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random thoughts and drabbles

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if we only ever agree on one thing as a fandom can it be that all the ai slop "fanart" needs to go?

please and thanks

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if you could be "cured" ie; live as a non disabled person, would you?

absolutely; i hate being disabled and all it has ever bought me is suffering

I don't know - i was born disabled/i don't know another way of existence

maybe? i love some aspects of being disabled, but sometimes it really sucks

no way. society needs to change, not me

yes. not because of my disability, but because of society's ableism

there is no point entertaining the question because it will never happen

other opinion; pls feel free to say so in the comments!

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multiple of the above

Voting ended onJul 10

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tadc episode 9 was..

brilliant!! give people happy endings <3

ok. kind of lacking a structure. but not horrible

unexpected

i didn't sign up to watch the jax show. he's a fucking asshole.

why did jax have to die?

ABSTRAGEDY. CANNON. CREDITS.

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own opinion -- feel free to say so in the comments!

Voting ended onJun 23

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whats the funniest thing autocorect has ever done for you?

for me i was just writing and i found that it had changed "“Ninetey-six hours?” Rumi offered, doing the calculation almost automatically from all the tutoring Lady Celine had given her" to "turping Lady Celine had given her."

i was curious and googled it to find this lovely defintion here;

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Turping is when you twist your penis upside down while either hanging from a bed or laying upside down in your shower.

Hey how long did you turp last night? Wow that guy is such a skibidi Turping master.

glad i didn't publish that in a fic

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waiting for acotar 6 feels like watching a car crash in slow motion

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a question for the acotar fandom in general; who created the dusk court theory?

eluciens

elirels

nesta stans

gynriels

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other option. please say so in the comments!

Voting ended onApr 28

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For all eluciens/gwynriels, what do you think of the womb theory?

Its quite good, actually. Why does everyone care so much?

Neutral - its not the best thing ever, and neither is it the worst thing ever.

Its understandable, but does have subtle tones of misogyny - not maliciously so

It is ignorant and explicitly misogynistic

Other opinion (please say so in the comments

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Voting ended onApr 24

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It always annoys me when people say that because Lucien and Elain don't like each other, it means they will become an end game couple because sjm’s other couples (feysand and nessian) didn’t like each other at first, either. For me the key difference is that they actively hated each other; its very hard to hate someone you don’t care about at all, and as we watched Feyre and Rhys, Cassian and Nesta fall in love, there remained an underlying current of obsession which tied the two extremes together, making the transition between the two emotions feel anything close to believable. Feyre did not shy away from Rhysand because he made her uncomfortable or spend time with the rest of the inner circle, completely ignoring him. She threw shoes at his face, she became incredibly jealous of him and his none existent relationship with Cresseida  and attacked him where she knew he was most insecure. And no, she did not like him at first, but she fixated on him, which meant that when she fell in love with him, the reader can trace it back to all those moments when she so adamantly cared. With Nessian? Its the same thing. Even throughout their most vile moments - Cassian saying that everyone hates her, Nesta calling him a brute; weaponizing the fact he was conceived from rape and illegitimate parentage - those moments where still driven by emotional investment. Not a particularly healthy kind, but it was there all the same. What Elain and Lucien feel together reads to me as indifference, tempered with mild dislike. The opposite to love is not hate, but not caring at all. Simply because to love and to hate someone, they have to matter to you. If you combine that with how Elain sees him as a cause/reminder of her trauma, they don’t sound like a particularly engaging couple to read. 

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I don't see many people talking about this but whether Tamlin showed "red flags" in ACOTAR is kind of a moot point because he needed Feyre to fall in love with him, so that she would have a shot at breaking the curse. So when he acts kind - equipping Feyre with a makeshift painting studio, taking her around that silver-pond-thing (which really should not be in the Spring Court, but I digress) its all meaningless. He was even being forced to wear a mask! Which is like one of the most on-the-nose-metaphors, unintentional or not. And at the end of the day, he had an ulterior motive and the minute it was no longer there, when Amarantha was killed and they returned back home together, he lashed out when Feyre communicated her emotions, locking her away in the manor and becoming almost comically sexist.

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Zoey's life story.

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i feel like a lot of people say/present rumi as a loser (affectionately) like with an anxious-avoidant attachment style who soaks up love like a touch-starved dog. which is valid! but like where is the girl who told jinu "I'm everyone's type!" or "not everything is about your insecurities MIRA." like dam girl. that was diabolical.

