chenle best boy!

#DREAMIES: we can make the stars align! also nini's requests are open <3

[dearcnehle]

mobile masterlist! ☆

updated as of: march 7, 2021

MARK

coming soon!

RENJUN

! timestamps

[02:47] - angst, fluff

JENO

coming soon!

HAECHAN

! timestamps

[23:47] - fluff

JAEMIN

! oneshots

fate - 1.3k, angst, fluff?

when the stars align - 1.5k, angst, fluff?

CHENLE

coming soon!

JISUNG

coming soon!

[dearcnehle]

[02:47] “hey jun?” you rumble from under his chin. eyes sleepy, yet still reflected the cast of the moon.

“yes darling?” tone softer than a feather, fitting the calm atmosphere that they’ve created. filled with a love so honest, pure, and warm.

“among all of the universes we’re in, how many are the ones where we spend our lifetimes with each other?” you questioned.

since birth, renjun has always been different. i mean, have you ever seen someone who knows everything that will happen? he can tell the future, that’s not a secret. but how he knows everything even in universes that are far away, is beyond me. and even beyond you.

he has never been ashamed about this fact, rather he embraced it. he was always open to any thoughts that people had about his gift and answered every query that people may have asked. but the question you raised, might be the hardest yet. and he knows exactly what the answer is.

“none.” he answered shakily, he didn’t want to admit it.

heck, he loved you more than anything, even in all of the different universes you were in. but not even one time, were you ever for each other. he tensed up, and you noticed this.

“that’s fine. we’ll be fine, jun.” with soft caresses to his hand, you whispered.

“you’ve always told me that sometimes, you have to lose someone in order to realize that they’re the best thing that has happened to you.” you continued with a heavy heart.

“doesn’t it hurt, y/n? we’re spending all this time, falling and falling. just for us to not work out?” renjun squeaked.

in his mind, you can’t not be hurt by the fact that he just spilled out.

“of course it hurts, jun. but if you think of it, it’s us. renjun and y/n. you and me. and i would never trade it for anything else. sure, i’ll lose you and that will break me hard. but knowing that you were once mine, and that i was once yours. that’s enough, it should be. right, bub?”

cocking your head up, you see a tear slipping out of his eye. a diamond making its way down his face. an angel with silver seeping out of his lash line.

“i love you, y/n.” he mumbled. a kiss on your forehead leaving warmth of his unconditional love for you.

only the moon and the stars saw how he wrapped his arms around you tighter, his heart pounding louder, and how his love grew deeper with every second that passed. they also saw how he wished harder for longer days with you. hoping, praying for more time, more moments, more you. forever engraved in the night sky how desperate he was to stay with you. 

“i love you too, jun.”

[dearcnehle]

my hyuck timestamp??? has 88 notes??? THANK YOU??? WHAT I LOVE ALL OF YOU GOSH

[dearcnehle]

[23:47] “hyuck what are you doing-“ you stopped, your eyes meeting twinkling lights, picnic baskets, and a bouquet of hydrangeas. his grip on your forearm loosens, picking up the bouquet and extending it towards you.

“hyuck, it’s almost midnight. what are we doing here?” you complained, the boy just dragged you out of bed and sneaked you out of a window. but you complied, the boy was too charming to pass up.

“you’re probably gonna forget this in the morning.” he whispered “but for tonight? let’s fall in love.”

[dearcnehle]

hi i just wanted to say your writing is so beautiful

aaaaa!!!! tysm 🥺🥺🥺 i’ll continue to try my best 💗

[dearcnehle]

when the stars align.

(prequel to fate. read here!)

rich!jaemin x rich!reader, star-crossed lovers au!

1.5k words, a lot of angst sorry, ¿fluff?

(implied fem reader)

summary: it’s the night before your sister’s wedding and you’re bawling your eyes out. until a certain na jaemin, spams your phone telling you to come with him at 1am.

