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[Random Dream] False Accusation

Date: 11/12/20 Th

Time slept: ~4 AM - ~7 AM

Sleep duration: 3 hrs 

Time written: 3:08 PM - 3:10 PM

Genre: Slice of Life

I can’t remember at all the details. I just remember my sister accusing me of being wrong while the answer is right there for everyone to see. Overall emotion felt was annoyance and incredulousness. 

Also, power outage is SO not cool. Stay safe during the typhoon. 

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[Random Dream] Height Issues

Date: 11/11/20 W

Time slept: 12:12 AM - 7:10 AM

Sleep duration: 6 hrs 58 min

Time written: 7:12 AM - 7:19 AM

Genre: Slice of Life

My dream had three parts this time.

First part was my niece, despite being four years old, is taller than me (I’m 163.5 cm). Also their (nonexistent) great dane too. 

Second part was about Larry from Ace Attorney and how he commented about two people. This is the bulk of my dream but I totalyy forgot about it. 

Third part I don’t even remember anymore. 

...This is sad.I usually remember my dreams enough as I wake up but I did woke up earlier with more memories. I just slept again lol

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[Random Dream] Okita Sougo (from Gintama and not FGO)

Date: 11/10/20 T

Time slept: 10:55 PM - 7:11 AM

Sleep duration: 8 hrs 16 min

Time written: 7:12 AM - 8:16 AM

I had a dream about a crush again haha. 

There was a contest. ...That’s all I remember because I was too exhausted to write this immediately. There’s actually a contest plot and I couldn’t write about it sadt.

Anyway, as a result of the contest, I was in a room with rows of chairs inside. People were mingling and talking. I can’t remember who those people were but I guess they  I... saw Okita Sougo (from Gintama) and I wanted to talk to him. But I can’t since I’m too shy. I socialized with people, can’t remember what we’re talking about, who I was talking about and how many I was talking with. All the while, I kept glancing at Okita in the hopes that he’s still in the room somewhere I could see. 

Can’t remember why but I entered the room to the right. It was a relatively smaller room with one person was near the entrance as I walked in. The person (whom I recognize but can’t remember feeling like it’s VA now) asked if I play FGO. I confirmed with too much eagerness, and we just chatted about stuff. Oh shit. I remember that there’s another Okita in FGO and saying that I like that character when Sougo just entered the room. I was embarassed that he might have heard I like him, even if it was a misunderstanding .

Suddenly, a voice called out to my right and apparently there’s a sofa in the room. A person (who is a hgh school batchmate I never spoke with but looks like those villanous hentai character) asked if I also played FEH. Heck yeah, I agreed. I wanted to be farther away to Sougo so I joined this person on the sofa and sat to his left. The sofa can accomodate only so much of two people so I lowkey leaned away to the left to put a little space between us. We conversed about games and I was feeling at ease each passing moment as I moved from leaning on the side to sitting straight and facing the door. 

All of a sudden, I felt this pressure on my right shoudler. The guy just leaned on me as if we’re close. I can’t remember if he just slept or tried to snuggle. I can’t remember if he put his hands around me then hug me full on  the chest. He might have? He buried his face on my chest and I felt his nose nuzzle against me. 

I was shocked and felt one of the most intense fears I ever felt in a dream. Worse than my last dream where I had to answer a physics question in front of people. I was full on panic but I was in shock and it’s in my nature to just take everything in and make it beneficial for me. This is not one of those times. I was so petrified, I didn’t know what to do. 

I realized that Sougo, my secret crush, could still be by the entrance. 

My discomfort slightly forgotten, thoughts raced into my head. Has he seen what’s being done to me? Will he do anything? This is so embarassing, being caught in this position. What will he think of me now? Nooooooo

I saw Okita, who was in fact still there, with eyes hidden by his fangs, slowly walking towards me. The guy’s still on my chest, still lost in his groping. 

And that’s where my dream ends. I probably woke up earlier than 7AM but I was still too sleepy. I remember reciting, “There was a contest” as a way for me to not forget how my dream started. But it failed. Oh well.

Here’s some pics (with the exact angle as I’ve seen it on my dream)

- room placement

- Angry Okita 

I don’t want to put pictures of what the guy did tho.

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[Random Dream] Jack of All Trades > Specialization (?)

Date: 11/09/20

Time slept: 3:04 AM - 9:05 AM

Sleep duration: ~6 hrs

Time written: 12:26 pm

I had a dream where there was a contest between people. The questions and dares are of different fields. You could be tasked of cleaning a room and being graded according to its cleanliness or you could be tasked to solve the hardest of math equations. There is no specific task and if you want to win (which I did), you had to know everything and be good at everything. Of course, that’s impossible and that’s the point. You just have to be better at the things you’re good at and hope that’s the task given to you. 

