You're the sparkle in my eye

Allysa. 26 ♉️. Two ♐️ babies. Mila & Captain. Married to my ♋️ high school sweetheart. 💑✌🏿️😉

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Sloppy baby kisses 👌🏽

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This is the plan we're going to buy. It's so spacious, I love it. Obviously we'll have to do some little tweaks, like extending the second loft and making it safe for the kids. I'll also Need to put in a bathtub, that's one thing I'm not willing to ever give up my 🛁 😌😌😌

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I want to build our own tiny house! I hate thinking of ever buying or shall I say “renting” a house from the bank again. I did it once and that was enough for me. It’s not anything I thought it would be. Knowing I put 37,000 dollars into something that I later gained knowledge I’ll never own, made me feel really dumb. It’s just like renting, except you are responsible for everything. Just burning all our well earned money away on something that we don’t need. We don’t need 1600 of sq feet. We’re all in the same room all the time anyway, I don’t cook and it’s more of a hassle than it’s ever been worth. I can’t afford to furnish it the way I want it, can’t afford anything for that matter. Paying 1100 a month for too much space, too much cleaning, too much fixing, too much worrying and knowing there’s so much more to life than a worthless mortgage. I’m done living that way. I’m done spending money towards things that are so minor and yet we make those things our priorities. It’s crazy. Living tiny would be (will be) so much more simple, grounding. We can travel and still be at home, we won’t have a mortgage & we’ll be REAl home owners. We will have money to actually LIVE and not stress. Ahhh, it will be amazing. We won’t be stuck and buried, we’ll be striving. I can’t wait to start building.

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So incredibly worn out from playing in the sun all day.

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Rise, shine, and run! This is my third day of running, and I'm feeling pretty good. The goal isn't to lose weight. I just want to feel comfortable. Plus, my mom decided to take me to Vegas for my birthday, which is less than two weeks away. Last time I went I was the heaviest I'd ever been (not counting being pregnant) and when I saw pictures of myself.. It was a shocker. I want to be able to take pictures and feel good about it. Running always makes me feel good anyway and it's so beautiful out here! So much better than running on a treadmill. Thursday- ran 6 miles Friday- walked 30 min Saturday- ran 6 miles Sunday- ran 3 miles

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I love these gorgeous people of mine!! ❤️💋

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Today's the day

My vegan life begins

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He's enjoying playing with sisters doll house, he sings along with the songs. It's so cute.

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Zac got a place and moves in Feb 1st. He has been staying with his sister until then. I’m a mess. Trying to find a new job so I can afford to keep this house and everything. Zac made pretty much all the money. I work part time. I’m overwhelmed. I hate everything about my life right now. I can’t afford anything.

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You go girl! I think you're hella strong and I know you'll get through this ☺️

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Minnie Mouse and daddy 🌚🌞

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Broke

And had McDonald's 🐷 Fast food twice this year so far.. And we're only on day 12 😿

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This is Mila when she was 13 months compared to captain at 13 months. They look so different. I feel like he still looks like a baby, not a toddler. It could be because he's petty much hairless and still crawls way more than he walks. I think since he reminds me of a baby, I tend to treat him like one. I forget to make him practice things and try new activities. He's smart and I'm sure is capable of a lot more than I think. 😐 whatevssss he is my baby and always will be 😚😚😚

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This little girl is fighting a cold, and as you can see, it got the best of her this evening. She usually doesn't just fall asleep on her own, especially not with a cookie in hand. I'm happy this happened though, now I have some time to myself😁 ahsh time!!

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Venting

So, I always get stuck in these roommate situations.. And I don't know why I haven't learned. When I first moved out, my husband and I got a house and we were doing fine with just the two of us. But, I had a coworker that was in an abusive relationship and to help him out of it I told him he could stay with us. First mistake! He was always up super late, always drunk and always threatening to commit suicide. It got old quick! He lived with us from October-January and was late on rent the whole time. Didn't help with shit and was hella annoying. AND ended up back in the abusive relationship. Then my husband convinces me to let his best friend move in. "He'll only need to stay here three-five months. Three to five months turned into the whole fucking time we lived there! Two years! I always think about the money and how much we'll save, but that never works out the way I think it will. Our rent was 600, so between two of us we were paying three for rent as was he, but that's all Kevin asked him to pay. While we were paying for his cable, Internet, electricity, trash..etc. it was bullshit! Nice person, but bullshit when it came to money. All I can blame is Kevin because he fucking lied to me the whole time which made me dislike his friend, which was just all in all a miserable situation. Finally we move into our own house (one that we own) Kevin tried to let his friend move in again with us and I was like are you fucking joking? Wtf! By this time Mila was already a year and I wanted her to live with just her mom and dad. I don't think that's too much to ask. We lived here for three months then I got pregnant again and I had to get rid of my third job which brought down the income. Then Kevin lost his job and yata yata, we decided to bring his brother out here from Missouri. I only agreed to this because I thought it would be good for Kevin to have his brother back in his life and it would get Terry back on track. This living situation wasn't supposed to be permanent. But of course the dude is still living with us. Not paying shit even though he has a job with Kevin, which Kevin got him so he could help us out. We agreed on two hundred a week, which isn't paying for much. But, he only pays us when he feels like it and on top of that his dad is living with us too! I'm so sick of it. Kevin won't tell them they need to pay or they need to move out, even though they're his family. It's so fucked up! I don't understand why it's so hard to help out. Like if I were living somewhere that wasn't my own, I'd feel so guilty living off of people. If anything I'd make it seem like I wasn't even living there (clean up after myself) they don't even ducking do that. It's awful. I'm about to write both of them and tell them how it is, and won't give a fuck if they hate me for it. They need to know its not right. And another thing that pisses me off. Kevin put Terry on his phone plan so Terry could get a new phone (couldn't pay off his own 600 dollar phone bill) told Kevin he'd go in half. Has he done that ? Nope! And then has the nerve to say he only needs to pay 10 toward it, but hasn't even done that.. And Kevin says/does nothing about it! Like really ? It's so dumb! Agh!

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January 4th

Vitamins ☑️ Walking✔️ Tip toed into yoga🆗 No shave or washing of my hair☑️ Being a more level tempered mother/wife ❌-have to work on that one

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This was us bringing in the new! This past year started out triumphantly shitty! Bringing in the new year with no one I cared to be with, wishing to have my family all together forever.. But feeling like my wishes would never amount. I was lonely by a fire and hoping the alcohol would do me a solid and let me forget, but it just fucked with my emotions even harder. I was a mess. But everything slowly started to work itself out, and hey, by the end of that shitty year I was back celebrating with the people I love and the ones I always want to be with, my nudist Mila and my silly captain!