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person: it’s too early for halloween stuff it’s over a month away

me:

Fire starter.

Why did i have to meet you? Why can't you love me? Why did you have to lie? Why do i love you? Why after three fucking years do i still look at your picture and my heart starts pounding like you're right in front of me. I can't still love you. You were never mine to love. I only got a taste of what could have been. You too. Ahhh.... what could have been. Wait what am i saying? You're not even a good person. Or a least thats what you want people to think. You've been with her what? 5 years? You love her. Yet you some how made me fall for your drunk ass so long ago. I was and still am a moron for ever believing in the slightest you cared about me. Just another girl to fuck while "wifey" bitches and complains about the shit you do and never Change. Two kids and you're only 20. Her only 18! Beautiful babies nonetheless , you're too cold to be a good husband. Only if wifey knew where those lips have been. Haha. Fuck you. WHY DAVID. DJAY. MOTHER FUCKER WHY. YOU'VE BROKEN SOMETHING INSIDE OF ME THAT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FIX. I HAVE THIS NEVER ENDING PIT OF EMPTINESS IN ME. and it's all because of you. I fucking hate you. I will never be able to love anyone or myself until I let you fucking go. But how do i do that when every time you break up with her you come to me.. not even to hold you but to FUCK you. AND ME being pathetic me i come. ALMOST EVERY FUCKING TIME. And the times i didn't come i cried myself to sleep. For you. A boy who never loved me.