I dreaded my task to be solving physics problems. I tried to delay my turn and it just heightened my anxiety. When the inevitable came, I was tasked to draw some figures. Yes! I was fairly confident in my drawing skills so I had a blast.

Maybe my dream is telling me to stop dreading and just start doing the things needed to be done. 

I also dreamt of my professor giving free cactus. What a straight forward dream.

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[Random Dream] Wasted Opportunity Due to Running Away From Happy Crush

Date: 11/08/20

Time slept: 4:13AM - 9:22AM 

Sleep duration: 309 minutes or 5.15 hrs

Time written: 9:31AM

I had a dream where I went back to my temporary house since I’m staying at our permanent house just for covid times. It’s been so long since I felt pretty so I wore my favorite pair of clothing: a striped pink and white round neck fitted stretch blouse tucked in a deep blue long skirt. Closest pictures I could fine are added below. 

I’m suddenly find myself in a classroom with my brown side bag. I had to change quickly because any moment I someone could enter. I laid my bag (which impossible held all materials of clothing) on a nearby table. As soon as I dressed up, I immediately became empowered and wanted to join as much free, relatively safe activities nearby. I didn’t want to waste the opportunity since in my permanent residence, nothing much really goes on. 

The first event was related to film, I think? I remember a lot of people suddenly entering as soon as I finished dressing. I greeted three friends and had small talk. I also charged my iphone while I was there (which I suddenly had) and really stressed the fact to take care of the charger since it’s my mom’s (which I suddenly had).

I went out to the hall, avoiding collisions with people not because of covid but because it’s the right thing to do. Near the entrance of the door sat a teacher, which oddly looked like Erwin Sikowitz from the show Victorius. He’s sitting down while looking at the people in front of him act. Speaking of the acting, I feel like I saw and erotic scene between two males. Since I’m sitted at the left side of the entrance with no one beside me, I alone to close enough see the pained but satisfied expression of the black-haired bottom. I suddenly remember my phone and turns out I forgot to charge it. I just thought I did. So I painstakingly went inside again and charged it. 

On my phone, I think I saw three event notifications nearby. One was for sure about transplanting (I’m beginning to forget now at 9:59AM). Oh! I had to check whether these events are free so I also try to find the word “payment” and check if there were numbers in the event details. I remember the other events have grand venues, such as in gardens and hotels so I definitely want to go. I double checked the event about transplanting and found out that it’s held in an airconditioned venue room somewhere near and I went to go immediately because it’s starting soon. 

I tried to leave but my sister (which was suddenly there and the place now looked like the back of our residential home) wanted food. I used the floor to cook popcorn-style some green peas. At this point I’m extremely agitated because I need to leave soon but the peas just kept getting too burnt and I had to cook for more and repeat. At some point I just said, “Fuck this” and gathered all barely edible peas and that’s that. 

It was late at night and I had to walk to the venue. I (suddenly) had an umbrella and used it to shield my face. I became aware of people around me and since I’m wearing my fave outift, I kinda wanna flirt a little bit but not too much. So I straightened my back and walked in that kinda sultry way women will deny they do. That is, until I realize who the voices were. I felt dread spread out of my body and became extremely grateful for the umbrella covering my face. But then I twisted my umbrella and a large hole was suddenly there, exposing my face to the people to my right. I was right though. These were the group of friends calling themselves パピ and the one who saw my face was the smart one. I horribly bothered by this because one of their member, the sleepy one, was my happy crush for about two years. I just got over him but why is he there of all times! I didn’t see his face but I heard his voice near me and that sent tingles across my body that I don’t want to psychoanalyze right now. I couldn’t stress enough that I was trying my hardest to avoid a confrontation but still close enough observe them if possible. 

At this point, my event venue was nearby but I had a strange feeling that maybe they’re going to that event too. It was such a goof d event too, very timely and free and luxurious. I could probably ask for some free plants during the end. Or at least some plant parts for propagating. However, I didn’t want to see their faces nor hear their happy voices any longer so I took a sharp turn and lowkey ran away. 

And that’s when I woke up. 

Seven months of effort down the drain. Yeah, I probably still like him. Will still have to control my breathing and expressions if we come face to face. It gets so tiring though, so I’m glad this happy crush is not as intense as it used to be.

Here’s my outfit:

Imagine this blouse but short sleeves and stripes of soft pink and white. My hair is also parted to the side in this attire.

Imagine this skirt but deeper blue and the shoes black.