devika

[whendidmythoughtsgocrazy]

“Almost. It’s what hurts the most. Because almost will never be enough.”

— k.b. // almost

[devikawrites]

What reminded you of me

The pain that you caused

Wasn't that enough to destroy me already

[devikawrites]

it's been too long that my heart was a land to let happiness sink in, it's been a drought land of tears , sinking more tears day by day just to be more drought. my face has lost the familiarity of the stretch that a smile gives and the eyes don't know if the sparkles are of joy or it's just my sorrow shining out loud in water. the urge to scream out loud but I've lost my voice, the urge to cry out loud but I've my tears dead in me, the urge to just be in my sadness but I've lost the way to know myself enough. at the end it's just me and my clouded thoughts over my soul and and my emotions. like an ozone layer around the earth, but in a negative way, my clouded thoughts hasn't let anything come near me or to me let it feel or sink myself in it. just wandering within the tangles in the hope to untangle my thoughts but I'm tangled up myself.

[thehopefulquotes]

“You know I don’t agree with what you did. But I understand why you did it.”

— Hanya Yanagihara

[stay-close]

“Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive.”

— Josephine Hart, Damage

[stay-close]

“I’m still not over my sad past and I don’t think I will ever be.”

— Lana Del Rey

[devikawrites]

and when that void is filled , i miss the presence of the void of sadness

[thehopefulquotes]

“I hope you fall in love with someone who never lets you fall asleep thinking you’re unwanted.”

— Unknown

[stay-close]

“I don’t want to be a sweetheart. I want to be the fucking love of your life.”

— Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie

[devikawrites]

Sometimes people think if they love a broken person enough, they can be what finally repairs them, but the problem with that is the other person just ends up broken too.

- Colleen Hoover

[stay-close]

“With such a hell in your heart and your head, how can you live? How can you love?”

— Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

[stay-close]

“Even in the darkest night, if you strike a match, the shadows will flee. This is a law of nature; the darkness yields to the light, no matter how small the flame.”

— Jared White

[devikawrites]

The abyss within

has settled down right there

Its roots have unfurled

and held onto my nerves

With creepers of pain growing around

It hurts

It hurts more

As if the creepers thorns are pricking

pricking me in and out

to find a way through

I feel them

crawling through the voids

through the blood

and slowly nearing my soul

almost choking my throat

I just have a overlook

And in peace

I let it pass

I notice them

Slowly hiding too

Like it's fed up of

Trying again and again

To put me down

And still

I'm not on my knees

Pleading to let me go

And to let me live

I stand there tall

Fighting for me

fighting with myself

To not give up again

And there!

There I see

where it climbs down

finding ways

to hit the rock bottom

and just vanish away.

I let it find its way

I let it go

And there !

There I saw myself

Again standing tall

Till the end

Untill the start

Of another one !

[devikawrites]

there are feelings

and there are constant feelings

it fades

maybe early or late

but it does

that feeling in my throat

when the world

seems like stopping at a moment

the feeling of feeling nothing

in your heart

it hurts

don't know the reason

But it does

it fades

but it comes back.

it comes back to me

like a pet I owe

it's like the tail of lizard

the more it gets cut

the more it grows

it's like growing a creeper

wiith thorns everywhere

it has grabbed my neck

from within

too stubborn

to leave it

It hurts

I try to get it off

it grabs lil harder the next sec

I sit there

observing how hardly it has grabbed

I let it be there silently

and slowly I feel the thorns

the thorns pulling back itself

from the skin

and this hurts more

a good thing happening

hurts more

when the cause was too terrible to handle

[creativepromptsforwriting]

February Prompts 🌹

Word prompts to use for doodling or writing

love letter

birds

snowfall

dinner date

mirror

sky

chocolates

poem

rainbow

cards

dream

ring

mountains

kisses

cashmere

dance

roses

heart candies

gifts

cupcakes

diary

carousel

watercolor

love language

rainday

cabin

envelope

ribbons

[boohwanj-deactivated20240316-de]

2013-12-29

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Ulju-gun, Ulsan, Republic of Korea

Nikon D4 + AF-S NIKKOR 85mm F1.4G

[fiahlamaha-deactivated20200226]

there’s so much joy in living a private life. looking really pretty and not posting it, going to a new city and not telling anyone, getting a fancy dinner by yourself dressed up.... like it just feels like life.. i feel alive and less preformative

[manhattan-gamestop]

Does anyone else desperately need instructions to function but also hates being told what to do

[devikawrites]

Spoke my language