Dear Me

My mental health journey Don't be afraid to share your story someone needs it!

[dearme7]

[dearme7]

Don't give up~

Don't give up because we are near the end

Don't give up because you can't seem to win the battle

Don't give up because someone out there still needs you

Don't give up when your ground is shaking

Don't give up because you keep falling

and the hill is hard to climb

Don't give up when you've got nothing left because you will find your strength in God

Don't give up, the Lord is saying to you

Don't give up,

You never Know when you will See The Light on the other Side!

God is saying to You ~

I am here never far

I will never leave you just where you are

Reach out and take my hand and I will lead you to the Land of Promise

Nothing is Over until I say it is

so tell me this will you keep fighting

Look up it's almost nigh, the battle is finished but the war is still yet to come because I only give my Warriors the most strongest of Storms because I know that I am in You and I am More Greater, I am More Powerful, and Nothing is Impossible to those we keep pressing On, Keep Staying Strong!

[dearme7]

Happy Valentine's Day 💘

May you take it easy on yourself and feel God's love wrap you up today!

John 3 16

[dearme7]

It's hard to be real with the wrong person but when the right person comes along, it gets better

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Have you ever seen someone with a bag over there heads I'm not talking about physically I'm talking about spiritually there's a lot of people in this world you can't trust the only person you can trust is God there's a lot of people that will judge you talk about you say negative things about you and all you want to do is walk away put the bag over your head and hope to God that nobody sees you maybe you feel like if you hide in a hole somewhere you won't have to hear the whispers you won't have to listen to the intuitive thoughts, the weird stares, the clearing the throats, sometimes you just want somebody to see past the scars past the flaws past the problems and just see the real you just like Jesus does to me that is so comforting but today I honestly just want to place that bag over my head and just be in a corner somewhere, but I'm not going to I'm going to learn to keep my mouth shut about things certain things sometimes there are things you can't talk about you have to take them to your grave because you're worried or you're afraid that if you mention people going to talk behind your back and gossip about you instead of confront you or talk to you about it, and it hurts and you feel uncomfortable but you don't have to let it get to you just move on shake It off there are going to be people in this world that don't like you that don't accept you for who you are and that's okay you're not meant to fit in this kind of world but that shouldn't stop you from being yourself, so let your light shine for the right kind of people be cautious until you find them, and when you do they'll love you for who you are, not for what you have or what you're going through!

[dearme7]

Choose yourself for once!

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Whatever your story, whatever has happened in your past, whatever you are carrying let this encourage you ❤️

[dearme7]

Today is a new day in the Lord 😊

Love yourself,

Smile,

Take one step at a time

[dearme7]

Dear me today was really hard because I learned something about myself I have been prideful and selfish and yes I cried yes it hurt but I needed to hear it sometimes we have to let go of those things that are holding us back in Sin weighing us down in wickedness God knows us more than we know ourselves, He also knows what's best for our hearts and minds to become better to become Holy , to become at all we need to surrender to let go, because if we keep holding onto what we know and if isn't for us it's going to case more suffering than freedom so whoever needs this let this encourage you God want us to be our very best He said to me this is what has been going with you and your heart towards your husband that I need to fix I'm not telling you this to hurt you but to show you what I can do through you, to Learn to Love in ways you don't understand yet!

We all have problems in our lives, and God is here to help us even if it means revealing things about ourselves that need fixing that only He can fix yes it might hurt it might be hard but for us to become like Him there are things we're going to have to give up about ourselves.