!warning(s)!: swearing, it’s just really sad ig?? the ending sucks im sorry://

a/n: hiii!!!! so some people requested to have a pt.2 and ig this is it? well, it’s a prequel so i’m not sure if that counts but whatever. i’m still learning how to write angst well sooo bear with me plz (o･ω･o) and again!! english is not my first language!! so there might be grammar and punctuation errors so i’m rlly sorry for that. if y’all have any suggestions??? that would be so nice omg<33 lastly!!! thank you to everyone who read fate??? I DID NOT EXPECT PEOPLE TO READ IT PLEASE. tysm!! and i hope you enjoy this one too!!

not proofread! (lyrics are from “la la lost you” by niki!)

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[01:42] my jaems <3: hey baby

[01:42] my jaems <3: im here, at your doorstep

[01:43] my jaems <3: i know you dont want anything to do with me rn

[01:44] my jaems <3: but, please come with me. 

[01:44] my jaems <3: if you’re uncomfy with it, u dont have to.

[01:44] my jaems <3: i dont want my baby uncomfy. ever.

[01:45] my jaems <3: im spamming i think,, sorry bubs

[01:45] my jaems <3: i’ll just w8 here, oki?

[01:45] my jaems <3: love you, beloved.

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You were laying on your bed, bloodshot eyes scrolling through the messages Jaemin spammed you with. You’ve done absolutely nothing today, well, if crying your eyes out for the past 5 hours count: then you have done something today. 

Why is she crying? You may ask, and the reason is her sister’s wedding is tomorrow– no, later. That means it’s Jaemin’s as well. The boy she has been crying her eyes out for was outside, waiting for her at her doorstep. She doesn’t want to go, was her initial thought. But at the back of her mind, she knew. She knew that this would be the last time they could be together. “fuck it”, she thought. Getting up from the comfort of her bed and waltzing towards her closet, throwing a random hoodie—Jaemin’s—over her body, and bolted out of her room. 

Making your way down the staircase, the soft sounds of your feet patting against the wood filling the space. You stood in front of the main door, hesitating to open it because you knew that Jaemin would be on the other side. You hastily wipe your face to get rid of any evidence that you were crying, it probably did nothing but you still did it anyway. Taking a deep sigh, you grabbed the cold doorknob and carefully opened the door. 

He was just patiently standing there, tapping his shoes on the concrete pavement. A coat draped over his arm despite wearing a thick one of his own. As soon as he heard the clicking of the doorknob, he tilted his head up, staring into your beautiful orbs with a grin on his face. You probably didn’t look your best right now, but to Jaemin, you were perfect. 

With a few stray hairs framing your face and your fingers hidden under your sweater paws, he swore he fell in love all over again. But he didn’t miss the dried tear tracks under your eyes, causing his grin to drop. He encased you into a hug, and you let him. His warmth seeping through and enveloping you, giving you the urge to cry again. You sniffled, causing Jaemin to pull away. His hand reaching up to cup your cheeks and you tilt your head to lean more into his palm. 

“Why are you crying, my love?” he softly whispered, his fingers gently wiping your fresh tears. You simply shook your head no. You’ve been crying for so long now, you don’t think you even have the strength to speak. But you didn’t need to say anything, he already knew the reason for your tears. So, Jaemin presses a warm kiss to your forehead, the type of kiss that lingers. 

“I’ll always be yours, love. Even if the moon and sun collide, I’ll be yours. That’s a promise, my beloved.” he said in a gentle tone, love laced in his voice and honey dripping from his eyes that darted through yours. This causes a small smile to appear on your lips, and Jaemin does the same. He places a small peck on your nose and drags you to his car, fingers interlocked with yours. 

He opens the door on the passenger’s side for you to hop in, then he gently shuts the door. A few seconds later, he emerges from the driver’s side, offering Y/N a smile. “Hey, love,” he squeaks, causing you to look up at him. “I love you.” he continued, placing kisses on your fingers. “I love you too, Nana.” you lowly whispered, voice raspy and hoarse. It causes Jaemin to beam at you even more while lacing your fingers together again. 

