No one is ever going to know your pain.
How you see others happy, when you put a fake smile on each day...
Coming to the place you call home, empty silence where you eat alone once again.
The feeling of emptiness, but also the feeling of caring too much.
A constant war between your heart and your brain.
You try to please others so they like you... but you know in your heart they would never do the same.
You play victim to your own creation, but you are the culprit to your own self destruction.
Others search for careers, while you are just searching for that light...
Light that will make the darkness disappear.
You’ve been fighting ever since your dad died.
You grasp so strongly onto someone that will make you believe in love again... you believe you can love, but never yourself...
You can't see when other people care for you and love you because of how you let others treat you.
You settle for less. You don't believe you deserve anything more than less.
You want to be treated like shit, you want drama in your life, atleast it’s a feeling you already know. You’ll feel completely empty without it... You don't feel joy anymore, you feel like a part of you has died.
You’d sleep with random souls under the moonlight to try and feel something again....
Now it feels like nothing at all. Just empty feelings and doubt.
What if you meet that light, then it doesn’t feel good enough, what if it makes you feel nothing too?
Goodbyes aren't hard anymore, you feel numb and confused of why you feel nothing.
You crave it. It’s an addiction with no cure.
Let yourself feel joy again.
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