consistently inconsistent

37, UK, better than I used to not quite where I want to be. crossfit, lifting and running when I can't do the other two. sw-133kg cw-110kg

[kaydean]

get to know me, pick some numbers.

1. selfie 2. what would you name your future kids? 3. do you miss anyone? 4. what are you looking forward to? 5. is there anyone who can always make you smile? 6. is it hard for you to get over someone? 7. what was your life like last year? 8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed? 9. who did you last see in person? 10. are you good at hiding your feelings? 11. are you listening to music right now? 12. what is something you want right now? 13. how do you feel right now? 14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you? 15. personality description 16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn’t? 17. opinion on insecurities. 18. do you miss how things were a year ago? 19. have you ever been to New York? 20. what is your favourite song at the moment? 21. age and birthday? 22. description of crush. 23. fear(s) 24. height 25. role model 26. idol(s) 27. things i hate 28. i’ll love you if… 29. favourite film(s) 30. favourite tv show(s) 31. 3 random facts 32. are your friends mainly girls or guys? 33. something you want to learn 34. most embarrassing moment 35. favourite subject 36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill? 37. favourite actor/actress 38. favourite comedian(s) 39. favourite sport(s) 40. favourite memory 41. relationship status 42. favourite book(s) 43. favourite song ever 44. age you get mistaken for 45. how you found out about your idol 46. what my last text message says 47. turn ons 48. turn offs 49. where i want to be right now 50. favourite picture of your idol 51. starsign 52. something i’m talented at 53. 5 things that make me happy 54. something thats worrying me at the moment 55. tumblr friends 56. favourite food(s) 57. favourite animal(s) 58. description of my best friend 59. why i joined tumblr 60. ask me anything you want

[derailedfreighter]

Yesterday I had to bail at the bottom of a squat...

On my 3rd set of 5 reps @ 110kg.

I went down....

Contemplated life for what felt like a few years before rolling that bar all the way down my back.

.....stood back up again.

I now have a glorious bruise on my spine and shoulders to show for it.

I finished at 100kgs and proceeded to do the wod;

4 rounds for time

24 abmat sit ups

20 dumbbell walking lunges in front rack position @ 15kgs each.

16 dumbbell snatches @ 15kgs.

Needless to say the walking lunges were spicy after failing a set of squats 10 minutes earlier.

The time cap was 15 minutes, I finished in 14:57 so had to go to that dark place to get it done in time.

[some1s-sista]

[fitnessgeekandcoffeefreak]

Today. Well. And every other day. But especially today.

[derailedfreighter]

Three weeks ago I decided to shave all of my hair off. Still not quite used to it 😐

[living-fitness]

[fuckyeahcrossfit]

The battles that count aren’t the ones for gold medals. The struggles within yourself - the invisible battles inside all of us - that’s where it’s at.

Jesse Owens (via fuckyeahcrossfit)

[strength-kvlt]

Kill your self-imposed limitations! You are a fucking savage, so go act like one. Lift heavy, eat good, and be a decent human being.

“Make Our Tribe Stronger”

[handgunsandshenanigans-deactiva]

If you’re more worried about what other people are doing in the gym. You’re not focused on your own goals!

[derailedfreighter]

So this morning I get to return to crossfit after not being able to go for over a week. This means the next hour until I leave will be spent feeling anxious about what I may or may not have to do, how much I will suck at it or should I pee again.

I will then arrive, see my friends, do the workout then leave.

Then I will spend the next 48 hours (until I can go back) complaining about how I should never leave it so long again and how much I hurt because I left it too long.

Cool story huh?

[derailedfreighter]

So here's the thing; I lost a bunch of weight. Stopped. Started again. And now it's slowly starting to creep back on after a month off the wagon. In fact the wagon is long gone. I've tried to catch up with it over the last couple of days but it seems to have taken a detour so I'm left in the slow lane with a slice of pizza in each hand.

This will not do.

I worked my ass off to shed a total of 28kg over the last couple of years but I've r put around 4kg back on over the past month and I'm determined to stop and start going in the other direction again.

Don't get me wrong, the past month has been incredible on account of me getting married but that's all the more reason to get back on it. I don't want to just end up letting myself fall back into bad habits and my wife think "Oh he's married me now so he's letting himself go".

I do need help though which is why I'm on here. I used Tumblr a couple of years ago and It was really helpful for motivation. I made some good friends and I'm still in touch with some of them.

I used to track my food o my fitness pal and I do crossfit as much as I can. Sometimes that's 5 times a week, sometimes it's once a week. When I go more regularly I find it much easier to eat well and stay motivated. I'm very much an or nothing kinda guy.

If I start following you on here its because I like what you're doing and probably see you as a decent bit of motivation. Or you're just funny.