[drinkyourjuiceshelby]

[fleuvedevie]

THIS THREAD ALL OF IT

[delaformosa]

In that moment I found true happiness. I became at peace with myself. I became my own best friend and made solitude my companion. When all I am is my own, at the end of the day I have learned to be my own best friend. To learn to love myself, value my worth, and to earn my own respect is one of life's accomplishment. There's is no manual. The destination is the journey.

[delaformosa]

You are in control of your own emotions

You are in control of your own destiny

You own your own happiness

Your life is yours to choose

[delaformosa]

Holding hands is underrated. Most times people only touch another person's hand once and that's when they meet them for the first time aka a handshake.

[delaformosa]

How much of your life story can you spill in one therapy session haha

[delaformosa]

Life doesn’t always come in a series of successes and trying hard the first time doesn’t mean persistence is irrelevant. I remember failing my CNA skills exam the first time & I was so sad I bawled my eyes out cause I was so confident and I had just made a minor mistake. I remember crying in the parking lot and driving home and almost getting hit by a car cause the stop lights went out on Sepulveda and Veteran. After the exam, one of the proctors told me she was sure I’d get it down the next time. I remember one of the proctors telling me that she was impressed with the way I did patient care and that she would offer me a job. I need to keep reminding myself that there’s a village of people that support me. There’s strangers I met for moments through my job that believe me in my pursuit of my nursing career. One of the most important things that has been emphasized throughout my classes is self-care and Tumblr naturally becomes an outlet for that. My first exam on patho/pharm is tomorrow, let’s do this!

[delaformosa]

Remember how you spent summers of your undergrad becoming a pharm tech, interning at a lab, taking the GREs, becoming a CNA? Remember when you took 5 classes a quarter senior year to graduate and was a full time student over the summer? Remember the day your finals and CNA class overlapped in the summer and you took your stats and anatomy final back to back from 1-9, went to CNA class the next day from 7-3 in Glendale, and drove all the way to Santa Monica to take the second part of your anatomy final that night? Remember when you took 4 classes fall quarter, applied to nursing schools, and applied to jobs while feeling trapped at home? I didn’t come this far to quit, gotta stay hungry, keep staying motivated.

[g-old-skull-deactivated20120824]

[delaformosa]

Finally got to season 12 of Grey's Anatomy and the first episode is just so triggering. Sigh.

[delaformosa]

I understand the feeling now. It’ll be good to take a couple months off work before beginning school again. It’ll be good to have the time to really process my thoughts, take things slow, and rediscover myself.

[delaformosa]

People who love you will love you for who you are, not for who they hope you will become.

[kushandwizdom]

If you don't have good intentions, please just leave me alone. I'm tired.

[hunnnnie]

[staypozitive]

Flashback Friday!

[amortizing]

For what it’s worth: It’s never too late to be whoever you want to be. I hope you live a life you’re proud of, and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start over.

F. Scott Fitzgerald (via seabelle)

[delaformosa]

I scratched my car. I didn't realize it till this morning but it got me bummed out to think that one second I nodded off I went out of my lane. I hit one of those plastic poles but thank goodness I did. Thank goodness I hit one of those plastic poles instead of the concrete divider as I drove in the left most lane. The scratch is a minor thing I'll get over and it taught me two lessons - not to drive when I'm tired and how much I value my life. I have been struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts and knowing that I'm thankful that I'm safe showed how dear my life is to me. I'm glad that I'm okay and I'm glad that it mattered to me that I was okay.

[delaformosa]

Jealousy doesn’t look good on anyone & that’s not the kind of person I would want to be around either. But jealousy actually means that someone cares enough to hold on to someone that means a lot to them. I just want to be happy and not stressed out, maybe it’s time to focus on my own things for a while. It's hard to be vulnerable and that's what is required when other people are involved. When you invest in yourself, you have nothing to lose.

[delaformosa]

I've kept to myself the past few weeks and I've kept myself busy because I'm in denial. I just miss the feeling the way things were. I know it's all in my head but I can't hope but overthink. I think I'm doing what's best but it makes me feel distance and I don't think that's right.