I Have to Do This | Draco Malfoy x Reader
Requested (anon): Draco x reader. The reader is a muggle Born. When is auntie finds out she tortures the reader right in front of Draco and itâs killing Draco
A/N: Kind of took some artistic license with this request oops
Word Count: 5,015 (aka long af)
Warning(s): torture, mild violence, mentions of death
Disclaimer(s): Not my gif credit to owner
You walk nervously up the steps leading to Malfoy Manor, twiddling your shaking hands. Your stomach begins to feel like a bottomless pit and home to loads of butterflies. You stare at the large front doors and debate whether or not you should even go in. Draco, your long-term boyfriend, had invited you to his motherâs birthday ball so you could finally meet his parents.
However, you arenât particularly keen on meeting his parents. They must be lovely people based on the fact they raised Draco to be such a gentleman (to you at least), but their kindness is likely to be thrown out the window when dealing with you. After all, you are a muggle-born who somehow weaseled her way into becoming a Slytherin, something that had never happened until you arrived at Hogwarts. Besides, you already are aware of the fact that Dracoâs parents didnât like you, unless their opinion has miraculously changed. You remember in first year when Draco befriended you, for some odd reason, and he tried to hide a letter he received from his parents regarding you being sorted into Slytherin. However, you were too quick and grabbed it before he could get rid of it.
What a pity, a mudblood being sorted into Slytherin. Iâve never heard of such dreadful events. Iâm sure dear Salazar is rolling around in his grave for this one. I am disappointed you didnât write about this as soon as the ceremony was over, it is nearly halfway through your first term. Do not go near whoever this mudblood is, I will write to the school immediately. This must be a mistake, that blasted hat doesnât know anything. I will have this girl resorted, I cannot believe this has happened. If they are not resorted, though I will make sure they are, do not worry because as Iâve always told you these mudbloods will get what they deserve. Soon enough, soon enough.
You swallow hard at the memory of the stone cold words from the most unfatherly letter youâve ever read. You were never resorted, though for a long while you wish you had been. Bullied for days on end, crying yourself to sleep, it was not much fun to be attending Hogwarts. Though much of the bullying stopped once Draco befriended you, you still donât know why he did it. All you know is one day after running out of class crying Draco followed you and comforted you. After that day you became inseparable, and once you had Draco by your side no one bothered to mess with you.
However, you had the spine-tingling thought that all of that would change tonight. You donât have to be told to know that you will be the only one in the manor tonight who is not a pureblood. You also donât need to be told that everyone here tonight despises muggle-borns, with the exception of Draco.
You continue to stare at the large doors. Once thoughts start to pour in of what the people inside will do to you after realizing youâre indeed of muggle descent you feel yourself starting to back away. There is no way you can step foot in there if you want to go through the night unscathed. You'll just have to send an owl to Draco tomorrow saying you fell ill at the last minute or something like that.
Just then the large doors open and outsteps non other than Draco Malfoy.
âY/N!â He smiles, which immediately falls as he takes a closer look at you. âLove, you look paler than me," he raises an eyebrow. "Whatâs the matter?â
âI-I donât think I can go in,â the corners of your mouth droop and you give him a pleading look.
âBabe,â he starts, pulling you into a tight hug. âI know your a little nervous-â
âTerrified,â you interject, voice muffled by his chest.
âBut you truly have nothing to worry about,â he goes on. He backs only his head away so he can look at you. âNobodyâs going to hurt you or say anything bad,â he tucks a strand of your hair behind your ear. âIâll make sure of it and Iâll be here the whole night, right by your side.â
âFor sure,â he smiles down at you, before placing a gentle kiss on your lips. His lips linger on yours after and his pale eyes continue to stare down you. âYou look absolutely beautiful,â he grins, his lips still nearly touching yours. The feeling of his hot breath sends shivers up your spine.
