Sep 20, 2019
Yo aliens 👽
Moving blogs for good 😤🧿🙏
Gotta keep the bad energy away from me
Going to be slowly deleting all personal content on this blog 👌👋
#dont follow me#this is a dead blog#I hate that I feel like I can type here and have the possibility of you reading it#why do I write ‘to you’ here?#why am i still doing this#there are just so many things I want to tell you about#even though I’m lower than dirt to you#I thought I was an equal to you at one point#I guess I just miss that#I miss having someone I could trust to want to talk to me to want to hear from me to want to be my friend#I gave up trying to directly talk to you because of your request#I just wish that I as a person was respected#when the world started beating me down and eroding my self esteem and self worth#it was like you started to perceive me as ‘less important’ too#I started getting less respect and I just let it slide because I was used to being treated like I was just not as important#I wish I could have been there for myself more#I wish I had asserted my worth and my boundaries years sooner than I tried#it was too little too late#I wasn’t able to be polite and delicate because I was so deeply rejected and disrespected#I lashed out because I was hurt and you blamed me as if having feelings and thinking I deserve honesty was such a ridiculous concept#so many people ‘didn’t do anything’ to me like yeah you never slapped me or hit me but you lied repeatedly to my face and manipulated me#manipulated everyone around me really#and I get that that’s part of human nature#but there’s a fucking line you need to draw with the people you claim to love IF you want to keep them in your life#and like me#there’s a point where you need to integrate your shadow#accept the narcissism and see where it stems from… is it a trauma response? what wound are you trying to cover#let’s keep growing
