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pinterest used to have the best thinspo, now it’s like savaging for scraps *sigh*
Forget men I literally just want to look good in clothes
To have Angel numbers on the scale. 🖤☕️
I was scared to calculate what i ate yesterday but it turned out fine
My bf chronically undereats so if i can keep up with him im usually fine
I kept up with him and even overestimating i ended up at 1250 for the day
All my clothes feel uncomfortable and I have to do this or else i have to buy bigger jeans and that is so not a fucking option. Have to get smaller only.
Accidentally fell apart yesterday because of jeans that are uncomfortably tight and sobbed all over my boyfriend about it and he was so sweet the whole time I just feel awful. I feel like I’m going to ruin him with my fuckedupness and hes been hurt enough. But god i love him so much and im so selfish i could never let him go, not even to protect him from myself.
Ill be much happier when im smaller thats for sure, i just can’t lose sight of that while im in the trenches.
I can’t decide if i should try to acquire a scale or not. There’s one in the house somewhere but my roommate hid it the last time i freaked out. Funny enough i found it and kept using it but then we moved and i lost track. I have plenty of ill fitting clothing that will show me real tangible progress so i wanted to try to focus on that. Because honestly ive built a lot of muscle and that is making the numbers huge and I can’t look at them yet. But maybe thats why i need a scale. Maybe that will keep me on track. Maybe i should let the ugly numbers make me cry so im really motivated to fix them.
Wish me luck today, its a day off so the roommate and bf usually want to get food but neither of them eats enough so i just have to follow their lead.
Today was much the same, but the intake was justified. I was far more active today. So i ate the same amount as yesterday, roughly, and burned more calories. On the right track. Tomorrow we have to try and be as restrained as possible, it all just depends what my first stop looks like. If there’s too much to catch up on I’ll have to eat a meal. Im hoping to get away with a coffee and a pastry. The carbs cravings are real lately, i just keep spending my whole intake on baked goods.
In: 1933
Out: 571
Net: 1362
Plus the only “out” data i have is step counter app, i did a whole lot of heavy lifting as well so hopefully burned at least another 100. Im definitely feeling hungrier. Sometimes i think high restriction shouldnt feel this hard, but it took a long long time to restrict as low as i did. I have to remember this. Anyway, wish me luck and control tomorrow lol
Well, not ideal today. Started off with the best intentions and really felt good the first few hours. Just coffee and a pastry for breakfast, i was hungry in no time and doing light work on an empty stomach. Lost it at lunch though. I was going to try and just have my usual breakfast at lunchtime right before the heavy work, but i got derailed on the way. I really wish i liked dunkin coffee, it would make life so much easier.
The solution is starbucks but that shit is expensive. I just need to be able to buy coffee and a reasonable healthy lunch at the same place. There are no good gas stations around me; it was way easier when i was at my parents’ house. Gas stations galore, and most of them with quality coffee. Here I’ve only found one, but it only fits with the morning commute (occasionally the afternoon commute too) and contains an overly-friendly clerk. I don’t think hes necessarily a freak, I just have no desire to talk to people when im just trying to get the coffee into my system before I collapse from the lack of caffeine. Obvi being dramatic and whatnot but like please don’t talk to me. Just sell me the good cheap coffee.
Anyway. Enough stalling. Totals forthcoming. Trying to be patient with myself so as not to binge so gonna take this day as a win. The numbers are higher than I would like. But i did walk into the kitchen fully intending to binge and halt it with 3 bites of birthday cake instead of a fuckton of brownie and ice cream.
In: 1921
Out: 484
Net: 1437
Not bad. Gonna try for more like 1200 on days like this going forward but very acceptable for the first week. Wish i had a scale to track with.
Today we didnt binge and we’re going to take that as a win. Today is my birthday, and that has always been an eating occasion. Even when i was in the trenches, i always went too hard on my birthday. This year im not going to bed feeling ill from sweets. I had a small slice of my birthday cake and a bunch of whipped cream (low cal, takes up a lot of space on the plate so keeps the roommates happy). For dinner we went to a korean bbq and hotpot restaurant and it was delicious, it’s all so fresh and unprocessed and you cook it right there at the table. Plus if youre cooking a lot and feeding people a lot you can super fly under the radar. So easy. I left feeling like i did well in a situation where i wouldve expected myself to binge. I feel ok. 1650ish calories. A little over the legal limit as established in my last post, but fuck it it’s my birthday. Plus, tbh, im just getting back on the horse. Low restriction is a trap that may end up having opposite consequences. Gotta ease in. Like boiling a frog.