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Just a quick question I'm writing a jurdan fic - loosely centered on the five love languages. I don't know whether to post it as a one shot for valentines day, or a fic with multiple chapters (around five, probably 2-3k words per chapter)

one shot

chapter by chapter

Voting ended onFeb 10

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headcannon (pt 5???)

anyone else get the introverted friend with extroverted one with zoey and rumi? like rumi is the will-begrudingly-stick-by-your-side-and-slowly-begin-to-like-you and zoey is the golden retriever who (affectionately) never shuts up and ends up following rumi around and creating mass chaos.

at every party rumi just glues onto her side and lets her do all the talking. like she has masking skills she just doesn't care to use them when she does not have too.

a year or two later she becomes incredibly loyal to zoey like would give up her kidney for the girl. and there is like a huge imbalance of what they know of each other; like rumi knows zoey's blood type, favorite color, spirit animal, what her cousin said that one time they where both eight at her mums sleepover party in the fifth day of the summer holiday, and so on

, and in the second year of zoey knowing her all she can say is "uh... she likes singing?"

rumi doesn't mind, because truthfully zoey knows her better than virtually anyone (excluding mira). the fact that she dosn't know trivial things, like her zodiac sign, that doesn't mean anything. zoey knows what to do when she is overwhelmed, when she is anxious, when she is on her period and only wants to eat the chocolate muffins that zoey makes. what more would she need to know?

zoey disagrees with this. though because asking rumi these things often ends up in two ways; if they are in front of people, she will say someone else's favorite food, just so that they can go "Were so similar!"

. zoey can't judge because she does the same thing, but still.

.if zoey does it when they are alone, she says "hmmm" "i don't know" "it doesn't matter", then immediately asks a following question, that she KNOWS zoey will start rambling about immediately. "what was that one species of turtles who-----"

.so zoey has to be strategic about it.

.she takes rumi to buffets and scrutinizes (she thinks its subtle) the foods rumi will eat, and which she picks most often (taro bubble tea with fried vegetable gyoza). she observers the clothes rumi likes to wear until she finds a pattern (fluffy purple hoodies with ripped jeans) she asks celine on rumi's birthday.

and then she gathers it all in her super-not-creepy-notebook. "everything (i know) about rumi"

when mira finds it she laughs her head off and threatens to tell rumi, but after much "negotiating" (chasing each other with pillows) mira proposes a challenge; who can get the largest notebook on rumi? scored by size and accuracy - which would be measured by celine.

who will win?

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Who in polytrix do you think would be the first person to say "I love you?" 

Personally I think it could technically be Zoey. She reads to me as the type to end texts and phone calls with “I love you so much!” Or when she is persuading an incredibly reluctant Mira to do her a favor. But definitely with a more platonic tone, though when they start dating I think it would naturally become more of a romantic nature. I think her insecurities of being “too much” might get in the way of her saying it first, because even though she might not outright deny her feelings (Mira) or simply pretend that they don’t exist (Rumi) Zoey would have the awareness to realise that she was in love. But I think she also knows that Rumi is incredibly closed off, and only starting to come around, and saying “I love you,” in a romantic way might damage any potential progress - she’s not willing to risk that. And also she might not know how Mira would respond - she might see Mira as having an avoidant attachment style, and confessing might trigger that. I could also see her rationalising it as that they have known each other as best friends for longer than they have been alive, and that they practically act like a couple anyway, so what's the point of risking that? Also I think there could be an element of rejection sensitivity - which is also linked with ADHD, just saying - which would definitely amplify any potential negative ramifications of doing that. Like Rumi not knowing how to react, or it creating a rift in their relationship.

I think with Mira it could depend on the details of her childhood trauma. It's not gone into much depth into the movie; she does say “I don’t get to have a family”, which would imply that she never felt safe or at home in her home. The word “get” is quite interesting - because getting things is typically associated with receiving a gift or something that is not owed to you, something that you did not necessarily fight for. You might “get” a christmas gift, or “get” an undeserved criticism. So when Mira says that she, specifically her, doesn't get to have a family it implies that she believes that she is an outlier; that perhaps everyone else gets to have a family, because they don’t have to fight for it, but she simply “doesn’t.”  

Other than that, there is the song lyric in golden; “Called a problem child’ Cause I got too wild” Which is incredibly vague - but it is meant to be released to the general public, so it makes sense that she wouldn’t be too vulnerable. And then that line is set up for the “But now that’s how I’m getting paid” which is quite interesting; it dismisses any lingering sense of sympathy the audience might have had because whatever potential trauma she might have gone through made her who she is to day, and thus is more of an origin story. Her victory in being part of HUNTRIX is the focus. Also “called” is quite interesting because it's implying that Mira herself does not personally identify as a “problem child.” She was simply called a problem child, she hadn’t been one. Bobby could have put that there to avoid potential scandal - HUNTRX, ideally, should have squeaky-clean backgrounds. And their group is steeped in potential scandal; Zoey is half American - which could be seen as her not being Korean enough/kpop becoming too westernized. Rumi was adopted by Celine, a very famous former Kpop idol, and became one herself. Which is kind of nepotism (even if it is to save the world) So they really need to avoid any more scandals.

      If she didn’t feel safe, emotionally or physically, around her family, then perhaps she could have built up an avoidant attachment style, where she is so scared of falling in love - thus opening up the potential to be hurt - so she ends up pushing overs away. Especially those she loves most. She might end up denying her feelings but showing them instead.   Cooking big, elaborate breakfasts for Zoey and Rumi - with a balance of South Korean and American dishes, and always knowing what they need, sometimes before they need it. Mainly pancakes, because it's the only one she’s somewhat good at, and she refuses to cook bad food for Zoey and Rumi.     Being Zoey’s back bone when she can’t stand up for herself and reminding Rumi to take care of herself -eating, sleeping, drinking water. Or simply making her take a break when she overworks herself in training.