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Dear me I want to talk about what happened yesterday the pain the guilt the intrusive thoughts it wasn't your fault I know as a mother you love and you nurture but you also protect and what you have learned from your therapist today is if you keep protecting them and they never explore this world they will never know how to do anything it will traumatize them I remember hearing the screams I remember the look on his face I had turned away for just a moment and then I turned back and it was like time itself when I reached out my hand was in slow motion when he was reaching up grabbing the hot cup of coffee that had spilled upon him his arm his chest and shoulder was so red all over my 17 month old baby just got burned and I cried and I cried trying not to let it show around my husband because I didn't want him to think it was my doing because I wasn't paying attention, I wasn't doing my job because I I was on my phone or focused on something else, but I was so angry with myself I walked away into the bathroom I was trying to contain it I was trying to control it I breathed and deeply in exhaled and focused on him I ran as fast as I could to grab the aloe my husband holding him close trying to comfort him my oldest son wondering what was happening to his little brother I felt like I was a bad mom in that moment but I have learned that I can't hold on to them forever I can't keep them from this world forever I can't keep them safe forever because they will grow up and they will learn and they will know of the world it was a very dramatic morning and it happened I had prayed and prayed and asked God to help me in that moment and to take away that pain take away that guilt that I have felt take away that memory I didn't want to think about it no more I'm just thankful it wasn't boiling water or it would have been worse I'm just thankful that God can step into there's moments and keep his hand upon our children when we can't by sending his angels and I truly believe that yes my baby got burned but it could have been worse than it seemed I just have to remember that I can't always control my life and everything that happens with it I can't always control what happens to my children I just have to be there for them love them pray for them!

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Sometimes it takes a while to find myself, to find my mind but everyone has their bad days as well as their good ones so don't sweat it right? The only thing that matters is this if you can't seem to change your mindset about it then change your perspective in it, it's not how you think but how you react to it! Today has been a good day, yes it's been a hurdle but I've made it through that's good, but what if things go wrong I know how easy it is to complain or compare, but we've got to stay hopeful that things will change for us!

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One of those Days

Ahhh it's another day yesterday was really hard for me I got really depressed 😔 trying to juggle the kids, the house, I got so stressed I even broke out on my hand and it started itching and burning anxiety rashes they hurt, when my husband got home we got into it of course, not how I wanted the night to go, I was so tired, and overwhelmed the dishes are not done the laundry I hate them so much I can't stand it not looking at them, but it has to get done sometime I hardly ate enough of food I just dragged myself out of bed and took a shower and then before that my husband wanted a shower so I had to wait which was annoying because I couldn't decide if I wanted one or not yes these are one of my bad days hoping today will be better the sun is shining it's a beautiful day right now my little one is sleeping but I don't have time to rest not even for myself unless I'm really needing a nap so I got things to do it I don't get it done it never will be sometimes I'd like my husband t help me more than he is, and be honest I know it would so help me feel better i always thinkin my fantasy world of my mind if thing's could be diffirent in a better way, maybe someday it will be! Which made things worse were I yelled at my youngest son and oldest because I was mad at myself not getting things done all I want to do is help my husband to make him happy I can pray for him spiritually but I want to do something psychically I couldn't get my youngest in the highchair to fed him he was crying a loud and wouldn't stop then my oldest said something which made me feel worse." Mommy please don't be mad at brother God doesn't like it when your mad because he wants you to be kind my oldest said, and he tried to make me smile and laugh again by tickling me it worked to a point but I still felt bad like a really bad Mom I'm trying so heard not to live after my flesh but more in the spirit it's really hard not because I don't want to I even got texts from my best friend and a family member asking if I was okay I told them to pray 🙏😔 for me I got asked again this morning I said I'm okay I guess one foot in front of the other right? One day at a time? The question is, is there enough time?

[dearme7]

Just breathe if today isn't your day just breathe, God is with you when your having a moment of chaos or a moment of time to yourself...just take a breath and whisper God you are my strength, you are with me, I am not alone in the peace and stillness of silence you will hear Him say Come and Rest at my feet and Breathe just Breathe chaos calls but all you really need is just Breathe!

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Hello everyone dear me here, I believe God is taking me on a journey to discover and grow and I can't wait to share a journey outside of motherhood and being a wife of a journey finding myself again, finding me and I did some of that I did let go of some things today it feels so freeing when you actually release it, get it off your chest, it's okay to be vulnerable, no judgement, no criticism, but love and support this is what church is supposed to be...to make you feel safe so you can express yourself! I learned after everything that happened to me in the past to give myself some Grace and To Forgive Me 💕🙏

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What are you expecting for the new Year to come of 2024? I am expecting things to change a lot not just in my mind but in my life things to get better this year I've had to learn to be strong but next year I'm going to be happy because I've been through so much in my life ups and downs it's like a rollercoaster ride, it hasn't been easy nor fun at times but I'm still here aren't I and so are you so that should mean something let's look at the future, and allow God to lead us let's stay open minded and positive, that whatever we find it will be meant for us because we deserve it so be a little kinder to yourself, and stay humble.