He takes a step back holding both your hands in his and looks you up and down. A smirk tugs on his lips as he takes time to relish in your absolute beauty; both love and lust prominent in his eyes. Youâre wearing a simple, floor-length emerald gown made of silk, topped with a Queen Anne neckline. Itâs simple, elegant, classy, and enough to make Draco go mad.
You blush as a few moments go by of him looking you up and down, knowing he definitely likes what he sees. His eyes meet yours again and he smiles at you before taking your hand and twirling you around, a giggle escapes from your lips.
âBelle of the ball,â he smiles while pulling you back into his chest.
âYou know you donât look to shabby yourself,â you smile while straightening his bowtie.
All of your fears and nerves begin to slip away; being with Draco just makes everything go away. Nothing in the world around you even seems to exist when youâre with him. And when he smiles, a true smile derived from pure happiness, one that can only be seen when youâre around, itâs like nothing else matters in the world. All you could ever want is for him to keep that smile.
He wraps an arm around your waist and gives you a tight squeeze, âYou ready.â
You nod and he leads you inside the manor. You feel your mouth slightly part as you take foot in the enormous house; itâs absolutely stunning. Draco leads you down a long corridor before coming to a halt in front of another set of two grand doors.
He mentions something of the event taking place in the drawing room, âWe- uh -we have lots of,â he gulps midsentence, âMeetings and gatherings in here,â he mumbles. âOnly seemed fitting.â
âDo you parents know Iâm-â
âYes,â he cuts you off, already knowing what youâre going to ask. âI told them a few months ago. They werenât happy at first but after many, many discussions theyâve learned to tolerate our relationship. My mom seems more for it than my father however."Â
Stepping inside you see it is a grand room with a beautiful mantelpiece and sparkling chandelier. The room is crowded with witches and wizards in only the most elegant fashion gold can buy. They all seem to speak in an auspicious manner while drinking what must be the wizard equivalent of champagne.
The two of you barely step foot into the crowd before you see, you assume, Dracoâs parents weaving through the crowd to get to you. You take in a sharp breath at the realization the moment youâve been dreading since first year is seconds from taking place; coming face-to-face with Dracoâs family. Draco gives you another tight squeeze, looks to you, and smiles. Your nerves slightly diminish but are still quite prevalent.
"Draco!â The women, presumably his mother, calls out with her arms outstretched towards Draco. He drops his arm from your waist in order to hug her, âSo nice of you to finally join us.â
âOf course, happy birthday mom,â he says, kissing her on the cheek before moving back to your side. âFather,â Draco slightly and quickly bows his head in his fatherâs direction.
âDraco,â he nods, speaking with the same cold, unfatherly voice you always imagined when reading his letters.
âYou must be Y/N,â Dracoâs mother turns to you, she has a warm, welcoming smile on her face. âIâm Narcissa Malfoy, Dracoâs mother, as youâve probably concluded,â she smiles. âAnd this is my husband, of course Dracoâs father, Lucius Malfoy,â she says gesturing beside her.
âPleasure to meet the two of you,â you smile.
âThe pleasure is ours,â Lucius speaks up, shocking you. Approaching tonight you were most certain that he would not speak a word to you, yet alone a kind word. You even manage to catch the corners of his mouth turn upwards ever so slightly. âDraco speaks of you constantly.â
You look over and smile at the now blushing boy before you. âIs that so?â A smirk plays on your lips and Draco sheepishly nods.
You look back to his parents and see the resemblance in uncanny. From the pale eyes and silver-blond hair to their actual bone structure. You can also see both of Dracoâs major facial expressions on either of his parents. His warm smile he always shows towards you matches his motherâs; while his cold, brooding look that he shows towards most people can be seen on his father. However, his signature Malfoy smirk is much like the ones of both his mother and father.
âDraco, do you mind if I whisk Y/N away for a little talk, women to women,â his mother speaks up.
