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let’s give them something to talk about >:)

#post hiatus dnp flirty energy borderline exhibitionist but in a wholesome way vibes enjoyy #dan and phil #dnp #phan #daniel howell #phil lester #amazingphil #fan edit #phan edit

going on my first ever third date tomorrow 🫥

diphowell

it really does just bring me to my knees how defiant they were in a way when it comes to having been closeted for so long and terrified of speculation and homophobia and still pushing beds together and phil’s boncas moment and the way they still showed so much love for each other in videos and you can say oh well they just couldn’t help it or oh they were young and “didn’t know better” but they knew better than i’d say anyone ever and even if it did spring from a love and enjoyment of the other one that was hard to contain or limit, it was still moment after moment of choices made for 16 years.

like dan has said, he hadn’t exactly been subtle, and neither had phil. idk i just think that even at their most afraid and most closeted they were bold and they were so brave. they shouldn’t have had to go through all of that but they really were still doing their best to be themselves when they couldn’t be out.

diphowell

#nodding nodding nodding. yeagh..... #i think it's also probably the biggest reason why they made it thru while a lot of other couples in their situation would not have #choosing love in spite of the fear... choosing each other in spite of the fear....... #they say 'at least we had each other' and truly i think them having each other is what got them thru#and not just having each other in the sense that they were like literally together but #having each other in the most active and deliberate and intentional way #choosing each other for 16 years (and counting <3) (via @backin09)

yes!!! i agree. i think "at least we had each other" and "i don't think i have to forgive you" are mindsets that are kind of pillars for how they stayed together through All of That. they had each other and they didn't grow to resent each other for their situation, which i feel like can happen so often in situations where no one is REALLY at fault but the stress and pain of it is just too much. and for them it really was like. their partnership their love their relationship was always the priority.

#god. ouhhggghhh #phan