on a certain blindness in human beings

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pigeon huddling in a windowsill

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still from A Condition of Perfect Balance (2009) by Kim Eckhart

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she said something to the effect of i feel such and such a way and shortly thereafter we became something less discernibly human. 

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you must change your life

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there is no cure for psychosomatic cases, my doctor tells me. reluctantly? in any event i am not well and sources of direct light, especially windows, are often too bright to look at. everything else, of course, is often too dark. i believe it may be a tumor. i think i feel a lump near my temple. my doctor advises i rest.

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The only recovered frame from Desire (1921) directed by F.W. Murnau and starring Conrad Veidt, destroyed in a warehouse fire, and believed to have been found among the belongings of cinematographer and frequent Murnau collaborator Carl Hoffmann. 

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my mother told me as a boy (repeatingly) 'ever to confess you're bored means you have no inner resources.' i conclude now i have no inner resources, because i am heavy bored.

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Of course, this made it difficult to discern certain details and colors. Faces, for instance. Green. 

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for a period of time i found myself walking exclusively at sunset

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will you just hold on for like one more second please

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to be honest i don't really feel all that different

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anticipation 

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bird in flight

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a bride and trees everywhere

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life inside a bucket