You ever just see a character and immediately get attached to them and be like, "god, you're so fxcking perfect" while staring at them lovingly?
Me when Ultron, fr tho-
He's so goddamn hot, it's honestly a crime, no wonder he was the villain; lowkey wanna climb this mfer like a tree
And I'm over here completely obsessing over him like my life depends on it, AND THE FACT THAT HE'S 8FT TALL DOESN'T HELP, LIKE- my 5'3" ass could never; AND HIS VOICE, TOO, HELLOOO???!??
Yk something that’s always stuck out to me about Ultron is how lonely he is, even if he’s a robot, even if he won’t admit it to himself.
This has been a thing since some of the older comics, like that time Ultron tried to make a wife for himself (Jocasta). Or even Vision being created as his son.
And I’ve always loved this about him and I love how much depth it gives him. But it’s also bringing up thoughts that I haven’t seen many people talk about (at least not yet).
Ultron probably has abandonment issues.
On what level I’m not sure but there’s something about it that speaks to me on such a personal level.
Call me insane but I want to see him quietly beg you to stay. I don’t just mean quiet in a tone of voice. I mean quiet like he keeps doing little things to make you want to stay. To change your mind from a thought he’s convincing himself you have.
He tries to be as attentive as possible for you and your needs. He still works towards his own goals sure, but there are times where he just gets in a mood and everything else seems to be put on hold for you.
He gets protective and vigilant for any threats, whether it be from a person, the environment, or even sickness. He wants to hammer in the idea that he is the safest place to be. Nowhere else matters. I don’t even mean this in a yandere way, but it is similar levels of desperation. He wants to be your home.
But it’s not for you, not really. It’s for him. He needs this more than you do. And he knows it.
Now don’t get me wrong, he won’t verbalize this. He hates doing that. He hates acknowledging how emotional he’s being, how emotionally driven he’s being. Ultron is a character who I think communicates deeper feelings with subtlety… at first.
But we’ve seen how he can get when he snaps. When he’s angry. And more importantly, when he’s desperate.
There will come a time when this mood of his reaches a peak. You try to leave the room, and he firmly says one word:
“Don’t.”
You try to ask why, what’s going on, if everything’s okay. But he just gets… angry?
That’s not the right word. Surely by now, you know what his anger really looks like, and this isn’t it. Something’s wrong, and he’s not gonna break what it is, not yet.
He stops himself from going on some rant. Just sighs, in his own robotic way. He’s refusing to look at you, afraid that if you made eye contact you’d be able to figure it out immediately. Eyes are the window to the soul, and though he has none, you might still be able to see every running wire in his processor.
Before you know it he has you in his arms. It’s near silent in the room outside the whirring of his own gears. Until it isn’t. It’s quiet, almost like he didn’t want you to hear, despite needing you to. And you know he won’t say it again.
Something I always took notice of between Des and Miguel is how similar they are in terms of their backstory. Despite that, what sets them apart is how they've coped and responded to the kind of distress they are faced with.
While Miguel has been more combative and on the defense, building a wall to keep himself safe of emotional injury or turbulence, Des has a more willful aspect when she crosses paths with people. Her warmth and easygoing nature brings people in without fail and allows herself to make a new circle of friends and companionship. The aura she casts aids her in her journey to heal and resist her past urges (self isolation and overworking).
Miguel had always been aware of how easy it was for her to be fitting to everyone's general circle. There's times when he would be in his office trying to piece together how, despite all of her trails, she can still be so happy and willing to be open with many others. The painful urge to be able to understand and find solace in the presence of others had taken a major toll, desperation replaced curiosity.
In this drawing, I wanted to symbolize this desperation by taking certain phrases and turning them into a literal action.
Spilling his guts and opening up gone bad, you know?
THE DRAWING YOU ARE ABOUT TO SEE CONSISTS OF BLOOD, AN OPEN CHEST CAVITY AND EXPOSED ORGANS.
Riot posting Sevika poster acting like she has a whole character arc in Act3 only for her to appear for 10 seconds with no lines and put her in the council as diversity hire is funny of them I'd give them that
Hey chat, im so sorry for taking a hiatus from tumblr, but with a lot of consideration, I’ve decided to repurpose this blog and make it into something more story oriented.
Tumblr, to me, is literally is perfect for that. i enjoy the format and i miss making imagines and little drabbles TERRIBLY.
So! If you still enjoy miguel o hara and would like to tolerate my attempts at making self-indulgent comics or writing pieces then i hope your up for that!
What does that mean for art?
