Dark Corner
In the middle of the AM I cry out for a embrace so tight that it resembles my lungs under the rib cage .. Awaken from a slumber if we can call it that .. Scared of why death didn't just choose me first .. My reach shortened by fear of grabbing onto the first sign of comfort when some beds fit for a king are actually the cold hard cement floor .. I call out to you .. Not sure what I should call you.. Not sure what I should listen for in return .. But I cry for you .. Something like .. "God" .. I think? "Most High".. "The Alpha".. I'll just call you "Far Away" because I seem to know you only from a distance .. I apologize for only calling your name .. when she's pulling my mane ... ..and giving me breaths that if I didn't take them I would deem anything else blasphemous .. But hear me now.. I come to you in a moment where I'm not sure how I got here but I plan to see myself out with a cloak of invisibility .. But life has really been shit for me and I don't want to be in debt to my happiness .. Choose me .. Not because I'm pretty or without sin because if you ask me my scars make me hideous and sins haven't cost me my life so they must be free .. Choose me ... Not because I choose myself ..because honestly I don't, if I had it my way I would let this world swallow me whole and pick my demons out of their teeth with my rib bones.. Choose me ... Not because I like the attention .. because if I had it my way I would cover myself in introversion and make my smile a reborn virgin with no chances at popping my cherry unless you can handle the weary .. Just ...pick me.. I've been standing in this line so long, I've given names to the roots that are growing around my ankles .. But take me from here ... Please... They say if it's your will than its your way .. and I took that as a sign of an advance directive ... Your Will. I thought that if it was in your Will then I would be listed as a beneficiary .. the person who collected your healing powers and bountiful nourishment that only a someone of your stature could give .. I am the darkness in a room full of light .. I am the salt in a tear .. I am the direction in a broken compass .. Please ..just choose me .. "God" "Most High" "Alpha" "Allah" .. Whatever you want me to call you .. I'll be here on my knees .. With my hands together because I think that's how they do it.. Talking out loud to myself .. ...because I haven't quite learned your name ..