He started the engine of the car, which was kind of a struggle because he was reluctant on letting go of your hand. You giggled at this, “Jaems, you can let go” you stated airily. “Never.” he answered. “Do you want to turn on the radio?” Jaemin asked, to which you nodded. You leaned over the stick and turned the radio on.

if i'm honest, i'd call, but i'm trying to let go

but you'll always have me, you'll always have me

all my demons run wild, all my demons have your smile

in the city of angels

in the city of angels

Kind of ironic, how the song playing on the radio was fitting to their current situation. No, Jaemin is not moving to a different city, but you feel like you’re still gonna lose him. He was the angel that fought all of the demons inside your head. But what will happen when he’s gone? 

“Bubs,” you said into the open air. “Yes, beloved?” he answered, with his eyes still on the road and his right hand holding yours. You look at him, staring at his side profile for a moment. You let out a sigh, and this doesn’t go unnoticed by Jaemin. His eyebrows furrow at this and he tightens his grip on your hand. “What’s wrong, baby? Are you feeling cold?” he takes a small glance at you and notices you were only wearing a thin hoodie—wait, isn’t that mine?

“Am I gonna lose you?” you whispered, cutting off his thoughts. Jaemin’s features shifted, if his face was worried a while ago, his features were now melancholic. He didn’t answer, he just kept driving and held your hand tight. 

A few more minutes and you’ve arrived at where Jaemin took you. He got out of the car and opened your door for you, offering a hand as you got down. “Wear this, love. So that you don’t feel cold.” he said while handing you a coat, you could tell that it was his and you gladly accepted it. 

He took you both on a hill, where you can see a big expanse of the sky. Filled with a blanket of stars, it was mesmerizing. But, you felt someone’s heated gaze at you. You turned your head to the left and Na Jaemin was staring at you like you were his world—you are. You stared at his eyes and you got lost in them, you were in a totally different universe. His eyes were the earth, the ground, and the trees standing tall, with seas that you drown in. They also had their own constellations, and you wish that this isn’t the last time you see those orbs again.

He wraps his arms around your waist and hides his face into your neck. With his actions, you sigh of relief. This is where you’re supposed to be, in his arms, there’s nothing better than this. You both stay like this for a while, taking all the time in the world even though it was an ungodly hour at night. You were relishing in the moment until you felt your neck getting wet. Confused, you pulled away from the hug to see tears streaming down Jaemin’s face. 

“Awww, Nana,” you said while cupping his cheeks, his sniffles took over after. You gave him a little kiss on the cheek, just like how you always did back in the days when he was stressed. Jaemin held onto you even tighter, he doesn’t want to let go. “Y/N” he whispered, making you hum as an answer. “You’re not gonna lose me,” he stated, causing a sad smile to appear on your face, “because I’ll always be here.” he continued, pointing at your chest where your heart rests.

“It might be cliché, but it’s true. Whatever may happen to me and your sister will never change that you are the love of my life. We may be the ones to live the life that we’ve always wanted, but I’ll forever prefer to do them with you. And if we have kids? The stories that I’ll tell them will be about us. It will be Nana and beloved always.” he finished. He smiled even with tears in his eyes, but he still looked beautiful. 

“Do you think this is the end of us, Nana? What if it truly is us who are meant to be?” you questioned, your hands finding their way to his. “You and I don’t know that, and if it truly is the end of us, we just have to accept it.” he answered, fiddling with your fingers and his eyes gazing at the stars. You can only stare at his side profile—gosh, i don’t want to let him go. 

“Maybe it’s never supposed to be us. Not today, not tomorrow, not ever.” he starts, his eyes darting straight through yours. “But I hope that one day, all the stars align and they’ll be in our favor.” your eyes water at this, hands still gripping his like it’s the last thing you’ll ever do. “One day, they’ll finally let us be together.” his voice cracking, tears coming from the two of you. 

“and I swear that I’ll give everything just for that to happen, Y/N.”

[ncthyuck]

[leejenos-archive]

jeno from the surprise vlive ♡

[growasmileforawhile-deactivated]

[imm0bulus-blog]

I started following this girl and her whole dash ended up these. And her last post. I can’t even say words. Anons took her life. If that okay with you, then carry on with your day. If you agree this is unacceptable and okay, then reblog and spread the word. What you say can actually change a persons life! So help out

I don’t care if this makes your dash look ‘ugly’, no matter what type of blog you have you should reblog it.

