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[ensular]

I WISH THERE WAS A WORD THAT MEANT ‘GOODBYE’ FOR SOMEONE WHO WAS ALREADY GONE  (  i wish i didn’t have to know it  ).  /  bail and solveig.  separated by failure and time  ,  reunited by love and promise. 

[midsommars-deactivated20201109]

[deforced]

ensular‌:

“  why d-do you even want me to come with you.  ”  she bites down on her thumbnail like it’ll make him  GO  AWAY  AGAIN.  solveig hasn’t been able to look ben in the eye  -  except for that one time  ,  and it was an accident  (  the wind knocked out of him  ,  her hand around his wrist  ,  her brows furrowed  ).  her lips press together  ,  the noise from the other occupants in the house is almost enough to drown out the sound caused by the gnashing of her teeth.  almost.  she jerks at one her forearm.  “  let go of my arm.  seriously.  ”

@deforced​, it’s your turn to mourn me. 

“ because -- ” he let’s go because she asks him to. commands him to. looking at her , he sees double: the woman standing before him and the girl who lives in his head. how had he ever forgotten about her ? but he hadn’t. not really. in dreams and moments of reflections , she’s just out of his periphery. what he longs for. what he runs towards. ( if only she would look at him ! ) and even before his mind can conjure the answer to her question , his tongue responds. body always more trustworthy than his thoughts. “ -- i promised you. ”

[deforced]

important update !! ben is ship exclusive with @ensular​ as marci is a vital part of the backstory and canon divergence i’ve established for ben

[wishbzne-deactivated20210526]

Part broken part whole, you begin again.

Jeanette Winterson, from Lighthousekeeping (via wishbzne)

[deforced]

@ensular asked ❛ marry me. ❜

          “ marry -- ” ben freezes , shirt only halfway on. he’s sure , sure he heard her wrong. it’s early , dawn not quite risen. must be his tired brain and -- but the way she’s looking at him , with those eyes the look straight through to his soul. and now , maybe now he’s not so sure. he lets the rest of his shirt fall over his abdomen , brow furrowed. he’s still standing there , dumbfounded , goose bumps rising on his bare legs.

          she’d really asked him to marry her , huh ? the realization hits him , warm and terrifying. he finally finds the ability to move and it brings him back to the little cot. the same cot he spends most nights buried in her , given over to her completely. his imaginary friend , his longest dream. his eyes burn with tears , but damn , if he isn’t grinning. he tastes the salt on his lips as he bites down , palm now on her cheek.

          “ you mean it ? ”

[deforced]

ensular replied to your post: �������������� ��������.

u already kno

bitches be MARRIED

[deforced]

𝙳𝚈𝙽𝙰𝙼𝙸𝙲 𝙲𝙰𝙻𝙻.

[deforced]

really Sad concept: leia feeling the ever growing fear and anger growing within ben and then all of a sudden not feeling anything at all and her fearing the absolute worst

... but it ends up being chill bc he’s just cut himself off from the force

[deforced]

thinking about ben becoming absolutely consumed with his hatred for the knights of ren , but also needing to know why they were ordered not to kill him. laying awake at night , trying to use every resource that the resistance has for answers. 

and then , ben finding out that he was supposed to be snoke’s palpatine’s weapon. and that they still believe they’ll be able to turn him.

[99percentskins]

[rpxmusings]

                                            [    ]          HERO

                                            [    ]          MONSTER

                                            [ x ]          SURVIVOR

[lilithmemes]

𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐏𝐎𝐄𝐓𝐑𝐘.

i’ve  gathered  all  of  these  from   tumblr   ,   therefore  i  don’t  take  credit  for  any  of  these   &   they  will   only   be  used  in  the  purpose  of  role - playing.   feel  free  to  change  pronouns  if  you  feel  it  to  be  necessary   &   remember  to  reblog  from  the  source  if  you  aren’t  going  to  send  something  in  to  the  person  who  reblogged  this.

