do too.

Because at the end of the day,

I still wake up with things to tell you

And fall asleep knowing that I will never be able to tell those to you.

Not anymore.

[dawnriver]

It was a night filled with stars.

The moon shined brightly like it never has.

I've never seen such a thing before in my life, i must address.

But the glowing moon or the twinkling stars,

Couldn't take my attention from him.

He who shone brighter than everything in that room.

All the eyes were on him.

But he was with someone else.

She looked just like a dream,

The prettiest girl I've ever seen.

I couldn't dare compete with her.

The whole night he was running through my mind.

His smile i couldn't erase.

That night, with the sky full of stars

I was staring at him,

And he was staring at her.