HATED BY LIFE ITSELF.

𝘌𝘝𝘌𝘕𝘛𝘜𝘈𝘓𝘓𝘠 𝘞𝘌 𝘞𝘐𝘓𝘓 𝘋𝘐𝘌. 𝘠𝘖𝘜 𝘞𝘐𝘓𝘓, 𝘐 𝘞𝘐𝘓𝘓.

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#DEADN30N:      […]       an independent  &&  semi-private multimuse written by Autumn. 34. she/he/they      […]       featuring    Ying Ren    from the gacha game Honkai Star Rail. low activity, minimal graphics, oc  &&  crossover friendly. duplicate friendly. franchises you may see on this blog include:  Dead N30n  (  my upcoming novel  ),  Honkai Star Rail,  Genshin Impact,  The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System, League of Legends, etc. please ensure you read my rules before interacting. dark themes will be present here.

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today on; 'unexpected ships that slap Alex in the face' featuring.....

Elio and Ren

thank u xero for giving me a reason to fuck up my sleep schedule by staying up too late rping on discord LMAO

in other news, i'm making my next week's work schedule with diana today soooooooOOOOOOooooOOOoooOOo i'm determined to squeeze in free time to write on tumblr ( finally ) and actually spend proper time with friends AUGH

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listening back to my VOD from earlier and finding again where i was dissing nine for liking asat pramad and i dropped the hottest line of

'five finger death punch? more like fifteen finger pussy blast'

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sometimes i worry about the fact i made blade trans would make people disinterested in my portrayal but then i remember if you don't love big buff men with pussies you're a fake fan anyway and don't deserve him

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do you ever love a character SO MUCH you're looking at potentially taking art classes just so you can learn how to draw them or are you normal

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my twitch chat's very normal response to blade on screen

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i am absolutely TERRIFIED for the next half of 4.3 i'm about to stream

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JK work called and asked me to cover a few hours this morning so i'll be finishing patch a little later in the afternoon ( probably after 2pm ) I'M STILL NERVOUS THO

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i am absolutely TERRIFIED for the next half of 4.3 i'm about to stream

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tried to take a drink of my cherry pepsi and knocked my teeth into the bottle bc i forgot the take the cap off. smooth. anyway, more 4.3 thoughts beneath the cut

bear in mind i'm maybe only halfway through? or a quarter of the way through? i have to work tonight so i didn't stream super long, i'll be streaming the rest tomorrow since i have the day off but aside from the AshRen headcanons i made two months ago become canon ( thank you hoyo for feeding my shameless ship ) i have to say i spent a good portion of today's 4hr stream just sobbing my eyes and i want to share two parts that particularly made me cry harder than i should've

there's also the 'farewell' with the full moon behind him and the little smile that got me FUCKED UP

not to mention his entire interaction with silver wolf is soooOOOOOO DAUGHTER DAD CODED literally nobody but the people who either can't read or are willfully ignorant can deny how important the stellaron hunters are to each other AND THEY'RE FAMILY they love each other so much!!!!!

the fact that blade even made special parting gifts for each one including elio is destroying me. genuinely. he claims he's nothing more than a broken blade but you know what that broken blade has a heart and found a purpose and new life with the stellaron hunters and he adores them to the world and back and i stand by my statement that his greatest fear is outliving them and not seeing any of them reach their goals

hearing how upset he got when silver wolf talked about the cartridge and how there were very subtle notes of fear in his voice bc he doesn't want her to use up her life and die because of it......... that's his fuckin DAUGHTER MAN HE LOVES HER

i stopped at the part where himeko and ryusuke are meeting up so i don't know what else is to come but i'm simultaneously excited and terrified bc i have no idea what's going to happen tomorrow but im not emotionally prepared for it man my head HURTS from how much i was crying what the fuck

i also made the elective decision to play this particular patch in english bc i LOVE daman's voice acting and i'm sooooo glad i did bc i could feel the emotion and power behind his lines and i sincerely hope one day i'll be able to meet daman and tell him how much he changed my life for the better FUCK

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I'M LOSING MY FUCKING MIND

MY HEADCANON FROM TWO MONTHS AGO OF YINGXING HAVING MADE BOTH ASHVEIL'S CANE AND ARM CAME TRUE IN THIS PATCH

ASHREN SHIPPERS WE ARE SOOOOOOOOO BACK

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now i just need to get him e2 and he'll be perfect ( more perfect than he already is )

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why does being an adult mean touching grass why can't i just dissolve into a stain on my carpet so i never have to move again

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i have a very important decision for you all to help me make, bc a couple full time positions have opened up at my job and as a pre-existing employee, i have earlier access to them than the regular public so i need you all help me pick. which one do you think would be more fun? i have interest in all of these, the hard part is just picking which one i wanna go with ( i can also get cross-trained later on this is just a starting point )

which station?

garden center ( yippee flowers!!! no yippee... allergies )

paint specialst ( i love love LOVE home decoration )

lumber specialst ( haha touching wood )

electrical and lighting ( let me touch the spicy rope )

OR stay as front cashier ( i enjoy this a lot already )

Voting ended onJun 2

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happy pride month ren really loves kissing boys!

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i don't know how i'm getting followers when all i've done is shitpost the past 3 weeks and have written nothing but thank you for choosing my dumb blog LMAO

on the upside, i should be back to writing in another week or so. i know people are waiting on dms and stuff from me and i'm trying to get to those i promise. i might drop in late tonight but i'll be busy most of today and i work 12pm-9pm tomorrow so definitely not tomorrow sadly LDKSJAGHD

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I just realized that many many people have jobs

Rb with your job, wtf do you people do while offline???

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i finally figured out how to upload my screenshots from my game and i have to share some icons from my ocs and SunRen