i dont know if i want to get better

Leon 🪦23🥀he/him 🪦depression, anxiety, gender dysphoria, adhd, probably some other shit in there too 🪦please tell me to take things down if you dont want me reblogging them 🥀i am not pro self harm or pro ana. i just need somewhere to out my emotions cus nowhere else is safe

[despairisafunnyword]

oh wow so Nobody likes me huh

[despairisafunnyword]

envy is growing into hatred. for both of them. for everyone. im the only one who doesnt get to be loved. im the only one who is alone. and i hate them for it. i hate them all.

[bloodbathbaby666]

i feel like i never stop feeling tired tbh

[bloodbathbaby666]

eh

[despairisafunnyword]

ive gone from “nobody would miss me or notice if i died” to “people would feel an indescribable form of relief if they found out i killed myself” and i think thats awesome and definitely doesnt make me want to slit my wrists for the first time in years.

[despairisafunnyword]

im gonna stop reaching out to n talking to people and see how long it takes for people to even think about worrying about me

[despairisafunnyword]

results: people dont text me unless they need something. nobody checks in to see how im doing. nobody asks to hang out. nobody cares.

[despairisafunnyword]

i think i might actually hurt myself again today. i want to. i need to.

[despairisafunnyword]

my friend told me they know THREE different people who said they “used to have a crush” on me so either that friend is a fucking liar or those people all found something about me to find me repulsive enough to kill that crush.

im gonna assume theyre just a liar.

[despairisafunnyword]

the girl i love came out as a lesbian recently. im the last man she ever interacted with romantically before that, so basically im so repulsive i can literally remove someones attraction to men from themselves entirely. she’d been bi for years but all of a sudden i show up and shes not into men anymore

im more disgusting than i thought

[jz666]

[youwillleaveme]

can i please finally leave this fucking life

[despairisafunnyword]

i think its getting bad again

[despairisafunnyword]

so not only does my one friend get to date the girl of my dreams, he also gets to win the drag tournament and 1000 bucks

im starting to think that i just dont deserve good things

[despairisafunnyword]

i 💜 being unloveable its so much fun that Literally nobody wants me i love seeing every single one of my friends being in love and then nobody wants me yay yippee being undesirable is the most fun thing ever what if i killed myself right now

[despairisafunnyword]

ive accepted that ill never find love

doesnt make it feel any better to think about though

[despairisafunnyword]

not even my best friend cares about what i have to say anymore.

maybe i should just disconnect from it all

[despairisafunnyword]

im sorry im not him, you have no idea how much i wish i was.