i am the master of my fate

We're a system. Collective name Envy. Please interact with us, we love talking to people. We do however also have NPD, just saying that up front as a disclaimer.

[theopolis]

[kissekatt228]

[isuggestforcemasc]

Your testosterone is natural? Mine is imported and designer. Loser.

[stworzonka]

I just met a mother of an autistic child who thinks vaccines cause autism but is still pro-vaccine. Didn't know ppl like her existed tbh

[madamross]

[freak-with-thoughts]

Theres that orange on display

[freak-with-thoughts]

i still wanna name this poor creature treebark

[dead-boysss]

Do it

[freak-with-thoughts]

my first two thoughts were treebark and redwood because they have bits of orange shining through

[dead-boysss]

Both worthy names

[freak-with-thoughts]

guess what

[dead-boysss]

Oh my goodness it's a literal sad wet cat

[freak-with-thoughts]

they look so angeyyyhhhhyy

[dead-boysss]

There is an ancient sadness in their eyes

[freak-with-thoughts]

even sleeping they look like they just fell iver qnd ceased to be awake

[dead-boysss]

Showww 🥺

[freak-with-thoughts]

Literally laying on their stomach with their arms folded under thier head

[dead-boysss]

Awwwwwwwww

[freak-with-thoughts]

also them liking the bed is good because thats the bed our dog uses, so thisll get them used ti the smell of her around

[dead-boysss]

Yay! Aughhhh the tinyyyy

[freak-with-thoughts]

its absurd how little they are

They feel like DRYER LINT

thats how soft

[dead-boysss]

Why does everyone call kittens dryer lint

[freak-with-thoughts]

i cannot articulate this enough

Pull some dryer lint out of your dryer

thats the texture of their furr

[dead-boysss]

Oh my goddd

[freak-with-thoughts]

its a common nickname for a reason, this things fur is doing everything BUT laying flat

[dead-boysss]

The smallllll

[freak-with-thoughts]

i should move some things in the bathroom because were fonna need to but supplies

[dead-boysss]

This is what it's all about

[freak-with-thoughts]

this house is not fucking built for a cat dear lord

Especially my room there are seven shelves and they all have things precar perched on them and prone to falling

[dead-boysss]

Rest in peace man

[freak-with-thoughts]

i still wanna name this poor creature treebark

[dead-boysss]

Do it

[crabussy]

small tips for Enjoying Being Alive from someone who went from wanting to die to genuinely loving life. these won't fix your life but they'll make it a lot easier to want to live day by day. I promise.

tell yourself things you do not believe. it feels stupid at first but I've done this for years and now I believe it when I say "I'm good at this" or "I love myself" or "I deserve good shit!"

make a note of every mundane good thing that happens to you. mental or literal notes! could be as little as "the sky is a nice shade of grey, it's calming" or "I ate a piece of fruit today, I'm looking after myself" or "I talked to a friend". again, feels stupid at first, but I genuinely believe this is part of why I have so many "good days". trick your brain into storing things in your long-term memory that you wouldn't otherwise remember.

diet deficiencies can make you properly miserable. your physical health impacts your mental health more than you'd think. get some vitamins, some omega-3s and so on. whether from food or supplements. they can make quite a difference! your brain is responsible for a LOT of the way you feel, and giving it the fatty acids it needs to function at its best can go a long way.

[crabussy]

I know these all sound like stupid junk people who have never wanted to die tell you. I know they sound like dumb "self-help" tips written by people who have suffered mild anxiety at worst.

they're coming from someone who had multiple daily panic attacks for half a decade. someone who genuinely felt like he did not deserve to live. someone who hated himself so much he convinced himself he was irredeemably evil. someone who loves being alive these days, even though it's difficult sometimes.

you truly don't have to follow any of this advice. but just read through. store it in the back of your mind. come back to it when you want. best of luck. [:

[nedzira]

These are genuinely great! If I can add a small comment it would be to try to change scenery every now and then, take a different route home and go for walks. And make appointments to meet your friends!

[crabussy]

ABSOLUTELY. anytime I feel myself descending into a slump where everything feels wrong and bad and gross and hard, I go on a Weird Walk. I choose a familiar destination (the dairy, the beach, a specific hill) and intentionally choose a route I've never tried before. it's crazy but it makes me feel better almost instantly, even if the new walk is worse than my usual route. your brain CRAVES new stimulation! you are a member of a species with one of the most active brains in the animal kingdom. please try not to live like a hamster.