[gr9--gatsby]

If you can’t reblog this, I pity you as a human being.

[sockiepie-deactivated20170426]

;~;

[ask-doctor-jadusable-deactivate]

[blood-blossom]

This is sickening. This is why I fuckin hate most anons. Most are just pure assholes. Bullies. But I realized something. They only hate on others cause their life is miserable. So they make others miserable to try and be happy. They need something to vent their pain on

[bongsausage]

No…..I will always Reblog this….This just isn’t right

[rayyyyofsunshineeeee]

if you don’t reblog shame on you..

[circasim]

So honestly think twice, and even actually think way moooooore than twice before sending anon hate and ending up being a cyber murderer…

[pixelunivairse]

[ladyhayny]

Okay, I never reblog things, but this? people have no excuse to be treating others like that, nothing can justify your terrible actions, you horrible people, I feel so mad at those assholes.. I mean come on! The world would be a better place if you kept your shitty opinions for you, it’s not my fault if you’re an asshole but at least you could keep it for yourself instead of making the world an ugly place….

[ask-ghost-feli]

//This is awful. Why would you do something like this? How can you be so fucking cruel  to other person that didn’t do anything to you? This is just… Horrible and you’re a horrible person, you have no excuses.

[ask-angel-romano-archives-deact]

I’m sorry but why the fluff do you do this? Does it bring you some sick joy to see someone break down? To be the reason why an actual person kills themselves? Not only in it just plain wrong but you can be given fines and even be arrested for that. And don’t think you’ll never be caught because you’re on anon. The police can easily trace your I.P address and track you down. Please, a little bit of constructive criticism is fine, sometimes even asked for. But this is horrible.

[ask-angel-romano-archives-deact]

Oh~ And I’ve found something for these anons. If this happens actually anyone can find you with an easy search.

Here is a Tumblr post that tells people what to do.

[ask-aph-belarusian-figure-s-blog]

That’s the most disgusting thing possible. Why would anyone encourage someone to commit suicide? If anyone’s sending those messages to you, ignore them. You are good, you are brave, you are beautiful. It might not feel that way at the minute, but wait. Hold on a little longer, and I swear it will all work out.

[ask-alien-usa]

This is disgusting. Please know that you are all worth it. You are all needed in some way and that you matter. Don’t let anyone damper that.

[thegreatficmaster-deactivated20]

Well, we see all this shit going about…

Here’s an example of why u DON’T send hate…

Stop with that shit and go find something that’s gonna give u some sort of joy, cos spreading this hate isn’t gonna do shit for u, or anyone else.

Stop…and move on with ur life…

[leatherwhiskeycoffeeplaid]

See this right here is part of what almost killed me last summer. I had other stuff going on mentally but seeing in my inbox over and over again negative things the monsters in my head were saying too just pushed. Pushed so far I was ready, made a plan, and waited for my family to leave the house so I could be alone to go through with my plan. Kind people saved me from myself but there are too many unkind people out there who are pushing and pushing those already on the edge. Stop pushing before you cause someone to go over that edge. It doesn’t solve anything, it just causes problems for people you don’t even know about.

[its-the-hamfam]

Never send hate, it hurts. Love helps to heal, along with time. Go out and make someone’s day better.

[fixing-fetuses]

no matter what the recipient of the negative message has done, no one deserves to be told that they should kill themselves. people can change, and everyone deserves a shot at life. humans are blessed with the capability to do and say as they please, and to make their own decisions as to who and what they want to subject themselves to. if there is someone you do not like, you have the choice whether or not you want to affiliate with them. if your words bring someone to ending their own life, you are as guilty as a murderer.

- Mod Sheep

[ask-sonya-rostova]

//This is horrible. My lovely gf got anon hate from her own mother. Yeah. That’s as horrible as it sounds.

[sticktomyheart-deactivated20210]

Oh my god. This is terrible.

[imaginethisorthat]

No hesitation. Re blogged.