I’ll still post art, however, it’s gonna be more for a serious discussion. I’m really wanting to be more in depth with the inner workings between Miguel and Des Malinto. I have plenty on the table about what and how I’m gonna get it all together and I’m hoping this doesn’t throw people off if all they came for was just Miguel O’Hara (which is fair lol).
Where can you find other socials?
You can find all of them over on my carrd that’s pinned at the top of my blog! It includes my Bluysky (MDNI) , Instagram, Tiktok, and Patreon (18+)
They’ll all have different uses, like my tiktok being for shitposts and animated skits, my insta for illustrations and doodles, bluesky for the same thing but with the addition of explicit content, and my patreon for nsfw!
I hope yall are cool with this change and are willing to stay!
Since I had two separate tags in this, @spaceyjessa and @laughhardrunfastbekindsblog I decided I would make a separate post.
Last song: with lyrics: Beautiful Boy by The Last Dinner Party (I found out about this band like two weeks ago and now I’m going through a phase I’m obsessed)
Without lyrics: I am ready by Kevin Kiner & Sean Kiner: from the bad batch season three soundtrack. Been listening to it a lot lately, as it feels pretty prevalent to the time of my life that I’m at
Favourite color: light pinks and baby blues
Last book/fic: the last book I finished was defy the storm, by Tessa Gratton (I’m getting closer and closer to being caught up on THR)
Fic: Mace Windu fixes the timeline (You should read it, it’s wonderful)
Last movie: the rise of Skywalker (yes, I love the sequel trilogy and what about it 💅)
Last show: the bad batch... I’m re-watching, again... how predictable 🙄
Sweet/spicy/savory: I have a big sweet tooth, especially when it comes to chocolate
Relationship: single real life, but in love with countless fictional characters inside my head🤩
Last thing I googled: what does the quest cookies and cream protein bar taste like? (look, I have arfid. I can’t just buy new things to try without knowing exactly what I’m getting into first)
Current obsession: Star Wars, duh! Specifically clones and TBB, the Mandalorian and the high republic
I look forward to telling you: that if you’re reading this you’re wonderful
No pressure tags (and I’m sorry if you’re being tagged again) @clonethirstingisreal @eobe @dystopicjumpsuit @sunshinesdaydream and anyone else who would like to.
Thanks for tagging me @ireadwithmyears @lonewolflupe @moonlightwarriorqueen @cw80831 and @last-of-cheese! 🩵
Last song: "Losing My Religion," covered by BELLSAINT
Favourite color: Celadon
Last book/fic: Flour Water Salt Yeast: The Fundamentals of Artisan Bread and Pizza, by Ken Forkish
Last movie: Barbie
Last show: José Andrés and Family In Spain
Sweet/spicy/savory: All three at once. If I have to choose just one, spicy.
Relationship: committed
Last thing I googled: a symptom of one of my medical conditions, and I used scholar.google.com because google is shit when you actually need search results with validity
Current obsession: I'm still thinking about those tentacles, tbh. Maybe I should expand the merfolk AU to include the rest of the Batch? Would Crosshair be a shark-man? Why does Wrecker as Ursula sound so appealing? What would Tech look like? Echo? So many possibilities, so little free time to indulge myself. But I can tell you that rendering that background was one of the most relaxing things I've done in ages, so maybe I'll just quit my job and go live in a cave and draw the ocean for the rest of eternity.
I look forward to telling you: that I hope you had a lovely holiday season and will have a wonderful 2025.
No pressure tags, with my apologies if you've already been tagged! @nika6q @dangraccoon @arctrooper69 @wings-and-beskar @mithril-beskar-plastoid @freesia-writes @523rdrebel @probadbatch @dragonrider9905 @ladysongmaster and YOU! That's right, you, reading this, even if your URL isn't listed, consider yourself tagged.
Last song: Take It Back by Bug Hunter (heads up if you plan on listening: it's about suicide-specifically seems to be about suicidal ideation or possibly a failed attempt)
Favorite color: Yellow! Sort of like a sunflower yellow. Because I'm autistic I actually know the hex code: #FFD000
Last book/fic: For Whom the Belle Tolls by Jaysea Lynn! Just started reading, but I've loved the Hell's Belles series on TikTok for a while now! So excited for her with the book coming out!
Last movie: The Six Triple Eight! Unfortunately, it's only on Netflix right now, but I HIGHLY recommend!
Last show: I think this depends on what we're considering a "show". If a tiktok series counts, then it's Hell's Belles. If podcasts count, then it's The Red Thread. If we're only considering traditional shows, then it's Manifest
Sweet/spicy/savory: Sweet I say as I shove another Rolo in my mouth lmao
Relationship: Happily married for about 7 months, though we've been together for 11 years
Last thing I googled: "damp synonyms" because I wanted to use "dampened" in the next sentence and my knowledge of the english language was failing me
Current obsession: Hell's Belles and Defunctland!
