Wabi-Sabi

call me dio [da•yo] serving and making coffee as a living just me and my daily dose of drama

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📍Al Ula, Saudi Arabia

The furthest travel I did while living saudi arabia. It’s a 12 hrs land travel from Riyadh, which is the capital of KSA. It was a Joiner Tour made for kabayans who wants to travel al ula and other provinces of saudi. It was my first time to join group tour by myself. The good thing was I made new friends which I didn’t expect. :p

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“You become what you surround yourself with. Energies are contagious. Choose carefully. Your environment will become you.”

— Unknown

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exhale the bad sht

Napakaraming bagay ang umiikot sa isipan ko. Hindi ko alam kung ano ba o saan ba ako magsisimula. Ang hirap maging adult sa totoo lang. Hindi naman sa nagcocomplain ako sa buhay ko pero ang hirap lang talaga. Nandyan na yung mga bayarin na iniisip ko. Minsan di ko maisip kung makakaahon pa ba ako. Hindi ko magawa yung mga bagay na gusto ko magawa dahil kailangan mong tumulong sa pamilya mo. Mga gastusin na sana di mo na lang kinuha kaso wala, nandyan na yan.

Tapos Yung sarili ko na feeling ko minsan hindi na talaga ako kagusto-gusto kaya single ako, napapabayaan ko na ba ang sarili ko? Nawala na lang talaga yung confidence ko sa sarili kaya madalas hindi na talaga ako nagseselfie kasi pakiramdam ko ang panget panget ko na. Kaya wala na rin tumatagal kasi tbh people nowadays are looking for physical appearance.

Tapos yung mga kaibigan ko pa na hindi man lang ako magawang makumusta tulad nung mga close ko talaga. I mean I get it busy kayo pero sana diba paramdam-paramdam din. Yung iba nagpapakasal na tapos ako eto. Nalulungkot ako na isa-isa na silang lumalagay sa tahimik, i mean happy ako for them pero yung time kasi nila sakin magiging limited na lang kung iisipin kung ano yung mga nagagawa namin dati for sure mahirap na magawa ulit bcos of priorities and that’s the hardest part of growing up. Tulad ngayon yung isa kong close friend nagka-baby na at asawa ni hindi na ako nakakausap sobrang dalang na lang tho I understand naman pero nakakatampo lang minsan. Well that’s life dba. Kahit papaano naman naiintindihan ko pero wala minsan talaga kasi nakakatampo lang so ayun, kaya I felt sad kapag naiisip ko yun mga ganoong bagay with my friends. Talagang dadating sa point na limitado na lang oras nila para sayo. Hello, friend ka lang naman hindi ka asawa. Haha

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Sometimes I think a lot of ideas to share here in tumblr. Like mga kwentong keme lang in anything I do or mga random thought na lalagyan ko ng opinion ko or rant. Bilang dati naman talaga nung sobrang active ko during 2012 to 2013 eh madalas akong magpost kung anong naiisip ko. Di pang pro pero atleast it’s the thought that counts. Haha So ayun, hopefully maging active ulit dito kahit paminsan-minsan makapag post. Actually this tumblr account serves as my online diary. Haha it’s my safe space here. Kasi konti lang nakakakilala sakin dito, may iilan kasi sa mga kaibigan ko na rin na matagal dito pero di ka nila ijudge. Haha

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Adultinggg Sucks

First thing first yung paguwi ko sa pinas. I need to make ipon for the ticket and syempre forda gastos din huhu bakit ba kasi di sagot ng company yung ticket. Hassle tuloy na iisipin mo pa yung pagbili ng ticket.

Second. Yung mga gastusin din sa pinas aside sa iniisip kong ticket eh yung pambayad sa binili naming lupa. Ang hirap lang talaga na ikaw lang yung aasahan I mean share naman kami ng ate ko doon sa bayarin pero wala naman siya stable job.

Third. Eto, gastusin na naman huhu noong umuwi ako last year sa pinas, gusto ko lang naman mag-open ng bank account pero na sales talk ako nung FA ng BDO Life. Haha Pero goods ‘to sa future ha pero di ko lang inexpect na kukuha ako haha kasi nga dami gastos, si nanay rin mapilit maganda naman din daw yung may life insurance ka pero ayun nga medyo mabigat lang kasi annually yung bayaran, isang bagsakan haha papaayos ko na lang siguro at gawing monthly para di mabigat.

