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Chinese of the day

所以今天我和妈妈吵架。我相信她越来越忘了东西。也许痴呆，我希望没有。 东西她忘了是简单的东西。她忘了我们的前周聊天。我有点冒犯了。我希望我错了。

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June 8ths Blog.

Denial: As someone who had to go through life and learn acceptance witnessing someone who you looked up to actively be in denial hurts. It reminds me of what they must have been through growing up, being thrown into the real world and unable to learn these lessons I am grateful for learning through the privilege their struggle afforded me.

What type of torture they must feel when somethings goes a strange or someone they thought they knew betrays them. All of these things make me wonder. My fears come from a place of love and I express this to them but they constantly attack me as if I am attacking them. 

This is an issue that I feel like is at a raging boil and ignoring it is becoming increasingly more and more toxic to not only them but my relationship with them. I hope I can change this soon. 

Will it end up being too late. 

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Journal June 7th

今天我感觉不错。多伦多的天气越来越热。今天热死了32C度了！每天我出门散步不过我要等一等6点因为这个热会死我。我想听新的中文说唱歌。昨天我听Kafe.hu。真的好听，特别是他的《合唱？》。明天我要预我妈的第二打疫苗约。我很激动。我希望我也可以预我的第二打疫苗约！加拿大感觉很慢不过我看其他的国家更慢所以我感觉不错。

谢谢您们！

ttyl

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My life (so far!)

So I am excited to start writing this blog. Not necessarily to be seen but as an official documentation on my progress with various things. With the recent completion of my (long overdue) Bachelors Degree I want to restart and double down my efforts on a couple of things. First and foremost is my Chinese Proficiency. My Chinese to be honest would be called great but I feel like an equivalent Chinese person learning English would be called terrible for having my equivalent level. Pursuing a capable Adult Proficiency is a goal of mine. The second goal would be the guitar. I have come under the realization that Guitar is cool and I have previously played it for about 4 years before dropping it. My last goal and with great progress I might add is losing weight. My aim is to move to China when things clear up and I am at a (to my standards) unacceptable point in my body fat percentage. Dropping a couple of Kilos would do me some good.

How I plan to achieve this:

1: Chinese

So I actually implemented immersion time and sentence card review. I would like to amp it up to Audio-Anki Cards but I simply do not have the knowledge to create such a thing and my attempts have been futile.

2: Guitar

Play, Play, Play

3: Losing Weight

I have attacked this with many different strategies such as Keto, Intense Exercise and Illegal Drugs! With this knowledge I have come to the conclusion that Fasting and Light Exercise is ideal for my lifestyle. I am not the type of person to grind at a gym, so as much as I would like to not Fast it is simply not possible for me to go on a calorie deficit otherwise!