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I still dream, and it throws me off. Angel, Night, Vána and Ria, names and faces and nicknames that are starting to fade in real life still crop up in that otherworld of sleep. I've long since left that life, it feels, Angel and rarely Ria are my only ties to that lost world, the world I chose to put away. And yet, I still dream...

#dream #angel #night #Vána #ria

polybelle

what's the difference?

anonymous asked:

would you change your life for someone?

No, but I’d change because of someone.

I wouldn’t change my life to fit someone else’s but I do believe that the people you surround yourself with influence who you are. You’re naturally going to learn different ways of doing things and gain new traits “because” of others.

I don’t think you should have to change “for” anyone. Friend, family, romantic partner, lover – if who you are doesn’t work for them, then you don’t belong with them, simple and clean as that.

There’s a difference between ‘he doesn’t like it when I dance, so I won’t anymore’ and ‘she drinks her tea a certain way and I subconsciously got used to making it like that, so I make mine like her’s now.’ The first is for and the second is because. Don’t ever let him stop you from dancing.

Please don’t think that no one’s going to love you because you’re you. If the people around you don’t, then they don’t deserve your presence. You are a gift. You were put on this Earth because you matter and you are worthy of more love than you could possibly know what to do with.

Never, ever, let anyone tell you otherwise. -Shay

menamarco

7xr9k

People always think if you want to hang out you have to DO something. Like… No.. Invite me over to your house, introduce me to your pets, give me a plate of Oreos and your wi-fi password. We can sit together in silence for HOURS.

nonfunctionalqueer

friendship goals

polyamorouslife-blog

This is so accurate. I hope I’m not too much of a pita. Or that I’m at least worth it!

sandandglass

bitsukki

fun fact you shouldn’t make fun of people who talk a lot because sometimes they can’t control it because of adhd or sometimes it’s a coping mechanism to help them deal with anxiety or something like that and making fun of them because they talk a lot just makes them feel shitty because they know i promise you they know

aleemny

I want a relationship with someone where they have a key to my place and can drop by anytime because I’m so comfortable with them they are never unwelcome. Someone who if they’re having a bad night could come over even if I was already asleep, but I’d just feel better waking up to find I wasn’t alone anymore. This is the thing I actually want out of whatever relationship I get myself into next. I want someone I can cook breakfast for. Someone who can just chill some times and go on adventures other times. I want someone who can make me feel like I’m home when I’m with them.

cherrybam-blog

wordsnquotes

Often, when we have a crush, when we lust for a person, we see only a small percentage of who they really are. The rest we make up for ourselves. Rather than listen, or learn, we smother them in who we imagine them to be, what we desire for ourselves, we create little fantasies of people and let them grow in our hearts. And this is where the relationship fails. In time, the fiction we scribble onto a person falls away, the lies we tell ourselves unravel and soon the person standing in front of you is almost unrecognizable, you are now complete strangers in your own love. And what a terrible shame it is. My advice: pay attention to the small details of people, you will learn that the universe is far more spectacular an author than we could ever hope to be.”

Beau Taplin, “The Fiction of People” (via wordsnquotes)

I'm not sure what my stance is on fate, or signs, or whether there truly are coincidences in the world, but today, at least, it comforts me to think of them as the universe working itself out rather than mere happenstance. I've got a therapy appointment Wednesday. I've been putting off the call for weeks because I can't really afford it, but today something felt like I just needed to do it. So I called and got an answering machine. It was a huge list of bumbers, and there was one particular one that had seemed right, but I wasn't about to call her directly, so I just went dwn to their office. The woman there said that each person does their own thing, and recommended me to their website. She gave me a card with the website on it, one of about seven or eight different ones within reach, and once I left I realized it was the card for the therapist that I had been considering. So I went ahead and called her, and it just so happens that she's open for new patients, specializes in anxiety and emotional turmoil (which I knew from her website but still), and just happened to have one appointment open Wednesday for right after I got off work. The cost isn't the best but I'll figure out how to make it work. So yeah, the stars really lined up for this one, and I hope it goes well. *crosses fingers*

#therapy #problems #counseling #fate #coincidences #devomy

greathornedbisexuowl

Fitness app where you’re given a random pokemon egg and you have to walk around irl like in the game until a set number of steps until the egg hatches and gives you a random pokemon, then you’re given another egg, and you can collect the pokemon that you hatch by walking

batcii-archive-deactivated20210

i’m in this very odd bubble

like logically, i know i have a lot to do

but like, emotionally, i’m just.. not.. registering it??? i’m not so much calm but like.. standing in a sound proof fishbowl watching all of my obligations press their faces to the glass, yelling and knocking, and like, my homework and emails are teaming up to make a battering ram and my job is trying to tunnel under and i’m just standing here watching it all in muffled, deaf silence like “ok”