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@depression-vents
I’ve hit rock bottom. I go to work so much and never say no to a spare shift for three reasons.
1. Being at work makes me happier than being at home.
2. I’m a stupid people pleaser.
3. I need to save the money to get out of this abusive hellish nightmare.
I don’t know how much longer I can do this but I’ll keep going for my cat, he’s the only one that keeps me going.
it’s easier to say “im tired” than “im so sad and lonely i feel like there’s a weight in my chest and my body is so heavy i have no energy emotionally, physically or mentally to even move from my bed”
>be me
>wake up having an allergic reaction and spend 4 hours getting up and getting ready for work and having a hard time breathing
>when downtown, go into a drugstore and buy otc medication for allergies and feel better upon taking the
>still work a whole 10 hour shift feeling exhausted and like shit
>get home
>egg donor sees allergy meds while going through my shit
>goes on to absolutely lose it on me calling me names, belittling me, coming back again and again to add more fuel onto the fire
>be me again
>feel worse, have a hard time breathing again, want to fucking end it all
I just want to fucking die
Fear is fucking killing the world. Nothing else, literally fear is killing us. And other peoples fear is killing me.
People need to stop posting political Shit on this site, they don’t realize what a huge trigger it can be for some people myself included. And no, I do NOT throw that word around lightly, AT ALL.
I live 5 minutes away from our class and rehearsal space, why not live with me for a month? I have a spare bed.
Oh. Cause people don’t like to spend too much time with me, got it.
It sucks when you realize people don’t like you as much as you like them.
Does anyone even listen to me? Fuck no.
Does anyone even take me seriously? Fuck no.
Does anyone even give a shit when I have something to say? Fuck no.
Does anyone even care that I’m alive and matter? Fuck no. Clearly I don’t.
Does anyone even care that I’ve been doing this for six years and have so much more experience than they’ve ever had? Fuck no.
I thought I mattered.
I thought I had things to say.
I thought people cared about me.
I thought people liked me.
I thought my faculty cared that I was helping them.
I thought the world would be different if I wasn’t alive.
I thought.
I thought.
I thought.
I just don’t want to be here anymore. Nobody cares, nobody cares.
A bunch of neurotypicals wrote a piece about depression for my psych class and I don’t think I’ve ever felt more attacked
Sure things have eased up on the outside, but on the inside? Absolutely fucking not.
My head is a fucking shit storm, and I can’t even ask anybody for help.
I’m so sorry the middle of my sentence is interrupting the beginning of yours.
Did you ever, even for a single second consider the reason I spend so much time at school, volunteer for ASM for shows, stay late doing assignments, eat meals there, do online classes at school, etc. Isn’t because I love it (which I do, I would always volunteer for ASM if I could) but because I can’t be safe at home? I can’t keep myself safe with my parents abusive and manipulative behaviour?
Who should I have to apologize for something I didn’t do?
I can’t just forgive you. I don’t know if I ever can. If I didn’t live 5 minutes away from campus and didn’t lose my fucking job due to the fucking virus I would have been living on campus so maybe our relationship could be better.
This post show depression is so fucking severe right now I just want things to go back to the way they were
Aha imagine starting to distance yourself from all of your friends,,
Imagine leaving all your group chats,,
Imagine ignoring texts,,
Imagine relying on about two people,,
God this is making me lonely and a bitch
All I think about is food, being fat, her, and depression. I need help. please.
I’m just sitting here in plain view of three people I like to consider my friends, and not a single one of them even makes an attempt at talking to me.
That’s how my life is. That’s how my life always has been.
Sounds pretty shitty, huh?
Yep, my life fucking sucks. But I’m never going to bring it up to people because who would listen? Fucking nobody.
I sit in the car and I don’t get shotgun even though we’ve been trading off, I have control over the aux cord, but I get asked to change the song.
I get told that I’m doing things wrong even though I’ve been in this program for 6 years,
I have crazy post show depression but does anyone ask if I’m okay even though I’ve made it very clear that I will absolutely NEVER ask for help because I don’t want to burden anyone.
I get home with insane post show depression not wanting to talk to anybody but the cast of the play because they’re the only real family I’ve had for the past month, but does anyone reach out or even answer when I reach out?
Absolutely not.
I just don’t want to be here anymore sometimes.
Don’t you, a neurotypical person EVER tell me, a person on the spectrum what I can and can’t say about my diagnosis, that’s like the most ableist thing you can do!
When your parents KNOW that talking about covid is a serious trigger for you but say “well I don’t like talking about it either”
Bitch that is not the same thing wtf??