You look over to him and see heâs already looking at you. âOf course,â he says to his mother while keeping eye contact with you. The look in your eyes shows panic which he knows is from the fact that he promised to stay by your side. He moves to kiss your cheek so he can whisper something only audible to you, âDonât be nervous, Iâll be close by.â
You nod before moving to go off with his mother. She moves through the crowd with you close on her heel, she says quick hellos to the guests she passes. She grabs two glasses of the wizard equivalent of champagne and hands one to you.
âDonât tell your parents I let you drink,â she smirks.
âThis is really a lovely party,â you say before taking a sip of the drink, which only slightly burns in your throat. âAnd your home is absolutely spectacular,â you say. Holding you breath, you hope all the things you know to say to Muggle hostesses align with what should be said to witch hostesses.
âWhy thank you,â she smiles and you let out a subtle breath of relief. âI would also like to thank you for how happy you make my son,â she adds and you feel your cheeks go pink, unsure of what to say. âI canât believe it took Lucius and I so long to realize what was going on. I mean the skip in his step along with the permanent smile on his face and the constant sending of letters,â she chuckles at her past ignorance. âWe shouldâve known heâd found himself the right girl.â
You donât know what to say but from the looks of it there seems to be a bigger point to Narcissaâs speech. You know she didnât just bring you over here to speak of her sonâs new found happiness, you can see the gears turning and that she has a whole other topic to be discussed. You figure it is better not to interrupt her train of thought with the mentioning your new found happiness from Draco.
âThe right girl indeed,â she says after taking another sip of her drink. âI assume heâs treating you like the right girl as well.â
âOf course,â you reply. You suddenly see why sheâs pulled you aside, to check up on her sonâs behavior. âDraco treats me better than anyone else in my life,â you say, speaking nothing but the truth. Draco treats you as if you were royalty, he willingly drops everything in order to complete a task to make you happy. He speaks nothing but positivity of you both to you and to others. He constantly checks with you to make sure youâre living the best life you can have, knowing you deserve it. You can only try to treat him as well as he treats you.
âThatâs good, thatâs good,â she nods. âI know he has a tendency to lean towards more bullying behaviors, and Iâve told him I donât mind that as long as he is a gentleman to ladies such as yourself. Is he doing so?â
âYes, I find that, to me at least, he is the best gentleman girls can only dream of,â you explain. âAnd Iâve never seen him use his bullying tendencies towards a girl," you leave out the fact that he bullies that Granger girl, but sheâs friends with Potter so it may be more backlash.
"Thatâs what I like to hear,â she nods.Â
Just then, a women appears behind her. She has a mass of black, curly hair and many similar facial features. You assume the two must be sisters.
âThis must be the girl Dracoâs been speaking of nonstop,â the women speaks.
Narcissa tenses up as she notices the arrival of her sister, âThis is my sister-â
âLestrange. Bellatrix Lestrange.â She finishes the thought. "And you are?â She inquires with a raised eyebrow.
You swallow hard, something about her makes you uneasy. "Y/N Y/L/N.â
A silence fills the space of you three and a menacing smile appears on Bellatrixâs face.
âY/L/N, hmph? I donât seem to recall that family,â she speaks, an evil smirk taking over his lips. You automatically feel your stomach reforming into a pit, you know youâve sold yourself out. Just as you expected their are people in this room who will not tolerate a non-pureblood relationship and she is one of them. "Your family must not have gone to Hogwarts⌠Or any wizarding school⌠Theyâre muggles arenât they?â The look on her face is enough to chill you to the core and send shivers up your spine. You donât respond, the wide-eyed look of terror is enough to tell her the answer.
"Why donât I take you back to Draco,â Narcissa quickly says to you and before even giving you time to respond she is dragging you by the arm through the maze of people. âStay away from Bellatrix,â she says to you in a low voice. âLucius and I both care deeply for our sonâs happiness and we see it clearly that you are the source of it. My sister on the other hand will not see that, stay clear of her.â
When you make it back to Draco he meets you with a warm smile and quick kiss. Youâre still a little shaken up from your encounter with Bellatrix but do your best to suppress the straight terror she inflicted upon you. Draco will notice and ask whatâs wrong if you keep your scared demeanor and the last thing you want is to explain to him the encounter with his aunt. You donât want to burden him with the thought of her possibly wanting to harm you in any way as Narcissa alluded too.
