sleep deprived chaos

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[deadwo0d]

; you drink the poison, gotta pay the price

heyo!! i ‘m arte, i have a few more names but that's the most commonly used one. nicknames are welcomed. tbh, you can just call me whatever so long as i know i am being addressed

i go by he/they and i do a lot of things. and like a lot of things. i think it's fun to find those out organically

feel free to send me asks, i don't bite {or tag me in things!! i like doing tag games and also just getting mentioned on posts}

also! i draw sometimes. usually keep it on @deadwo0d-with-cheese for organization

all donation asks will be deleted, as i am very uncomfortable receiving them. i am not able to offer financial support and i doubt my blog is big enough to where they gain traction

[yfel-axel]

redraw of howl's moving castle ending scene

[ruporas]

sleep a little longer (id in alt)

[endybearw]

[harrowharr0w]

attack on @/skullyphobic! frmm mocha oc..

[dontwaitfortuesday]

on life and hope Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934/ Cueva de las Manos, Argentina/ Neil Hilborn, Numbered Days/ Unknown

[cooking-with-hailstones]

"The last time any human touched Ryland Grace was an act of horrific violence"

Well... Yes and no.

The last time Ryland Grace was CONSCIOUS of any human touch was when he was knocked out. Absolutely true.

But the last human contact he would have had was Yao and Ilyukhina. Who were told that he was scared about panicking during launch and asked to be sedated. Who did all the pre flight checks before the Hail Mary launched. Who would have carefully, gently carried Grace to his bed in the dormitory, made sure he was secure, and initiated his coma procedure.

There would have been love there. Remember Ilyukhina throwing her hands high and saying "welcome to crew!" Remember Yao saying how he hoped Grace would say yes. Remember how much the crew trusted Grace, Stratt's First Officer, the guy who helped them so much, and was so kind to them, and was the one who they entrusted their preferred methods of suicide to. Who thought they were wonderful and brave.

They would have tucked him in. Maybe brushed his hair out of his face. Maybe said something kind to him before initiating their own coma procedures.

Ryland Grace doesn't remember, of course he wouldn't. But the last human touch he ever had was full of love.

[marwyn]

Is your first name canon in asoiaf

Yes

No

Sort of (spelled differently, etc.)

Remaining time: 4 days 19 hours

Here’s the character list on the wiki for reference

[yashia7archive-deactivated20231]

you might bethinking "its so over" but the sun will rise tomorrow and youll be like "omg. its so back." remember this

[fluffyartbl0g]

Shout out to that one tumblr post that was like: "You know it's not just trans people who ponder their gender, it's healthy for cis people to take a look inside and be like! Yep that's all good!" And I read this post and was like.... like what do you look at inside though T O T??? I asked my boyfriend how he knew he was a boy and he said he just felt this unexplainable intrinsic feeling he was a boy... and I'm like... I HAVE GENUINELY NO IDEA WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT WTF 😭😭😭!!!!!!!! So apparently its like. Normal for people to feel this inexplicable 'Gender' feeling or whatever,,, I feel like how asexual people feel when they discover people around them aren't making up the fact they experience sexual arousal T O T

Obviously all my sciency stuff is just speculation! But I'm the type of person who believe that everything has a rationale behind it, and like an adopted child who is curious about their biological parents, I am just interested in my origins! The field of genetics still is mostly just like,,,, hmmm we think this whatever MIGHT be a contributing factor to a person turning out this way... maybe. If you are more interested in the topic I discussed, just look up 'Genetic Memories in Animals' and there should be some more stuff OuO!

I'd love to hear how this 'inexplicable gender feeling' feels to gendered individuals! For those willing to share, I'd love to listen!

[mikotos-nape-nibbler]

[woman-becomer]

imagine a goat with a hat

STOP-

what hat did you give the goat what is the instinctual hat you gave to this goat

[parkchanwoohoo]

[drops-of-universe]

please dont vape your blueberry ice flavor around my kid. we are raising him on marlboro reds exclusively.

[sylvanitchi]

looks at you like this

[hibi-flower]

sources: l.e.s. by donald glover // this year by the mountain goats // maya hornbacher, madness // watchisjawdrop on tumblr // wuntrum on tumblr // kim kardashian // unknown // godblessryankent on tiktok // nayyirah waheed // unknown // lev st. valentine

on hope, finally

[hibi-flower]

sources: unknown // unknown // maplepecanpastry on tumblr // ashmanathletics on tiktok // i saw the tv glow (2024) // pray for me by kendrick lamar // unknown // what are you waiting for? by derald cannon jr. // unknown // unknown // drunk drivers/killer whales by car seat headrest // polekingrasputin on instagram

on waiting / on saving yourself