❛   i  am  only  human   ,   but  i  am  also  human.   ❜

❛   you  only  love  me  in  the  dark.   ❜

❛   where  are  you   &   do  you  think  of  me  ?   ❜

❛   i’d  rather  live  in  a  world  full  of  white  noise  than  spend  a  moment  in  silence.   ❜

❛   i’ve  always  been  so  careful  to  not  let  anybody  down  that  i  never  noticed  i  was  giving  up  on  myself.   ❜

❛   i  can  be  bold   ,   because  i  have  you  with  me  always.   ❜

❛   i’d  breathe  but  i  don’t  want  to  wake  butterflies  in  my  lungs.   ❜

❛   i’d  light  myself  on  fire  if  it  meant  you  were  warm.   ❜

❛   my  heart  is  set  of  gritted  teeth   &   bleeding  gums.   ❜

❛   it’s  foolish  to  hope  you’re  thinking  of  me.   ❜

❛   saving  you  meant  losing  myself   &   i  would  do  that  till  the  end  of  time.   ❜

❛   what  happens  to  you  when  i  have  nothing  left  to  lose  ?   ❜

❛   it’s  a  lonely  world   &   i  just  want  someone  to  love.   ❜

❛   i  broke  my  own  heart  when  i  fell  for  you.   ❜

❛   i  don’t  want  to  be  saved.   ❜

❛   even  the  thought  of  you  feels  like  wind  beneath  my  wings.   ❜

❛   i  always  wanted  to  start  a  revolution   ,   so  i started  one  within  myself.   ❜

❛   i  hope  you  felt  it  when  my  heart  broke.   ❜

❛   i  am  a  walking  lie.   ❜

❛   there  is  a  sound  at  the  door   &   it’s  never  you   ,   so  why  bother  answering  ?   ❜

❛   one  look  at  you   &   my  heart  leapt   &   now  you’re  stuck  in  my  head  again.   ❜

❛   even  the  silence  is  too  much.   ❜

❛   point  the  gun  at  me   ,   what’s  it  like  to  be  free  ?   ❜

❛   the  only  difference  between  fear   &   anticipation  is  the  outcome.   ❜

❛   i  wanted  you  to  hurt  me   &   i  got  what  i  asked  for.   ❜

❛   i  hope  to  god  you  hate  me   ;   i  can’t  stand  the  thought  of  you  still  missing  me.   ❜

❛   i  break  in  silence  so  no  one  will  worry  over  someone  like  me.   ❜

❛   everything  that  defines  me  is  nothing  that  i  am.   ❜

[deforced]

naberriae·:

𝙗𝙚𝙣    𝙞𝙨    𝙗𝙖𝙘𝙠,    𝙗𝙪𝙩    𝙝𝙚'𝙨    𝙙𝙞𝙛𝙛𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙣𝙩.    of    course,    he    is.    everything    that    went    down,    after    everything,    it    makes    sense    that    he    is    different,    he’s    cut    himself    off    from    the    force.    and   he’s    back    home.    there    was    nothing    you    should    be    happy    he’s    back    that    he’s    no    longer    plagued    by    nightmares,    that    he    is…    bail    solo    and    not    anything    else.    and    it’s    the    reason    you    come    inside    his    room,    trying    to    talk    to    him,    trying    to    understand    where    he’s    coming    from,   where    he    stands    now    after    luke’s    temple.    ❝  that’s    okay,    baby,  ❞    it’s    easy   to    say,    easy    to    even   mention.    ❝  what    happened,    what    you    did,    was    the    right    thing    to    do.    i    would    rather    you    be    safe    being    not    nothing    who    you    are    than    be    a    sith,  ❞    you    knew    that    better    than    anything    else.    having    him    here    was    more    than    enough.    ❝  you    can    join    me…    at    my    meetings    if    you    like.  ❞