Fourth. Yung isa pa na binili kong Ipad, pero eto medyo magaan lang kasi 1 year to pay. Haha pero gastos pa rin forda luho din kasi ang self. Tapos dinedemonyo na naman ako ng self, gusto daw niya ng Applw Watch Ultra pero yung angel buti na lang kontrolado niya pa. Haha

So ayun, if akala ninyo lahat ng OFW eh mayaman or malaki kinikita. Fake news po iyon. Hindi lahat mapalad, yung iba need pa tumulong sa pamilya bago unahin sarili nila. Kung nakikita ninyo man sa post nila na mukang shala-shala ito’y reward lamang po sa aming pagiging harworking. Haha Mahirap makaipon kahit ofw kana. Huhu minsan gusto ko na lang ulit maging bata. Yung iisipin mo lang laro at school kahit stress din ang school haaay haha

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“I don’t think people understand how stressful it is to explain what’s going on in your head when you don’t even understand it yourself.”

— Sara Quin

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Sa sobrang hindi ko pagka-active dito bakit ganon naman yung mga nagsisisfollow sakin hahaha mga merlat na mukhang porn star.

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2022 late rants

Been broken hearted twice. FU!

Didn’t process some documents which I need for my dream work when I was in the Philippines. (kinulang sa oras) 1 month vacay is short!

Did not treat myself on my birthday bcos work is life.

Took Life Insurance at BDO Life which is I think a burden for me pero I always convince myself na it’s for my future kaya push. Haha

Did not get a tattoo which I really want. Which is also my plan and my decision before coming back to PH bcos of angry mom haha “wag ka nang uuwi ng bahay pag nagpatattoo ka” haha

Regretting for giving my cat to someone bcos walang mag-aalaga huhu I miss you stormie 🥺

Sabi magdidiet pero food is life. Bawi sa 2023 😒🤔

Gastador kasi laging motto “deserve mo yan, self” “reward mo sa sarili mo kaya okay lang” convince yourself pa more haha

Didn’t get a chance to take myself on a beach. Plan was Boracay, Siargao or Coron but ending up joining a 3 hours trekking in Kaparkan Falls. Wala kasi maaya :/

Was about to resign on my current job then I realized I need more money to spend chs Maraming gastusin sa pinas.

Claiming that 2023 will be better. Manifesting for a wonderful year. Lord, bigay ninyo na sakin ‘to. Looking forward for my goal this year. Make the impossible possible ✨

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Hala 1 month na pala akong hindi nakakapag-post sa tumblr. Musta naman?

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How is life everyone? Hihi

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Heyyyyy. Kamusta naman kayo?

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bagong gupit, flex ko lang 💇🏻‍♂️💇🏻‍♂️

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life is parang bulbol, magulo.

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Missing the waves 🌊

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Acceptance. As you grow older talaga, you really learn from the mistakes that life brought you. Before, ang hirap tanggapin ng mga bagay kapag hindi pabor sayo bcos you have a fragile and soft heart. Pero ngayon, you become more strong and wise in every decision that you make. May konting sakit pero if you will just think of it in a long run you will just realize something na hindi pwedeng ganon na lang, hindi pwedeng lagi na lang masasaktan. Always choose yourself first. Bcos at the end of the day sarili mo lang rin ang makakatulong sayo.

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sa gobyernong tapat, magkakajowa ang lahat.

Solid kakampink naman ako, kaibahan nga lang di naman ako nakapunta sa mga rally. Kasi wala naman ako sa pinas pero nilaban ko siya thru posting at sharing facts. Anyway, may nameet naman ako online. Isang kakampink na talagang nag babahay-bahay sa lugar nila. Ayun, mga unang usap namin talaga about politics hanggang naiba na kasi nga moved on na muna sa politics after the results.

Pero fake news naman ‘to. Hahaha May iilang pinalad lol at may ibang umuwing luhaan char. Pinost ko ‘to kasi may trending sa fb na kakampink tapos nameet lang nila pareho sa rally ang isa’t-isa tapos official na sila ngayon. Edi kayo na mga beshywap. Hahaha ayun mema lang ‘tong rant ko. Ang sakin ata kasi ‘sa gobyernong tapat, mang-gghost lahat’ char

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been talking to this guy over a week. Yes a week and it bothers me haha. At first we talk a lot but little by little it bcomes oneliner replies. I am always the one who initiate to ask questions. Well I gues I’m not enough or maybe he’s not into me or bcos I’m not in the PH. Idk, I over think too much and it’s not healthy. I really hate this feeling haha Maybe ‘ghosting’ is near to happen. Oh well this is life. I get used to it but it’s been years since I felt this one again.