That leaves Rumi. I think one problem with her saying it first is that she had not allowed herself to truly connect with Zoey and Mira for so long; partly because she was a demon, and they killed demons for a living, partly because Celine insisted that they wouldn’t understand - and she was right, to a very small extent. Old habits stick - I think they would have a lot of conversations to do before she truly felt safe around them - safe enough to be herself, patterns included, safe enough to tell them how she feels. Also I think her relationship with Celine might alter how she views love. When she asked, “Why couldn’t you love me, all of me?” It's a very loaded statement. “Couldn’t” implies that to an extent, Rumi believes being loved by Celine was impossible, it simply “couldn’t” have happened. Furthermore, when she says “all” she is referring to her full identity - a half-demon. The fact that it is a rhetorical question is also intriguing - the answer is fairly obvious, and I think they both know that. Celine was training Rumi to be a demon hunter, while she was a demon. Celine never chose Rumi, she was placed upon her. I think what Rumi really wanted to say was, “You should have loved me, all of me.” How this would impact how she views love, I’m not quite sure. Rumi isn’t foolish, and I think she has a good judgement of whether someone loves her and why. She might have trained herself to pick up on it as a child. Which means she could realize that Zoey and Mira love her for who she truly is - though I think secretly, she sometimes wishes it not despite that she is a demon but partly because of it, which might put up a barrier in terms of confessing her feelings.

To conclude; I think they are all useless gay’s.

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I am very new (and neutral) to the ship war with elreil and elucien and gwynriel. convince me of a side.

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POLYTIX HEADCANNON

Rumi has really painful periods. Like curl-up-in-bed-and-want-to-die-periods. she shuts herself away in her room and consumes a freakish (necessary ) amount of chocolate.

Zoey and Mira never found out - it was regular behavior for her, after all - until one day.

They wanted her to come too the bathhouse. Rumi says no, because she can't, and while logically she knows that periods are not shameful, or dirty, or tmi, but she still can't bring herself to say it,

She didn't expect them to care - why would they? She went with them two days a week (which zoey insisted could change. "exposure therapy!" she had called it.)

But they kept insisting that something was wrong. "Your patterns aren't shameful!" Zoey protested with a smile, tugging her arm gently. Mira just grunted. "I will punt anyone who says otherwise."

Rumi chuckled nervously. She wanted to just get back into bed - just because she was going to spend the next few days miserable, it didn't mean that they should, too.

"Its not that." She smiled. "Really, you guys should go-" a sharp cramp settled into her stomach, and she almost wanted to cry. Not in front of them.

"Than what is it?" Mira huffed, raising a single eyebrow. "Why now? Its been fine for the last few weeks--" Rumi took a deep breath in. Not in front of them. Not in front of them. Not in front of them. "And you only have an issue with it now?"

Rumi sighed. It would be easier to tell them, would it not be? Yet she couldn't...

Derpy leaped up onto the counter and nudged the pot of chocolates to the end, along with the small packet of Tylenol. Zoey's eyes went wide - not unkindly - "Your on your period?," she sasked.

Rumi just nodded. She didn't know what else to do. But before she could even react, Zoey had darted off. Was she mad?

Mira just face-palmed. "God Rumi, I'm so stupid." She said, in pseudo-apology, "You where watching The Mitchel's vs The Machines?" Rumi nodded again, also uneasily. Mira hopped onto the bed, tucking in the covers so that they where neat. She just sighed when Rumi remained hovering, unimpressed, but not surprised. "You sitting down or what?"

"Right." Rumi slowly sat down. Leave it to Mira to jump on her bed and act like she was weird for it. She was gently pulled into Mira's lap, and before she could protest, Zoey had ran in. Holding a staggering pile of hot water bottles, everything chocolate; fudge and mochi and mugs of hot-chocolate.

Rumi's face had flushed a bright red and she frowned, moving slightly to make room for Zoey. "What-- um, are you doing?"

Zoey gasped in offence. "Mandatory cuddles!" She picked the hot water bottle and placed it on her lap, nestling her head into Rumi's shoulder. "Oh! I love this movie," she clicked play.

Rumi was about to protest - she didn't need to be taken care of, and they should just go to the bath house - but Mira just shoved the bag of chocolate in her face. "Eat."

Derpy settled at her legs, purring low and soft. Rumi sighed - the heat of the bottle was soothing, and the chocolate was simply amazing. She felt all most spoiled - every time the tub ran out, Zoey would get more, and when the bottle lost its warmth, Mira would refill it.

It odd, being cared for like this. But sweet. Unexpected, but not unwelcome.

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Incorrect Qoutes (Part 3)

Fan: Rumi, is it true that you have a deadly allergy?

Rumi: Yes! Its so annoying, you know? I break out in hives and everything!

Fan: What is it?

Rumi: P----

Mira: Emotional vulnerability.