Hours slowly tick away, you never leave Dracoâs side. A few people have tried to pull him away to discuss business matters with him but he refuses to leave your side and the others refuse to speak of such matters in front of you for some odd reason. What business matters could many aging wizards need to discuss with a sixteen year-old boy in complete private?
Itâs not until guest start trickling out the doors that someone manages to tear Draco away from you. He looks back to you as heâs being dragged away by an old wizard who begins talking at a rapid speed. He gives you a worried look and you simply shrug, showing you are no longer as paranoid. Youâve made it almost the whole night and only one person had something bad to say to you. What could go wrong in the next minute or so.
Everything. Everything could go wrong in the next minute or so.
When Draco disappears from sight a cold hand firmly grips your upper arm. Before you can even look at the mysterious person you feel the world around you beginning to twist and turn, you feel your body contracting; suddenly youâre in a whole new location. Youâve apparated for the first time, you quickly become nauseous from the quick, unexpected movement. You grip a hand over mouth and clutch another to your stomach, praying you arenât about to vomit.
âCan the poor, unfit mudblood not handle apparition,â you hear the same venomous tone from before speak up. Itâs Bellatrix. âI always knew your kind made awful witches and wizards.â
You look around at you surroundings, concluding youâre still the manor just a different room. Though, how far you maybe in relation to where everyone else is frightens you. The evil smirk plastered on Bellatrixâs face as she circles you like a shark makes you even more nauseous than you already are. What is she going to do? Is there anyone close enough to come save you if needed?
You swallow hard, both in fear and to suppress anything that might be making its return, âWhat do you want from me?â
She stops in front of you and stares for a second. Seeming dumbstruck at the fact that you couldnât possibly understand what she has in store for you. âIs it not obvious?â She smirks before taking out her wand and pointing it straight at you. âCrucio!â She bellows and a flash of red strikes you in the chest, knocking you to your knees.
A surge of pain emits throughout youâre entire body, pain like youâve never felt before. You feel as though your internal organs are on fire, white-hot knives are penetrating every inch of your body, someone is ripping you limb from limb, you wish for it to stop. Bellatrix spends the next few seconds just staring at you with that menacing look of hers. The seconds feel like eternity to you.
Youâre screaming in pain, wailing on your knees, begging her to lift the curse off from you. You wish anything to cause it to stop, you even wish for death to swarm over and take all the pain away. Bellatrix slowly steps closer to you, laughing maniacally.
âYou want the pain to stop?â She questions as tears begin streaming down your face. You nod, gasping in pain, knowing she wonât lift it. âThatâs too bad, I donât like to end things that give me pleasure,â she lifts your chin with her cold index finger. âAnd I love seeing your kind suffer.â You let out another scream and she slams a hand over your mouth before slowly raising a finger to her lips. âShhhh we wouldnât want anyone to come in and steal my fun,â she smirks. âNot that anyone would save you,â she pretend pouts, by now your gasping for air to fill what feels like, but isnât, a collapsed lung. âNo one in their right mind would save you,â she speaks. âThough, as it seems my dear nephew isnât in his right mind; for if he was he wouldnât even look at you, yet alone bring you into this house.â She drops her hand from your mouth, hoping to hear you plead for mercy.
âPlease, stop!â You cry out, body shaking. âI canât take it!â
âYou want me to lift the curse?â She inquiries and you nod vigorously, only causing you more pain. âWill you do anything for me to lift the curse?â
âYes,â you croak out.
âFineâŚÂ All you must do for me to lift the curse,â she grabs your shaking face and holds it to look you straight in the eye. âIs to keep your mudblood disgrace of a witch away from my nephew.â
âI donât think so,â someone says from the doorway, not just anyone, but Draco. He has his wand raised and aimed at Bellatrix. Even with all the pain inflicted upon you manage to sigh in relief at the sight of him. "Let her go,â he sneers.