          𝚂𝙷𝙴 𝚃𝚁𝚄𝙻𝚈 𝚃𝙷𝙾𝚄𝙶𝙷𝚃 𝙷𝙴'𝙳 -- the anguish that accompanies his thoughts are almost enough to knock the breath from his lungs. volatile anger , not at her , but at himself , his own weakness , threatens to bubble over. but almost as soon as the fury swells , it’s gone. replaced instead by a heaving sob he doesn’t have the strength to hide. stoic meditative state crumbles , his head going into his hands. fingers tightening in his hair and pulling at the roots. he knows how close to the edge he had gotten , felt the call of darkness in his ears. but hearing his own mother affirms this , knowing that she knew , it’s unbearable. and not even her offer if enough to distract from the hatred , self directed , and eating away at his insides. leaving him hollow. ❝ why would you want me there ?  ❞ 

[maurawrites]

Marcos Diaz in 1.04 ‘eXit strategy’

[deforced]

thinking about how badly the sequels fucked up all ben solo’s potential from the get-go

[edenmemes]

the witcher (show) starters

❝ victimhood is not your colour. ❞

❝ you can’t outrun destiny just because you’re terrified of it. ❞

❝ your job is to control chaos, not to succumb to it. ❞

❝ you don’t deserve the air you breathe. ❞

❝ not a single person alive looks in the mirror and doesn’t see some form of deformity. ❞

❝ you lie, you keep secrets. you succumb to emotion and weakness. ❞

❝ not answering questions is part of your brooding pillar of charm. ❞

❝ you’re just mad because you lost your chance to be beautiful. ❞

❝ you smell of death and destiny, heroics and heartbreak. ❞

❝ there’s no power in puppeting fools. ❞

❝ i’ll leave that for someone who gives a shit. ❞

❝ i need to get back to my horse. ❞

❝ your will to live is strong. ❞

❝ i’m still not enough. even for you. ❞

❝ need a hand? i’ve got two. ❞

❝ my men will kill you. ❞

❝ i’m here to drink alone. ❞

❝ go. on your own or at the end of a rope, your choice. ❞

❝ do you know how many people wouldn’t blink if you died? ❞

❝ you weren’t taking control. you were losing it. ❞

❝ people call you a monster too. ❞

❝ i’ve waited all these years for you to admit we’re made for each other. ❞

❝ if only you could tell between friend or threat. do you even know the difference anymore? ❞

