SubduedTwentySomething

A safe space for exploring kink, navigating the messy highs and lows of my twenties, and embracing every confusing, beautiful moment.

[deathssubbymoondust]

Welcome to my little online refuge

Welcome to my little corner of the internet, a safe haven where I’m figuring it all out. This blog is my refuge, a place to explore the messy, confusing, and sometimes kinky journey of my twenties. Here, I dive deep into the strange and sensual sides of life, embracing my submission within BDSM and sharing every bit of it openly. I write about the raw, unfiltered parts of myself — the dark days of depression, the heavy weight of suicidal thoughts, and the whirlwind of emotions that come with feeling everything so intensely.

But this space isn’t just about the heavy stuff. It’s also about celebrating life’s insanely good moments, those unexpected highs that make everything feel worth it. I’m 420 friendly and always looking for new ways to experience joy and freedom. This blog is a diary of everything — the dark and the dazzling, the kinky and the kind, the confusing and the clarifying.

This is a safe space for anyone who’s navigating their own messy twenties, who feels lost but keeps going, who’s searching for meaning in both the pain and the pleasure. Whether you’re exploring your own kink journey, struggling with mental health, or just trying to make sense of it all, you’re welcome here.

[ann0yed-b0yfriend]

Do you think you can out smoke me? How cute, come, sit on my lap as you light it for me, let me praise you every time you take a bigger hit, let me put the joint in your mouth and force you to get too high, let me punish you each time you cough making you strip, or when i feel like it, you won't notice, you are too high and can only think about how much you crave my dick.

Let me stretch your holes in ways that sober you couldn't dream of, let me make you do disgusting things while you're so stoned you thank me for it and begg for more, let me make you experience so much pleasure that sober sex wouldn't be enough anymore.

Let me corrupt you, for both our pleasure.

[deathssubbymoondust]

need. want.

[deathssubbymoondust]

Restart - Happy 2025

I lost two of my best friends. Actually, I walked away from them. The second they showed me who they really were, I had to go. I couldn’t keep pretending they were good for me. They went to the person who sexually harassed me, and honestly, that was the last straw. I blocked them, cut them out, and it was done. I want them dead ngl. I hate them.

I quit my job, too. I miss one of my patients so much—she was an angel in a place full of chaos. But the job was taking its toll on me, bringing me back to old habits, the things I tried so hard to leave behind. It was a slow burn, and I couldn’t keep sacrificing myself like that. So I left. It’s a relief, but it’s bittersweet.

But not everything is lost. I opened my relationship, and now I’m falling for someone new. They’re non-binary, and there’s something about them that makes me want to let go, to trust them completely. I feel a pull towards them—intense, maybe a little scared, but I want to explore it...

And then there’s my boyfriend. Four years together, and I’m still as in love with him as the first day we met. He knows me better than anyone, and he’s not afraid to challenge me, to push me to places I thought I’d never go. There’s a certain trust, a bond between us that feels like home. I’d do anything for him, and he knows that.

Now, I have time.....time to figure things out, time to rebuild. I’m angry, I’m hurting, scared but excited butt anxious for whatever comes next...

[flowerpower289]

[serenityquest]

[werewolveswithdiaries]

[deathssubbymoondust]

Feeling lost and so scared for work tomorrow. the people hate me … i reported loads of em due to just awful work ethics and urgh ffs maybe i need to just never open my mouth but at the same time why don’t you do ur job. they hate me so much. i am scared. i am frightened i wanna actually head bang and kms slowly wtf wtf i can never just have a conflict free anything…. idk whats wrong wtf wtf i sm so angry and sad and lost :((

[werewolveswithdiaries]

[vivisectedg1rl]

petting her while we watch videos on my laptop🥺

[fuckm34t28]

im so tired of being strong. i need someone to set me up with a fucking machine and brainwashing helmet so i never have to think ever againnn....feeling my brains dimming and shutting off as the helmet slides something into my ear.... no longer burdened with horrible thoughts, just drooly dumb and happy

[notaluckypup]

The intimacy of getting to know someone’s kinks and slowly but surely slipping them into conversation~

Slipping them that extra little “good job” after basic tasks and watching their cheeks get hot and their eyes dart around the room.

Asking them to grab a drink and watching the jolt in their step when they register the word “fetch” a second too late.

The back and forth debates and silly arguments ending in cutting them off with a simple “you’re so cute when you get excited”

The tease behind all those knowing glances and trace of the hand touches becoming just too overwhelming until my poor pup is stuttering through conversation and grinding its thighs together begging to be touched😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

[your-cute-bunny]

Sometimes I have a fantasy of being put in one of those glory holes like you see in the videos. You know the ones where your legs are tied to the wall, only the lower half of your body through the hole.

I think it would be so hot to be thoroughly used all day, never knowing who's fucking me, maybe it's someone I know. Maybe it's the older guy that was leering at me in the shop this morning. Maybe its an ex boyfriend. Maybe it's an old teacher. I'd never know. I wouldn't be able to stop any of them, I just have to take it, and they could use any hole they wanted, my protests don't matter anyway. By the end of the day I'd have so many loads of cum dripping out of me, I'd have lost count 😍

What would be even more disgusting hot is if there was a drip tray under me, catching all the loads that drip out of me and after the day is done, if I want my clothes back, I have to drink all that dirty mixed up cum.

Aaaah, a bunny can dream 😍

[strawberrypuppy123]

Need someone to shove me face down on the bed when I'm not ready and force their cock inside me. Feel how easily I get wet for you when you really start moving in and out of me. Cover my mouth when I start making noise and tell me to shut up and take it. Fuck me until I'm shaking and begging incoherently and all I can think about is how perfectly you fit inside my pussy. Use me to the point that when you pull out I whine and beg you to put your cock back in me because I've grown so used to the feeling of you inside me. Make it so I cant think of anything other than how good you make me feel. Make me yours.

[cr1msonra1n]

free use is hot, using them throughout the day slowly grabbing them from time to time and shoving my cock in any hole i want, "doesn't matter if you're on a call or if you're cooking or reading a book, just take it everytime baby that's what sextoys are for anyway." gradually filling them up over and over again and watching them turn into a sticky pathetic mess. just to touch themselves to me sleeping because i've corrupted them so much into the perfect sexdoll.

[nekotaku]

[deathssubbymoondust]

[deathssubbymoondust]

LIl Life Update

Have not been writing here in a while... I am gonna graduate soon with my masyers degree omg so fucking happy. proud of myself!!!

Also recently i been wanting to get more and more into the bdsm community i wanna have friends that i can be very close with and it feels good to be cute and nakes together to cuddle and maybe kiss (if my relationship would allow) i would like to make friends deep connection where the trust goes into the point of exploring new kink things together... i wanna explore so much witgh my partner i wanna go to kink parties and markets i want him to become more and more comfortable as a Dom... I wanna feel owned. Not 24/7 but i would like to have a part of life that is dedicated to these desires and needs....

Oh gosh i hope i start looking and feeling betetr about myself which would allow me to be more open to everything tbh.

[lovelybabey]

Being hers is a privilege <3

[deathssubbymoondust]

ohhhhhh...

[anxietyproblem]