Bellatrix snaps her head at him, grinning as though this is going just as she planned. "As you wish,â and with a wave of her wand all the pain vanishes and you let out a gasp.
Draco lowers his wand and sprints to you, quickly kneeling beside you. You fall into his arms just as he go to wrap them around you. Youâre still shaking, loud sobs escape your lips. For a moment youâre so glad itâs over⌠But why is it? Bellatrix doesnât seem like the kind of witch to back down when a sixteen year-old is pointing a wand at her. What else does she have in store? It must be much worse; the thought sickens you.
âI wouldnât get too comfy,â she chuckles, proving your thoughts true. This time she points her wand at Draco, âImperio!â
âNo!â You shout but itâs no use, you can already see Dracoâs eyes glossing over and any sign in his eyes of himself and his thoughts are gone. "Why are you doing this?â You shout.
"Because,â she moves over to you. âIf my doing isnât enough to send you away maybe his will be,â her evil smirk never fades.
âIt wonât be his doing it will be yours,â you spit.
She presses her wand against your neck, âWatch your tone, mudblood.â You look back over to Draco, sitting there lifeless. âThe image of his actions embedded in your mind will be enough for you to leave. And donât even think of running off.â She continues to press her wand against your neck and you watch her pull out a knife from her pocket.
âWhat are you going to do?â You gulp nervously.
âItâs not what Iâm going to do,â she grins, then places the knife in Dracoâs hand. âItâs what heâs going to do.â
A moment of silence which you know is filled with Bellatrix sending orders into Dracoâs mind. Looking blankly at you with his still lifeless eyes he grabs your arm.
âDraco donât,â you grab his wrist of the hand which holds the knife, now pointing towards your arm. He looks at you, still no life in his eyes. âDraco fight it, donât do what sheâs saying,â you desperately plead. âDraco youâre strong enough,â at those words you see a flash of life in his eyes, but it disappears as quickly as it appeared. Then, he begins to press the knife into your arm.
You scream out in pain, though physically it doesnât seem so bad due to fact you were just under the Cruciatus Curse. Emotionally and mentally, however, is a pain like never before. Even though you know itâs not his doing seeing the boy you love go to cause you any pain hurts worse than any curse to be thrown your way. When you scream out you see Draco flinch, pause, shake his head and continue to drag the knife across your skin. You feel a sense of hope, this shows he is still in there he just needs to be brought up to the surface. You look at your arm and see an M and a UÂ carved into it, dripping with blood. You know what Bellatrix is making him write.
âDraco stop,â you cry. âYou can fight the curse, I know it,â you scream out to him, more life filling his eyes with each word. Bellatrix notices this and presses her wand harder into your neck.
âSpeak one more word and it will be your last,â she threatens, her cold voice is enough to make you fall to silent sobs.
Draco drops the knife to the floor, hands shaking and a bit of life in his eyes. You look down at the now completed wound and wince. The word mudblood will now be forever scarred on your arm.
âIâm so sorry,â you hear the faintest whisper come from Draco. You look up to him, tears filling your eyes at the sound of his broken voice. His face is pinched, as though trying not to cry, as he stares at the mark heâs left on your arm. Blood is starting to drip onto the white, marble floor.
âDraco,â he looks at you and you see more of the life restored in his eyes drain away, only a small bit is left.
Bellatrix angrily stands up and marches to the other side of the room, straight across from you. Draco follows her and a pit forms in your stomach, you know something bad is about to happen. You can tell Bellatrix sends him another order, for he raises his wand and points it at you. His arm is shaking and he pinches his eyes nearly closed to hold back tears, even so you can she the small amount of himself in his eyes.
âSay the words Draco,â Bellatrix spits. âEnd her already.â
âDraco donât do this,â you wail at the realization of what sheâs trying to make him do. âYou can fight it,â you scream.