[midnight-spectrum-again]

Yo what the fuck

[the-chaoscrow]

IF ANYONE SENDS YOU HATE SEND THEM OVER TO ME I’LL SET THEM STRAIGHT I AM THE MAMA SPACE DRAGON AND NO ONE ATTACKS MY BABIES 

[jeanjacket-lesbian-deactivated2]

I’ve hear people say there’s no such thing as cyber bullying and because its anonymous!is, it won’t hurt anyone’s feelings, its just a joke, it doesn’t matter. If UT doesn’t !after then wtf is this? Reblog

[eterni-ki-moved]

Think about it this way: if someone said something harsh towards you and said “it was a joke” but you still took offense to it, is it still funny? No. It’s the same thing here.

How would you feel if someone said that to you? You should think that before spreading hate to someone.

[galaxybambam-deactivated2023030]

Why the hell anybody would do this to a human being is beyond my comprehension

[httphyucks]

if you send someone anon hate or push them to kill themselves, i pity you. i hope you find peace before it’s too late. how could you say things like that, push someone to taking their own life, and be okay with it?

and to anyone seeing this: if you are contemplating suicide, don’t do it. you are so amazing. you’re loved. you’re perfect. your life can be fixed. you can get through this. if you need someone to talk to, please dm me. i care about you all. i feel your pain. you’re safe here, okay? if anyone is sending you these messages, delete them. don’t feed into them. you’re worth way more than that.

[dearcnehle]

i started writing the prequel for fate!! but i’ll probably finish it during my christmas break which is next week:>>

[dearcnehle]

fate.

rich!ex!jaemin x rich!reader au

1.3k words, angst, ¿fluff?

summary: it was a simple family gathering, lunch at the na’s family garden. your niece, however, is a bit too invested in your love life.

!warning(s)!: mentions of fighting

a/n: hi!! this is the first-ever au that i’ve EVER written hdjahdjahs plz be nice. also, english isn’t my first language :// sooo if there are any corrections in grammar and punctuations, that would be a big help! i rlly hope you enjoy reading ghkshgk tysmm<33

not proofread!

"Auntie Y/N!” A small voice came towards you, running. You were currently situated on a small bench in front of the Na’s humongous fountain. It was your niece. Her eyes gleaming with innocence, her nose as cute as a button, and her smile that was all too familiar to you. She hopped onto your lap, startling you.

“Hi, sweetheart. How have you been?” You answered with a knowing smile on your face, it doesn’t help that your niece was adorable.

“Mommy and Daddy have been fighting a lot, me and my brother sleep together at night because we get scared.” She whispered in your ear, a hand covering her mouth so no one else can know what she’s talking about. After what your niece had said, a bunch of question marks formed above your head. Fighting? Your sister and… Jaemin?

Growing up, you and your sister have had a handful of arguments, disagreeing on all kinds of things; the small and the big. But overall, your sister was the sweetest. She always had your back and you always had hers, the two of you loved each other. And Jaemin, he was a sweetheart.

“I’m so sorry for that, darling. Do you mind telling me what they were fighting about?” You asked carefully, you know that it’s bad to get into someone else’s business but you can’t help but pry.

“I always hide under the blankets but I hear Mommy saying the word “beloved” a lot. Do you know what that means, Auntie Y/N?” She says while playing with the rings on your fingers. At the word “beloved”, a shiver goes down your spine, your eyes start shaking and you feel your heart beating out of your chest.

“O-oh, I don’t know what it means. Maybe you can ask your Mommy about it next time?” You suggest nervously, a single bead of sweat making its way down your forehead despite the cool winds of autumn.

“I guess I’ll ask her later. Auntie Y/N, can I ask you a question?” The girl on your lap looks at you with her adorable doe eyes, she obviously got them from your sister. You nod at her, prompting her to go on.

“Why don’t you have a husband? You’re the prettiest auntie that I have!” She exclaimed while throwing her hands in the air to justify her point. You let out a little giggle at your niece’s adorable actions, yet you feel your insides twist and turn. You exactly know the reason why you don’t have a husband, but how do you explain it to your 7-year-old niece?

“Well, I chose not to have a husband. Besides, it’s fun being single.” You answer with a half-hearted smile on your face, hoping it’s enough to satisfy your niece.