[freak-with-thoughts]

guess what

[dead-boysss]

Oh my goodness it's a literal sad wet cat

[freak-with-thoughts]

they look so angeyyyhhhhyy

[dead-boysss]

There is an ancient sadness in their eyes

[freak-with-thoughts]

even sleeping they look like they just fell iver qnd ceased to be awake

[dead-boysss]

Showww 🥺

[freak-with-thoughts]

Literally laying on their stomach with their arms folded under thier head

[dead-boysss]

Awwwwwwwww

[freak-with-thoughts]

also them liking the bed is good because thats the bed our dog uses, so thisll get them used ti the smell of her around

[dead-boysss]

Yay! Aughhhh the tinyyyy

[freak-with-thoughts]

its absurd how little they are

They feel like DRYER LINT

thats how soft

[dead-boysss]

Why does everyone call kittens dryer lint

[freak-with-thoughts]

i cannot articulate this enough

Pull some dryer lint out of your dryer

thats the texture of their furr

[dead-boysss]

Oh my goddd

[freak-with-thoughts]

its a common nickname for a reason, this things fur is doing everything BUT laying flat

[dead-boysss]

The smallllll

[freak-with-thoughts]

i should move some things in the bathroom because were fonna need to but supplies

[dead-boysss]

This is what it's all about

[fagcrisis]

i hate the word spicy can we bring back calling things erotic

[maryoliveoil]

rolling up to Wendy's to get an erotic chicken sandwich

[freak-with-thoughts]

guess what

[dead-boysss]

Oh my goodness it's a literal sad wet cat

[freak-with-thoughts]

they look so angeyyyhhhhyy

[dead-boysss]

There is an ancient sadness in their eyes

[freak-with-thoughts]

even sleeping they look like they just fell iver qnd ceased to be awake

[dead-boysss]

Showww 🥺

[freak-with-thoughts]

Literally laying on their stomach with their arms folded under thier head

[dead-boysss]

Awwwwwwwww

[freak-with-thoughts]

also them liking the bed is good because thats the bed our dog uses, so thisll get them used ti the smell of her around

[dead-boysss]

Yay! Aughhhh the tinyyyy

[freak-with-thoughts]

its absurd how little they are

They feel like DRYER LINT

thats how soft

[dead-boysss]

Why does everyone call kittens dryer lint

[freak-with-thoughts]

i cannot articulate this enough

Pull some dryer lint out of your dryer

thats the texture of their furr

[dead-boysss]

Oh my goddd

[freak-with-thoughts]

its a common nickname for a reason, this things fur is doing everything BUT laying flat

[dead-boysss]

The smallllll

[freak-with-thoughts]

guess what

[dead-boysss]

Oh my goodness it's a literal sad wet cat

[freak-with-thoughts]

they look so angeyyyhhhhyy

[dead-boysss]

There is an ancient sadness in their eyes

[freak-with-thoughts]

even sleeping they look like they just fell iver qnd ceased to be awake

[dead-boysss]

Showww 🥺

[freak-with-thoughts]

Literally laying on their stomach with their arms folded under thier head

[dead-boysss]

Awwwwwwwww

[freak-with-thoughts]

also them liking the bed is good because thats the bed our dog uses, so thisll get them used ti the smell of her around

[dead-boysss]

Yay! Aughhhh the tinyyyy

[freak-with-thoughts]

its absurd how little they are

They feel like DRYER LINT

thats how soft

[dead-boysss]

Why does everyone call kittens dryer lint

[freak-with-thoughts]

i cannot articulate this enough

Pull some dryer lint out of your dryer

thats the texture of their furr

[dead-boysss]

Oh my goddd

[freak-with-thoughts]

TINY STRETCH

[freak-with-thoughts]

[freak-with-thoughts]

guess what

[dead-boysss]

Oh my goodness it's a literal sad wet cat

[freak-with-thoughts]

they look so angeyyyhhhhyy

[dead-boysss]

There is an ancient sadness in their eyes

[freak-with-thoughts]

even sleeping they look like they just fell iver qnd ceased to be awake

[dead-boysss]

Showww 🥺

[freak-with-thoughts]

Literally laying on their stomach with their arms folded under thier head

[dead-boysss]

Awwwwwwwww

[freak-with-thoughts]

also them liking the bed is good because thats the bed our dog uses, so thisll get them used ti the smell of her around

[dead-boysss]

Yay! Aughhhh the tinyyyy

[freak-with-thoughts]

its absurd how little they are

They feel like DRYER LINT

thats how soft

[dead-boysss]

Why does everyone call kittens dryer lint

[freak-with-thoughts]

guess what

[dead-boysss]

Oh my goodness it's a literal sad wet cat

[freak-with-thoughts]

they look so angeyyyhhhhyy

[dead-boysss]

There is an ancient sadness in their eyes

[freak-with-thoughts]

even sleeping they look like they just fell iver qnd ceased to be awake

[dead-boysss]

Showww 🥺

[freak-with-thoughts]

Literally laying on their stomach with their arms folded under thier head

[dead-boysss]

Awwwwwwwww

[freak-with-thoughts]

also them liking the bed is good because thats the bed our dog uses, so thisll get them used ti the smell of her around

[dead-boysss]

Yay! Aughhhh the tinyyyy

[freak-with-thoughts]

guess what

[dead-boysss]

Oh my goodness it's a literal sad wet cat

[freak-with-thoughts]

they look so angeyyyhhhhyy

[dead-boysss]

There is an ancient sadness in their eyes

[freak-with-thoughts]

even sleeping they look like they just fell iver qnd ceased to be awake

[dead-boysss]

Showww 🥺

[freak-with-thoughts]

Literally laying on their stomach with their arms folded under thier head

[dead-boysss]

Awwwwwwwww