Confessions Of A Cynical Optimist

I am a college student living in New England finding herself in and out of the situations that make up our everyday lives. This is my journey... P.S I always follow back ;)

[animalsnaps]

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Stay true to you...

I recently changed my major back to school counseling and the only thing I continue to get as feedback is why? Some are actually curious as to what brought me to the decision and some are just trying to get me to justify what they feel to be a mistake. The truth is being in a school with all its drawbacks makes me happy. Counseling kids who I know need me makes me happy. There are so many different pieces of my life that I love that I find I need to justify. Why do I work out? Why am I trying to be a vegetarian? Why do I live where I do? Why am I friends with certain people? The answer is because I want to. These are the things that make me happy and the things I feel make me who I am. This should be true for everyone. So long as what you love does not hurt anyone... do what makes you happy. Do it with no regrets. Live your life. 

[flywithmeyo]

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We share something so common still so rare, and I'm in awe. Never been here before so high, we're still climbing even here inside these walls. Breaking each other's hearts and we don't care cause we're so... in too deep, can't think about giving it up. But I never knew love would feel like a heart attack It's killing me, swear I never cried so much. Cause I never knew love would hurt this fuckin' bad the worst pain that I ever had.

Trey Songz

[cliffedgeoftheworld]

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It all comes down to this...I miss your morning kiss. I won’t lie, I’m feeling it. You don’t know, I’m missing it. I’m so dumb, I must admit. It’s too much to hold it in. I can’t say no more than this, I just hope your heart hear me now. Gotta let you know how I’m feeling. You own my heart... Don’t turn away, pay attention. I’m pouring out my heart oh, boy I’m not living life. I’m not living right. I’m not living if you’re not by my side

Nicki Minaj Right by my side

[killingheels]

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Was it all a lie...

Or did I lie to myself. Did I convince myself that it would be okay? To not have everything I needed out of this life. To not feel complete. Not be something I have dreamed of since I was three. How did I let it get this far. How did I let myself fall in love with someone who doesn't want everything I want... Maybe not even a portion of what I want... Of what I need. Everything has changed. Everything is ruined. I can't imagine my life without you. But I can't see myself without marriage, a child, a family, love. A life built on family and connection not things not money not prestige. It will never be the same again.

[lindaxcruz]

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Your vows of silence fall all over The look in your eyes makes me crazy I feel the darkness break upon her I'll take you over if you let me (You did this) Tidal waves they rip right through me Tears from eyes worn cold and sad Pick me up now, I need you so bad.

Blink 182

[bitter--sweet--thoughts]

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Everything has changed

And I do not have any clue how to make my heart feel as though I am back where I was a week ago. I feel like everything I ever wanted just got ripped from my hands. Every dream. Every desire. Pulled. Where am I now? What am I supposed to feel... now that nothing is the same?

[caughtinyourhipster]

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When we first met I never felt something so strong. You were like my lover and my best friend all wrapped into one with a ribbon on it. And all of a sudden you went and left. I didn't know how to follow. It's like a shock that spun me around and now my heart's dead. I feel so empty and hollow And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to you. Don't even recognize the ways you hurt me do you? It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back. And you're the one to blame.

Rihanna

[cuntrust-deactivated20251230]

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What would I do without your smart mouth? Drawing me in, and you kicking me out You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down What's going on in that beautiful mind I'm on your magical mystery ride And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright My head's under water But I'm breathing fine You're crazy and I'm out of my mind 'Cause all of me Loves all of you Love your curves and all your edges All your perfect imperfections Give your all to me I'll give my all to you You're my end and my beginning Even when I lose I'm winning 'Cause I give you all of me And you give me all of you

John Legend

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