Derpious

Bi as Fuck writer with every mental disorder under the goddamn sun.

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If the main theme doesn't have me sobbing on the floor like this after beating the game, I don't want it.

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You know you're desperate for a good fanfiction when you're opening a blank Google doc with murderous intent...

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Depression is really making me realize how much I depend on fictional characters.

I tried looking a little deeper into my OCs and realized just how much I imprint myself onto them. Seeing myself like that was honestly a little sad. I live so much of my life through others that I deny myself any purpose. I use my illnesses as a mask to keep who I want to be hidden away out of fear. And I spend every day desperately searching for a reason to go on despite having people around me who are that reason.

Anyways I just needed to rant sorry

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That feeling when you realize that if you never messaged first, nobody would ever talk to you ever.

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A friend and I were sharing our worst "hear me outs". It started off pretty tame with generally hot characters from movies and games. But I think I killed them when I just responded with this image:

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Spending 6 hours editing down 4 hours of gameplay into two 30 minute videos

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Nothing feels better than finally trying something you've been dreading, and then actually enjoying it.

I have been so scared of learning video editing. After literal years of procrastinating, I tried it and honestly, it really isn't that bad, and is actually kinda fun. Uploaded my first video today and am feeling great!

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I love looking through old comments and seeing how funny I was:

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"But what if your story barely reaches anyone?"

Then the lucky few who do will treasure it forever.

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If I see one more AI generated article, I'm gonna fucking lose it. Get this stupid corporate shit out of my goddamn feed!

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Let's play a game of "who's that sprite?"!

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Might be making my largest Perler Bead project ever

It would be 4 boards by 5 boards (22in by 28in) and would require over 16k beads. This is the design I'm making in Minecraft before actually making it out of beads.

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I love when you can physically feel a new hyperfixation creeping through your brain, infecting your every thought with that subject.

Now I'm making Perler Bead art of every character because I have too much of it in my head.

(I use Minecraft to plan out designs before making them out of beads)

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I liked one singular frog post, you know what that means!

My entire feed is frogs

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One of my great dreams is to wake up to fanart or fanfiction related to one of my projects. I want nothing more than to inspire creativity in others and it would make my week to see it.

The only problem is that I don't have anything publicly available yet to base art on. And learning digital art is going pretty damn slow, so it'll be a while before I get to see this dream through.

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I went into a bit of a mood and proceeded to kill off every single character in my story in the span of one hour.

I'm sorry, it will probably happen again.