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I’M BACK!

Wow. I am lost for words.

Frankly, it wasn’t my intention to recover this account. I thought my friend (who is my crush actually) asked if I have a TUMBLER. YES. WITH AN E. Since I know her (yes I’m bi lol) as one of the poetic persons in this planet, “maybe she mistyped the word. Finally I can show her how poetic I can be just like her!” But fuck no. She was really asking if I have a tumbler. Huhu

Anyway, i’ll probably be visiting my tumblr more often. I want to start to write again. My recall is already rusty.

A curse.

I am furious right now. Why? Because I cannot get away from this crazy world. Even if I'm home, it still feels foreign and different. I love music. I mean who doesn't, right? But I more than love music. It is kind of my life actually. Ever since I was a kid, I played guitar and I am a bit of a fast-learner when it comes to other instruments. The ridiculous thing about me is that I can't sing. Well I know how to do 2nd voice. Still, I suck at singing. But I know how to harmonize and listen to some tune (immediately get the tune on my guitar) which I think is amazing because some people could not do that. I may sound pretentious but I am amused by it too. What do you use when you listen to some music? Yes. Ears. We all use our ears for communication. We use it to connect ourselves to the songs we choose on our playlist. We use it in eavesdropping. Basically, it is very useful. But don't you think that it is kind of frustrating for a musically-inclined person not to hear anything? I have a damaged right ear. I can barely hear anything. The doctor said it's profoundly damaged. Don't worry. My ears are clean. It's the nerve that's damaged. Somewhere inside my eardrum. I don't know if I got this ever since I was born but I knew I had this since I was a kid. I fucking hate it. Yeah using earphones would make it worse but god I hate the world (just some of it). I don't like noise. I couldn't even handle a small ticking sound. Music relaxes me from those stressful days. It surely keeps my sanity. The reason why I made this post is because of my parents. I love them. I really do. But they do not realize how much I love music. I am planning to have a studio. This way I can enjoy the notion "do what you love". I always put earphones every night because I daydream. I want to get away from this crazy world. Away from other people's chastising, my parent's lectures and other annoying sounds. If they see me wearing any earphones, they would take it from me. They can destroy it infront of you if they want to. "It's for your own good." No. Eff no. I always cry when they do that. So what will happen to my dream studio? Would they still take my earphones when I produce? My parents became my pet peeves. I just hate this. When you already know what you want in the future but your parents are stopping you because you have a damaged ear. I can hear well on the other ear so please leave me alone. I have this gift. But I also have a curse. A curse that could change my expected future.

yourbigsisnissi

i love having conversations about race in class

because it lets me know which white people to stay the fuck away from

You can't just impose labels on a person. Lol

metrogoon

If you’d rather go to a club than a museum, you deserve to be unhappy.

wontonsoupinthemorning-deactiva

museum? what the fuck is in a museum? they got bitches in museums? alive bitches?

g-ayyee

Date someone who will

wake up at 4am just to listen to you talk about a bad dream you just had

tease you for little things just to apologize six million times when you act upset

be nervous to kiss you for the first time because they don’t want to fuck up

touch your butt

offer to buy you a book that you absolutely love, and insist when you tell them no

watch your favorite movies with you even if they don’t like them

let you give them too much information and just listen to you talk for hours

stay up until you fall asleep just because they want to talk to you

share your love for dogs

talk about animals with you for hours

make you laugh even if it’s 2:30am and you’re laying in bed crying because you sat there and over thought

reassure you that they care and will always be there for you

tell you that they think you’re cute when you get angry at a video game

laugh with you

claim to not know what you’re talking about just so they can watch as you struggle to explain it just to tell you they already know and just think you’re adorable

Most importantly, date someone who makes you happy.

yoursummerdreamz

Hoping...

This 2016, I am hoping for something else. Maybe someone. Someone different.

I need a JOB

#nolabel

Dancin'.

work dat booty

#workinprogress #booty #workout

#dumbboys #cat

yoursummerdreamz

wingbeifong-deactivated20160204

EVERY SINGLE EASTER MY MOTHER HIDES A THREE POUND EASTER EGG IN THE HOUSE AND SETS MY BROTHERS AND I OFF TO GO FIND IT AND GUESS WHO GOT IT FOR THE FOURTH CONSECUTIVE YEAR IN A ROW

NOT THOSE LIL BITCHES

bara-tits

this is the face of a true winner

marmastry

My dog asking me to pet him….

I have been listening to her songs these past few days and I freakin envy her voice. She's just 18. I can't stop listening to Lush Life and Never Forget You. Probably influenced by the Queen B Beyonce. I want more of her this 2016 😆

#zara larsson #sweden #music