Life of a potential starving artist

Self-explanatory. A blog thing of some random nobody. Studies Art. Burdened with great purpose and ambitions. Sorting my life out. Mostly draws but may post anything.

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“Way too early for you to be here, cuz’.”

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Saturn aurora, taken by Nasa Hubble.

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Ballroom e Youkoso

I am disappointed in the direction this show has taken, so here’s Tatara in a dress. Very much inspired by this fic  

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This hoop is absolutely mesmorizing and music is quiet calming

⚠!!FLASHING LIGHTS!!⚠

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Here is me staring at the microwaveable food section at a Mark&Spencers (I would have loved to cook a little but my dear mother insists on getting lazy people food. Though granted the stuff really ain't bad) 

 I've made it to Plymouth, UK safe! It's where I'll be living for the next 2 years as I pursue an Illustration degree and question my life. It's still the beginning of orientation week, and my hall is still half-constructed so I'll be chilling in an Airbnb place for the moment. They've lost the bulk of my luggage on the way to London, but the stuff should be arriving anytime today as I write this post. Other than that, everything is alright. It's a nicely cool in Plymouth, with some strong winds and spontaneous drizzles, but we carried enough on hand to last us until the luggage arrives :) Haven't made a friend yet thus far, and I feel horribly insecure to suddenly be a "minority" but I'll adapt. I adapt quickly. At least I won't starve, and with three Poundlands nearby the school it means I won't be overly broke either, hehehe. 

 Anyway, I'll still need more time to settle in. I haven't been to much of Europe, but Plymouth to me is like a mix of Amsterdam and a remote Danish town, set in England, and that's just okay ;) 

 I wonder what kind of adventures await me here.

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Oh my god I am finally done with my concept art short course. It’s been so cool and I’ve learned quite a lot within this few months. One step closer to dreams.

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small oil still life, wip

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never thought this day would come so soon

So…I’ve actually applied for several universities in the UK, and the last of the responses came in an hour ago. Out of 6 applications in total I sent out, 5 of them were accepted and now…the time has come for me to make a decision. It’s going to be tough, probably the toughest decision I’m gonna make because it’s gonna shape the crucial next 2 years of my life, and it’s a decision I’m going to make entirely on my own. I will be studying for a BA in Illustration. 

Because I’m tired of Fine Art. I don’t think I’m meant to be a fine artist yet; it requires you to have things to say and I realized I don’t have a lot of things to say anymore, not right now. I want to try doing more of the art I wanted to do before and I want to try to find the feeling for it again.

Sometimes I really question if this is truly the best path for me to take. At this point, I admit I’m honestly disillusioned with art schools as a whole, but a part of me still wants to believe that I will find something, maybe not exactly the old things I loved, but something to love doing again, that will be the awesomest thing anyone has ever seen. To find a voice within me and to find a way to express it. To make something I’d be proud of. I dearly hope whichever place I choose to go to will help me in that. One thing for sure is that I need to leave my toxic bland island and go out to see the world.

I’m going to have to choose between Dundee University (Scotland), Plymouth University, Portsmouth University and CSVPA. Whichever I choose, may my road lead me to warm sands (figuratively).

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trying creature design this week

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a tedious birdcage wip

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A Mixture of Paint, Soap, and Oil Form an Eye-Opening Galaxy of Aqueous Visuals

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ゲンセンさんのツイート: 魚が第2形態から第3形態に https://t.co/pJMTCSmobJ

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fabulous pink lava

thanks dear classmate @theheartspeaksloudest for your support!

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one day I will draw great enviros.

meanwhile.

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recent work for a professional course, learning entertainment design like I always wanted *v* Great fun so far.

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(wip) you know I started drawing this after ep 10 8?...I wonder if I’ll ever finish it.