But next year… next year ill be dressed up in something super cute that looks amazing on me, and ill even go to bed hungry. Maybe. Lol.
Anyway. New regime starts tomorrow. Pray for me.
Ok, been a week and we gotta change it up. This is ana on hard mode this time kids, ive got a hella physical job that burns a fuckton of calories and thats awesome and all, but the fact is doing the job on an empty stomach is impossible.
Honestly this job is a problem but i can’t quit for another couple of years. So we gotta find a way to work with it.
And like it shouldnt be too hard, im getting very good exercise every day and im sure i can use that to my advantage somehow. But its going to take trial and error. We’re gonna pick a high restriction number and stick to it for a couple of weeks. See if we get some progress. Then we can knock another hundred calories off the limit, more if necessary, and see how it effects the state of the union.
Of course, all this would be way easier with access to a scale. Gotta measure progress somehow. But like I said, this is hard mode. Im a veteran, ive lost over 100lbs in the field. If anyone can do it, i can. Just gotta figure out how to make it work for me. Already downloaded my old bestie mfp, and we are ready to rock again.
For an active lifestyle, mfp spit out 1630. Obviously thats an ugly ugly number. But for reference, according to my steps app, I burn over 1000 calories a day just from walking. Often i walk while carrying heavy shit, and i also do a lot of repetitive lifting while not walking. Im a distributor for a beverage company, and usually i lift more than 100 12pks of soda just in one store (i do 3-5 stores a day). Not to mention how many 2L bottles i lift over my head, and those come in a case of 8 which i also lift regularly. I know it sounds like im exaggerating, but i swear to you this is what im working with.
Not every day is like this. Sometimes i get pleasant surprises which mean less work for me one day which is nice because i get to go home. But what if ive already eaten 1000cal to prep for a huge job that ends up not happening?
You know the answer, kid. Just go to the gym or something. Its right in the town i work in. So easy.
Thats it, i just seem to have a fuckton of excuses. Well no more. Lets try for 1600 cal per day, as a starting point. We gotta commit or we’ll become our worst nightmare: the fat girl who gets thin and then lets it all come back again.
So we arent counting this time. At least not yet. Room to explore that later. Right now we’re trying to go to bed hungry and underbid the people around me. New tactic. But i have to have some kind of ritual to keep my ass grounded. The scale is hidden, and for good reason. Im clearly fragile ✨
We have to measure progress the old fashioned way: how good do i look naked? How do my favorite jeans fit this week? I only pull them on for my day off once a week anyway, makes for a reasonably spaced bodycheck. The thighs and ass part have begun to feel tight.
Ive also got shorts and panties that will show me real measures of progress.
And between the kpop and gilmore girls, plus the irl examples i come in contact with daily…. Plenty of thinspø to go around bb
Today was ok, mostly tried to keep up with the bf so he doesnt catch on and get dragged down too
Breakfast: almond milk cappuccino, 1/2 pumpkin muffin
Lunch: protein fiber oatmeal (almond milk)
Dinner: 2 scrambled eggs, 2 slice american cheese single, 1 slice swiss, 1 piece multigrain toast w/ butter
Movie snack: popcorn and m&m’s, no idea how many
Going to bed hungry and the people have no idea. Roughly the numbers are probably fine. Oh well, whatever, nevermind. Tomorrow im more active, lets see how this goes
To the younger folks on here,
if you receive a random message from someone asking to be an "4na buddy" or "coach":
do not interact with them.
These are predators pretending to be your age and disordered. These are grown people trying to get you to endanger yourself and send pictures for their gain.
Abusers prey on those that are young and vulnerable, and are very likely an0rexia fetishists looking to hurt you.
Stay safe. ♡
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Back on my bullshit apparently, but don’t tell her (me) or it might spook her (me) and make her (me) think recovery is a good idea again lmao
I regret eating. I could have been skinny by now. Why do i eat. Why can't i just stop. I regret it so much. I wouldn't feel like this right now if i would have not eaten today but i did. and now my brain is telling me how useless,fat,disgusting and dumb i am. Because i wouldn't feel like this right now if. i. just. handn't. eaten.
honestly, idk why i eat? like...why???? when i eat, i feel so fucking gross. like i just feel so huge and disgusting. i dont even feel healthy when i eat lmao.
but when im fasting/starving, i feel so much better about myself. i feel good. i feel dizzy and sick, yes, but i love that feeling🥺
i wish food didnt exist. i eat it, but it doesnt make me feel good. its only here to make me fat and im honestly so over it🤩
i thought it was funny
don’t u hate it when u wake up and ur awake
Tfw you poop for the first time in like a week