I posted after Peaches' death just how shocked I was, how awful I felt for those babies, her poor husband, her poor family. I, like many others, did not know Peaches, just followed her on Instagram, awaited her posts, enjoyed her videos of her gorgeous children. Even in the last few months she seemed so together. Yes there were some pictures where she looked far less groomed than others, but so what, she was a mummy to two babies, wouldn't we all look tired? This picture, taken in January, shows a healthy looking Peaches. A happy one. But the inquest was today, and according to that Peaches went back to taking heroin in February. She had been on prescription methadone for 2 years. Her babies were less than 2. Does that mean she took methadone while pregnant with them? Or worse? I loved Peaches, I really did, I still miss seeing pictures of her babies, and of her, but I can't quite get my head around how she 'attachment parented' while taking methadone as a substitute to heroin. Was this why she was so adamant about breastfeeding? Because breastfeeding after taking methadone throughout a whole pregnancy would have meant her babies would have been slowly weaned off it, rather than abruptly being taken off it when born, which would have happened had she put them straight onto formula. I felt she was a great mother, I loved the way she stood up to Katie Hopkins; and had this not happened, I'd have been amazed at how she managed to continue to be the great mother she was while battling a drug addiction: AND WINNING! She was winning, she was doing so well. Yet she relapsed. I truly believe addiction is an illness, I really do. I believe she must have been at such a low point in her life to decide to take heroin while caring for one of her children. The inquest says she died from a heroin overdose. It says her husband found her then 'located' the child. It says she had died after 8 pm on the Sunday. Yet she wasn't found until 1.30. Where was her baby all that time? What sort of state must he have been in? He must have been hungry, needed a nappy change, anything. Maybe he had been in the room with her, we will never know. Who knows what state he was in. The thought makes me feel sick. Why would such an excellent mother do that? Peaches was a product of her upbringing, history repeating itself. Yet she showed such promise as a mother. She adored those boys, it was clear to see. I hope in 20 years time I'm not once again hearing the same story about one of those beautiful boys. I hope history does not continue to repeat itself. RIP beautiful lady. I hope you are finally at peace.
