Sorry it's been so long since I've last written.. I thought that if I acted like everything was okay and just "lived life", things would actually become okay.. To be honest, some days are easier than others. There are days when only happy memories of you come to mind. Then there are days where I lie awake in bed for hours and I'm only able to replay your last moments..over and over and over again.. Trooper, I miss you so much.. Though I miss you so much, i have made peace with the fact that you're gone. I saw you suffering and struggling. As a (pet) parent, as your mom, I made the decision to let you go..to let you finally get some rest.. Though it hurts and I feel as if I can't breathe, deep down, I know I made the right decision.. the right decision for you. I know you are no longer suffering. No longer struggling to walk..to drink..to sleep.. My sweet, sweet, baby.. how I wish I could see you be free from your illness..be free to be happy..