1. Do you have an alternate name? What is it?
2. Which of your family members do you miss the most? Why
my daughters. maybe my mum and (step)dad but i feel less connected to them. i miss my oldest daughter coz i feel like i failed her & my youngest was too young to know anything
3. Which of your friends do you miss the most? Why?
lol i didnae have friends but i guess F even though i dont remember shit about him
4. What's a very minor difference between you and your source
im not dead 🤪 lol but i dont smoke or drink or do drugs & im younger even than the body
5. What's one thing you and your source would disagree with and one thing you would agree with
ehhh i dinnae know and i dont want to speculate
6. Are there any conspiracy theories surrounding your source? What? How do you feel about them
7. What's your favorite thing about yourself? Connecting to source or not
im alive ✌️ im better than my source was. she was fucked up and i never did any of that stuff (even tho it feels like i did)
8. Do you have a habit that relates to your source in a way people wouldn't understand? Can you explain it?
ehmmm i dunno. maybe craving cigarettes and alcohol and self harm, but i think most people would probably get that
9. Free space! Ask whatever
10. What's a question you want people to ask you? What's the answer to that question
"are you ok?" and the answer is "never have been m8". im being irreverent but idk. i guess it would be nice for people to see me as "me" but im scared as hell of that too
11. How old are you (alter age)? How does that compare to your age in source? Does it affect your memories?
i kind of feel like im in my early-mid 20s most of the time? bodily we're nearly 30, and my source was 29-30 when she died. so i dunno. i guess most of the time my "memories" feel a bit jumbled and confused, like my kids are always changing ages and i dunno how i feel about anything
12. Does your system have roles/jobs? If so, what's yours?
maybe a trauma/memory/emotion holder or something, i dont really know. i showed up when we were discovering a lot of things about my source so maybe im just our way of dealing with all of the unresolved shit related to that.
13. Who in the system are you closest with?
M, the main system protector. its funny coz he has the same name as someone my source had really fucking complicated memories about (her brother). i wonder if thats why i feel kind of like he's my sibling. but also he's kind of not? it's hard to explain, we're like the same person but also siblings but also exes.
14. How does your source affect your day to day?
i dunno. i just feel like shit when i think about her, about who i was. i know i wasnt LITERALLY her but it feels like i was. i just feel sad and shit that everything went so wrong and that im stuck feeling like this all the time.
16. How source connected are you? Are you a postfactive?
dunno what that means tbh
17. What's problematic about your source? How do you feel about it
abused my kids. stabbed a guy. tried to kill myself. made everybody's life hell. you know how it is.
idk how i feel about it. "bad" i guess.
18. Is your source important to who you are? How so or why not?
i dunno. i guess so but i dont want her to be. its complicated. i dont want to just throw her away either but also i do??
19. Did you introject before or after the problematic thing happened? Did you introject because of it?
uhh i barely understand what this means lol. my "source" is the body's mother so like. idk use your imagination
20. How do you feel about doubles
i would be shocked if one existed. but if one does it's probably the body's sister so like, fair dos, she's entitled to one lol
21. What sets you apart from most doubles?
22. What do you have in common with your source?
fat, hate myself, like black and red lipstick, loud, angry, wallowing, love my kids, etc
23. How do you feel about your source
have we not covered that like 5 times
24. Is there any clarification you'd like to make on the relationship between you and your source? (Like, are you actually a mix between your source and something else? Are you your source person fictionalized etc)
i guess im a bit of a mix of a few things. the body's mother aye, but it's like a) her as we remember her before her death, b) her as we think of her now, as adults, able to see her as a whole person (and a tragic one), and c) the body's sister. maybe some other shit too idk.
25. How do you tell others you're a problematic factive
loooolllll i dont tell anyone i exist because they all know i was a shit mum so why would i
but anyway i dont think anyone needs to say "oh hi im problematic btw" to people. you can just be yourself
