[Random Dream] Wasted Opportunity Due to Running Away From Happy Crush
Time slept: 4:13AM - 9:22AM
Sleep duration: 309 minutes or 5.15 hrs
I had a dream where I went back to my temporary house since I’m staying at our permanent house just for covid times. It’s been so long since I felt pretty so I wore my favorite pair of clothing: a striped pink and white round neck fitted stretch blouse tucked in a deep blue long skirt. Closest pictures I could fine are added below.
I’m suddenly find myself in a classroom with my brown side bag. I had to change quickly because any moment I someone could enter. I laid my bag (which impossible held all materials of clothing) on a nearby table. As soon as I dressed up, I immediately became empowered and wanted to join as much free, relatively safe activities nearby. I didn’t want to waste the opportunity since in my permanent residence, nothing much really goes on.
The first event was related to film, I think? I remember a lot of people suddenly entering as soon as I finished dressing. I greeted three friends and had small talk. I also charged my iphone while I was there (which I suddenly had) and really stressed the fact to take care of the charger since it’s my mom’s (which I suddenly had).
I went out to the hall, avoiding collisions with people not because of covid but because it’s the right thing to do. Near the entrance of the door sat a teacher, which oddly looked like Erwin Sikowitz from the show Victorius. He’s sitting down while looking at the people in front of him act. Speaking of the acting, I feel like I saw and erotic scene between two males. Since I’m sitted at the left side of the entrance with no one beside me, I alone to close enough see the pained but satisfied expression of the black-haired bottom. I suddenly remember my phone and turns out I forgot to charge it. I just thought I did. So I painstakingly went inside again and charged it.
On my phone, I think I saw three event notifications nearby. One was for sure about transplanting (I’m beginning to forget now at 9:59AM). Oh! I had to check whether these events are free so I also try to find the word “payment” and check if there were numbers in the event details. I remember the other events have grand venues, such as in gardens and hotels so I definitely want to go. I double checked the event about transplanting and found out that it’s held in an airconditioned venue room somewhere near and I went to go immediately because it’s starting soon.
I tried to leave but my sister (which was suddenly there and the place now looked like the back of our residential home) wanted food. I used the floor to cook popcorn-style some green peas. At this point I’m extremely agitated because I need to leave soon but the peas just kept getting too burnt and I had to cook for more and repeat. At some point I just said, “Fuck this” and gathered all barely edible peas and that’s that.
It was late at night and I had to walk to the venue. I (suddenly) had an umbrella and used it to shield my face. I became aware of people around me and since I’m wearing my fave outift, I kinda wanna flirt a little bit but not too much. So I straightened my back and walked in that kinda sultry way women will deny they do. That is, until I realize who the voices were. I felt dread spread out of my body and became extremely grateful for the umbrella covering my face. But then I twisted my umbrella and a large hole was suddenly there, exposing my face to the people to my right. I was right though. These were the group of friends calling themselves パピ and the one who saw my face was the smart one. I horribly bothered by this because one of their member, the sleepy one, was my happy crush for about two years. I just got over him but why is he there of all times! I didn’t see his face but I heard his voice near me and that sent tingles across my body that I don’t want to psychoanalyze right now. I couldn’t stress enough that I was trying my hardest to avoid a confrontation but still close enough observe them if possible.
At this point, my event venue was nearby but I had a strange feeling that maybe they’re going to that event too. It was such a goof d event too, very timely and free and luxurious. I could probably ask for some free plants during the end. Or at least some plant parts for propagating. However, I didn’t want to see their faces nor hear their happy voices any longer so I took a sharp turn and lowkey ran away.
And that’s when I woke up.
Seven months of effort down the drain. Yeah, I probably still like him. Will still have to control my breathing and expressions if we come face to face. It gets so tiring though, so I’m glad this happy crush is not as intense as it used to be.
Imagine this blouse but short sleeves and stripes of soft pink and white. My hair is also parted to the side in this attire.
Imagine this skirt but deeper blue and the shoes black.