“Doesn’t it get lonely, Auntie? You’re just by yourself. Look at Mommy and Daddy! They have each other.” She states, making a strong point, but breaking your heart in the process. 

“It does get lonely all by myself. But, I don’t think I can love anyone anymore, darling.” You answer truthfully, your emotions are coming out and you hate it. You always become so vulnerable when it comes to these topics, and you certainly don’t want to cry in front of your niece.

“Oh? You used to love someone, Auntie?” Your niece squeaks out, clearly interested in the topic you have brought up.

“I still love them, darling. But, I shouldn’t.” You said in a soft voice, staring at your niece with sincerity in your eyes. Her face contorts at this, might be a little too much to understand for her age. Her nose scrunched and her eyebrows furrowed together, you can almost see the cogs moving inside her head.

“Then who is it, Auntie?” She mutters after a reasonable amount of time, trying her best to understand what you just said. And you try to compose yourself, how do i tell you that it’s your da-

“Sweetie! It’s time to come inside!” A voice hollered from inside the home, slowly walking up to the two of you in the garden. You could recognize that voice from miles away, it was the same voice that used to call you “beloved”.

Your niece, however, had a frown on her face. She was clearly invested in the conversation you two were having, but it had to be cut short.

“Daddy, I’m talking to Auntie Y/N!” The little girl exclaimed with the cutest pout on her face, a pout that scarily resembled her father’s. A part of you was relieved, you didn’t have to tell her who your secret love was.

“It’s okay, darling. Your father’s looking for you now, you should probably go.” You said in a convincing tone, trying to get the reluctant girl to go to her father.

“But you haven’t told me who it is yet!” She was now throwing a proper fit, with her arms crossed and her cheeks puffed out.

“Who’re you talking about, honey?” asked Jaemin, who was now knelt in front of you and your niece.

“Auntie Y/N was about to tell me about the person she loves!” The girl exclaimed, an angry pout still plastered onto her lips. Her father can’t help but chuckle at her antics, ruffling her hair in the process. You, however, felt embarrassed. You were about to say something to defend yourself but Jaemin beat you to it.

“Well, I’m pretty sure that the person that your Auntie Y/N loves is someone lovely, honey. Someone who makes her laugh and makes her feel loved.” He said while patting his daughter’s head and you felt like crying. Your niece seemed pretty satisfied with her father’s answer, making grabby hands toward him as a sign that she wanted to be carried. After that, Jaemin looked you in the eye, offering a smile. But, it wasn’t like the other ones that you received in the past.

“You coming in, Y/N?” He asked with the same careful tone he always used to use, still dripping with love. You shook your head no and he understood, making his way back into the house with his daughter in his arms.

You realized that you were the only one left in the Na’s family garden. All alone, you let your emotions come out. Glistening tears making their way down your face, you miss him so much.

Na Jaemin. If love was a person, it would be him. He was the someone who made you laugh and the someone who made you feel loved. He was the one who called you “love” and on some occasions, he would call you “beloved”. Do you know how people tell you that there is someone destined for you? You never thought of anyone besides him. Na Jaemin, the boy who used to give you flowers whenever you were sad and used to drive you to McDonald’s at 1 AM just to buy you chicken nuggets. He used to cuddle you to sleep and shower your face with kisses when you wake up. Na Jaemin, your greatest love. It’s sad, isn’t it? You used to lay in bed, cuddled in each other’s arms, giggling about the thought of little Y/N’s and little Jaemin’s running all over the place.

Fate is cruel. Who would’ve thought that your sister would get wedded to the love of your life? All because of business. Sometimes you wish to be born in another life, where everything is easier and without parents who are watching your every move. Maybe then loving Na Jaemin would be easier.

You have nothing left but your memories with him, clouding your mind every single moment. Every touch, every glance, every word he has spoken to you since the very beginning. That’s all you have, and that’s more than enough. But you can’t help but want more, knowing that Na Jaemin is thinking the same things as you.

[dearcnehle]

this is my first tumblr post ever... hi 🧍‍♀️