❝ when you live as long as i do, all the names sound the same. ❞

❝ were you in love? ❞

❝ this place isn’t safe when you’re alone. ❞

❝ the only thing you do quickly is flee. ❞

❝ even if you were a beauty, still, no one would love you. ❞

❝ not a happily ever after after all. ❞

❝ hm, doesn’t rhyme. all good predictions rhyme. ❞

❝ you are making me uncomfortable. ❞

❝ unchecked kings and queens start massacres. ❞

❝ i just want some damn peace. ❞

❝ i dreamed of becoming important to someone someday. ❞

❝ the only thing special about you is the crown on your head. ❞

❝ what do you long for? fame? money? power? ❞

❝ what? no one mentioned the impending doom part. ❞

❝ true words are rare words. ❞

❝ i want more. i have to be more. ❞

❝ do other women find this coarseness charming? ❞

❝ love casts long shadows. ❞

❝ if she runs, kill her. ❞

❝ don’t give me that look, shitling. ❞

❝ today isn’t your day, is it? ❞

❝ how come when my life comes to shit you’re the one shoveling it? ❞

❝ i know who you are. what you are. ❞

❝ i envy you. to live, and to have no love. ❞

❝ you’d leave a man bound to die in such a dignity? ❞

❝ i loved your mother. ❞

❝ don’t you know who i am? ❞

❝ so that’s all life is to you? monsters and money? ❞

❝ there’s a vortex of fate around us. ❞

❝ is history a wheel doomed to repeat? ❞

❝ the sword of destiny has two edges. ❞

❝ i’ve considered your company and conversation payment enough. ❞

❝ this isn’t who you are. ❞

❝ will you be joining me? ❞

❝ no amount of power or beauty will make you feel worthy of either. ❞

❝ i don’t believe anyone has that power. ❞

❝ nobody smart plays fair. ❞

❝ i won’t listen to a man who pimps the world as some romantic adventure. ❞

❝ a true man would state his desires. ❞

❝ don’t turn this on me. ❞

❝ i want to be powerful. it’s what i’m owed. ❞

❝ that makes sense just as much as it doesn’t. ❞ 

❝ you’re smart, aren’t you? you know everything. ❞

❝ i feel something out there waits for you. ❞ 

❝ please don’t hurt me. i’m lost. ❞ 

❝ i won’t kill you…but you cant stay here. ❞ 

❝ there’s no ‘us’. there’s only me. ❞ 

❝ i’m asking for a teeny-weeny little favor. ❞ 

❝ yeah, you’re probably right. but what if you’re not? ❞

❝ i’m not your friend. ❞ 

❝ you and destiny can both fuck right off. ❞ 

❝ i love the way you just sit in the corner and brood. ❞

❝ i will not suffer tonight sober. ❞ 

❝ pretty ballads hide bastard truths. ❞

❝ i will not involve myself to petty men’s squabbles. ❞

❝ happy childhood makes for dull company. ❞

❝ it’s impossible to be prepared for every battle. keep your sword close, and keep moving. ❞

❝ i see a lot of myself in you. ❞

❝ you can’t change the world this way. ❞

❝ i don’t need anyone. & the last thing i want is someone needing me. ❞

❝ alright, stand close to me and pretend you’re mean. ❞

❝ why are you dressed like a sad silk trader? ❞ 

❝ only one of us will be alive to find out. ❞ 

❝ i stole rather than starve. i killed rather than be killed. ❞ 

❝ i have’t only done good in my life either. ❞ 

❝ it’s like ordering a pie and finding out it has no filling. ❞ 

❝ when i cut my finger i bleed. that’s human, right? ❞ 

❝ they’re rough around the edges but they’re earthling like me. ❞ 

❝ royalty is best endured in small doses. ❞ 

❝ i thought the world needed me too. ❞ 

❝ sometimes, the best thing a flower can do for us is die. ❞ 

❝ handy with a blade. handy with women too. ❞

❝ are you trying to hurt my feelings? ❞

❝ you look like you’ve been through hell. ❞

❝ i can’t do this without you. ❞

❝ you know cautionary tales won’t work on me. ❞

❝ you talk nonsense while making wise and meaningful faces. ❞

❝ the apple never falls far from the tree. ❞

❝ when i go it will be far more dramatic than this. ❞

❝ try not to get any daggers in your back before dawn. ❞

❝ you have your mother’s blood. you’ll be alright. ❞

❝ a great ruler always chooses mercy. ❞

❝ it took two strikes to kill him. they weren’t clean. but they were spectacular. ❞

❝ if i have to choose between one evil and another, i’d rather not choose. ❞

❝ i would do anything to forget who i was. ❞

❝ i have no doubt blood will be spilled here tonight. ❞

❝ there’s a grain of truth in every fairy tale. ❞

❝ people look at you for who you are, not what you can give them. ❞

❝ do you believe in destiny now? ❞

❝ we can leave. we can find a way out. ❞

❝ lovers? fun for a bit, i’ll admit, but all eventually disappoint. ❞

❝ let’s face it, you’re a girl. we’re just vessels. and even when we’re told we’re special, we’re still just vessels…for them to take…and take…until we’re empty…and alone. ❞

❝ people like to invent monsters and monstrosities. then they seem less monstrous themselves. ❞

❝ every time i’m around you i say more in five minutes than i’ve said in weeks. ❞

❝ maybe someone out there will want you. ❞

❝ if you must kill me, i’m ready. ❞

❝ people linked by destiny always find each other. ❞

❝ thank the gods. i might live to see another day. ❞

❝ i was having a rather lovely dream which then turned into a nightmare. ❞

❝ you desperately need money for new clothes.  ❞

❝ more and more, i find monsters where i go. ❞

❝ life is too short. do what pleases you…while you can. ❞

❝ gods you’re pretty. ❞

❝ my lady, i would never degrade your honor in such a way. ❞

❝ my world is cruel. you enter, you survive, you die. ❞

❝ i feel i shall die a broken hearted man. ❞

❝ who slits a man’s throat while he’s relieving his bowels? ❞

❝ why help those who don’t listen? ❞