âI canât,â he quietly says, you can barely hear him from where you are. âDonât you understand?" His voice breaks. "I have to do this.â
Your heart breaks at that. âNo, you donât!â You cry out.
âYes, I do,â he shakes his head. âI love you but Iâm not strong enough.â
âYou are strong enough, I know you are, I believe in you,â you shout, voice ringing through the room.
Thereâs a silence. Itâs followed by Draco unpinching his eyes and slowly lowering his wand. âYou believe in me,â he whispers, all life restored in his eyes. The two of you let out relieved sighs and he runs over to you. Falling before you he quickly engulfs you in his arms.
âIâm so sorry,â he cries on your shoulder. You both sit there, in each others arms, shaking and sobbing violently, the blood from your arm soaking into his clothes.
âThis is ridicules,â Bellatrix snaps while gripping Dracoâs shoulder and flinging him to the side. She raises her wand at you, âAvada-Â â
âExpelliarmus!â You hear someone yell from the doorway. Bellatrixâs wand is flung from her hands before she can complete the curse. You turn to see, to your surprise, Lucius standing in the doorway being the one to come to your rescue. âThere will be no murder on my wifeâs birthday,â he speaks in his stone cold voice. He looks to you, bleeding on the floor, and gives an apologetic look. âDraco why donât you take Y/N to your room to get washed up, while I have a word with your aunt,â his ever emotionless voice managing to show signs of anger.
Draco scrambles over to you, he helps you to your feet and wraps an arm around your waist before helping you walk out of the room. You two stay silent on the long walk to his room. Once inside he takes you into the bathroom, picks you up and has you sit on the counter. He silently pulls out a towel, dampens it, and begins dabbing your still bleeding wound.
âIâm so sorry,â he croaks out, looking up at you.
You open your mouth to speak, but no words come out. When looking at him you can only see tonightâs events, him dragging a knife across your skin, him preparing to kill you, and him insisting he has to do so. It makes you sick to your stomach and you just want to run away and never look at him again. You swallow hard, this is what she wanted.
He wraps your arm up in bandages and goes back into his room to find some clothes of his to lend to you for the night. He hands you a pair of silk, green pajama pants and button shirt and tells you heâll send an owl to your parents as to why you wonât be returning tonight. You nod in thanks, still unable to speak to him. When he leaves the room you change and sit quietly on the edge of his bed, looking thoughtfully at your hands.
You donât look up at him when he renters the room, or when he goes to sit beside you after changing. However, you do flinch when he grasps your hand in his. He lets out a pained sigh.
âY/N Iâm so sorry,â he says. âI didnât want to do any of that, I was under her control,â he explains. âYou understand that, donât you? You understand that I would never want to hurt you, right? I love you too much to ever hurt you, donât you know that?â
You look up at his, slightly frowning, pain evident in your eyes. âYou were going to kill me,â you quietly say. âIâll never be able to forgive nor forget that,â you look back at your hands, avoiding looking at him. He looks almost as pained as you. âI guess Bellatrix got what she wanted,â you sigh. âI canât even look at you without seeing you getting ready to-â you trail off, not wanting to end your obvious thought.
âWhat happens now then?â his voice breaks.
You look up at him tears filling in your eyes, his doing the same. âTomorrow morning I go home,â you start, âand weâre over.â
âNo,â he shakes his head, grabbing one of your hands in both of his. âYou canât leave me, not now, not now,â tears fall from his eyes. âYou said you believe in me,â he chokes out. âYouâre the only person that does, and I need you more than ever right now.â
âDraco, I may not know whatâs been going on recently but Iâve noticed your different,â you explain. âAnd none of that made me put our relationship in question but this does.â
âPlease,â he whispers.
âI canât be with you after tonight,â you shake your head. âEvery time I look at you Iâll see you preparing to kill me.â
âYou canât leave me,â he cries.
âDonât you understand,â you spit his own words back at him. âI have to do this.â