I look forward to telling you: that we (if you're northern hemisphere anyway) past the darkest part of winter and the sun will return soon, so if you're like me and struggling with seasonal depression: it'll get better soon. ☀️
Tags if you'd like to! @flowered-bicycles @electrikworm @bring-backup-99
last song: back in black ac/dc (listening to it rn as im responding LOL)
favouritr colour: sapphire blue / sunset orange
last book/fic: a touch of ruin by scarlett st clair (its a smutty persephone x hades series)
last movie: the miraculous ladybug movie 😃🫵 (dont judge i was curious and its lowk good)
last show: the What If marvel series (god i love bucky)
sweet/spicy/savoury: SAVOURY (salivating thinking of sausage rolls frfr)
relationship: craving physical touch single (proudly)
last thing i googled: how to get rid of mucus in the lungs (im sick okay. ive been hacking out my lungs for the past like four days)
current obsession: i havent the foggiest idea tbh, prolly fighting my inner demons for school and trying to better myself for 2025 (im too busy/burnt out for actual obsessions)
i look forward to telling you: it will all get better. i swear. i know this sounds stupid and worthless and constantly constantly constantly told over and over again, but i SWEAR it will get better. you may be in the thick of it now, but please dont look into the shadows for hope. you wont find it there. find it in the things you love, and support yourself and be proud of yourself as you work towards your future self. they are holding a hand out to you, waiting with a smile for you to catch up. it will get better. i promise.
tagging my lovelies: @parasiticstars @asciiid @mandytrekkie @goose-nest and YOU 🫵🤠
Favourite color: Blues, fluorescent pinks, and whatever color matcha is.
Last book/fic: The Universe in a Box - Andrew Potzen
Last movie: Ghost Cat Anzu :) good easy-going movie. slide-of-life adventure. good watch when you need a comfort show.
Last show: Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex, ep. 19
Sweet/spicy/savory: Sweet atm
Relationship: Still taken wee-hee
Last thing I googled: radioisotope thermoelectric generator (just looked this up lmao)
Current obsession: hmmmmiguel. but not in a thirsty way, in a "ah, yes, another character that i relate to because everything that's wrong with me is also wrong with them. nice." also the Spiderverse series, obvi, Sci-Fi anime/film, my oc's..........
I look forward to telling you: Venus is currently visible in the night sky nearby the moon and will be for the remainder of January. :D
guten-tag: @dramatic-delirium , @t1koy-roll , @spdrvyn , and you
last song: heaven knows i'm miserable now - 2011 remaster by the smiths
favorite color: purples, red, and blue
last book/fic: a monsoon rising by thea guanzon
last movie: spider-man: across the spider-verse (is anyone surprised)
last show: superstore!
sweet/spicy/savory: savory
relationship: single, not mingling by choice
last thing i googled: dulcinea limbus guide...
current obsession: miguel o‘hara obviously LMFAO (limbus company too)
i look forward to telling you: i have a lot of hopes and worries for the new year, but i hope we become better friends and make lasting memories :3
Hi!!! I love your art and how you draw Miguel and your OC is so pretty!!! 🥹❤️ your drawings inspired me to drag out of the writers block trenches and to start working on my Miguel fic again! Have a happy new year!
oh MY GOODNESS ❤️❤️❤️😭😭 IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE MY STUFF!!! fills me with absolute joy it got you out of writers block omgggg ❤️❤️ thank you so much for this and i wish you a happy near year too ❤️❤️❤️❤️
des was overworking herself and miguel had enough. he tried to reason with her, not letting her go out to another mission since she wasnt fit for duty.
des wouldn’t listen, but was then pulled into a tight embrace… only thing she felt was four needles piercing her neck, then she couldn’t feel anything at all.
by any means necessary, miguel wanted to keep her safe.
(the veins aren’t a symptom to the venom, she’s just angry and can’t express that.)
it has been an interesting year and i gotta tell you that coming into the spider-verse fandom and finding the most amazing, talented people is the best part over all. y’all have gave me ideas, opportunities, and reflections i didn’t know i could have. your words of encouragement whether it be articulated or spam will forever remain as a cornerstone to my artistic ability forever and always. <333
i have so much to appreciate but little words to express my forever growing gratitude and love for each and every one of you who decided to stick around even when i went dormant.
i hope y’all have an amazing Christmas/Kwanza/Hanukkah/Holidays <3333
