System 17#

A DID system, we get along sometimes and our default is insane. Current system members: *Ryo - Default/Gatekeeper *Alice - Persecuted/Slider *Dakota and Carolina (Collette) - Littles *Jaidan - Host *Teegi - Anxiety Expressor *Olive - Fictive/Maternal Figure *Prince - Sexual Expressor *Kenta - Protector *Alex - Self Destruct

[did-system-17]

Just In Case

I get the unbearably strong feeling my boyfriend is cheating on me. I've brought it up with him and he swears he isn't byt the feeling still won't go. I feel so guilty, he tries so hard to reassure me he wouldn't ever do something like that. But lately, something feels off. I'm probably just over thinking or making it up in my head but it feels like maybe, like when he told me not to be surprised if a girl sends incriminating screenshots to me because she's good at faking them, that maybe it's because they're not fake, he's just covering his bases for when he's caught. I mean, saying something like that is pretty weird. I don't have any reason not to trust him and I don't want to violate his privacy but it feels like something is very wrong.

To make matter worse, I bet That Girl is absolutely loving it. Crash and burn, exactly like you wanted.

*Teegi

[did-system-17]

Inconvenience

I think I'm going to lose mummy again. My chest hurts a lot, it feels like nothing that happens is good. I'm sorry I'm really useless but I promise I'll try harder. I can do it if I try harder. Mummy wants my birdies then mummy can have them, I'll make them love mummy, mummy can even have her own birdies too. I'll be better. I'll get better. Mummy can have me too I won't say no I promise, I'll smile really big and say I love you a whole lot.l I'll be good I promise. I won't ask for anything, I'll do all my chores, I'll do whatever mummy says, I won't tell anyone.

I don't wanna be alone again.

*Jaid

[did-system-17]

Boss Battle

I'm so tired, I've had enough. I've been in and out of hospitals and appointments all day. I just wanna collapse in bed. The novelty has worn off for people now, no point in having us around you if can't collect the set. Ran into Yoru today and was reminded of that.

*Ryo

[did-system-17]

Blunt Force Trauma

When are you going to learn?

You’re less than.

Always have been.

Always will be.

Like the rest of us.

[did-system-17]

Hey asshole. Knock the edgy posts off and sign your name, you're causing issues and you know how I feel about that.

*Ryo

[did-system-17]

Blunt Force Trauma

When are you going to learn?

You're less than.

Always have been.

Always will be.

Like the rest of us.

[drriffly]

coercion is not consent people! it is not your job to convince someone to want to have sex with you! you are grown! this isn’t about reading minds! does “i don’t think so” sound like a yes to you? does “i don’t really want to right now” sound like a yes to you? does “this is only the first date” sound like a yes to you? it’s no longer about “no means no” people. the absence of a clear, positive yes and continuous and active consent means that you do not have consent to move forward. you are not reading minds, you are having the basic human decency to respect someone who doesn’t want to do something. stop feigning ignorance. fuck off.

[bevsi]

[pandronica]

[did-system-17]

Words Hurt

I have no idea what I'm going to do.

I have to make a choice but I hate both results. I feel so trapped and sick. I don't want to lose him but I have no other family. I can't just cut them out so easily. It feels so unfair, I swear I try so hard to make you happy. I'm your good girl right? I did good right? I just want everyone happy. I'm not happy anymore.

*Teegi

[culturenlifestyle]

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[strawberryhorrorshow]

Being abused made me such a “good kid.”

I was

Always polite

Never acted without permission

Never spoke out of turn

Always did what I was told

And it’s shitty that I was considered mature and praised for those things, and all of those characteristics have translated into me being an immature, “bad adult.”

Now I

Have difficulty making a keeping friends

Can’t act without permission/am dependent on others for direction

Am terrible at communicating

Have no agency/personal compass

It’s a really difficult thing for people who were abused as children to grapple with. What made us good children make us bad adults.

[clarknokent]

This is Important

[alternativeblkgal]

THIS IS MY LIFE WOW

[cyberpunknoire]

Conversely, while 90% of the time we’re kind and polite and accommodating, we get super fucking angry and have major outbursts when we feel threatened Which is not a good look either

[kanyeshrugtae]

Wow. This is an eye-opener

[ayemuhhfucka]

wow i’m really fucked up

[sin-for-the-win]

Oh god it’s uncanny

[did-system-17]

Internal Hemorrhage

I just want to go home.

*Alex

[zelldas]

no other person on this planet was made for you, they were made for themselves. love is all about choices. no one is going to be perfect for you, and i think we need to stop raising everyone on the belief that someone out there, just one other person in the whole world, was “made for you” because it isn’t true. no one is made for you, besides you. other people belong to themselves. if you want to make it work with someone, it’s about hard work, understanding, compassion, communication, and choice

[did-system-17]

Pin Prick

I want to sleep but I can't. My children have been screaming for an hour now but I don't have the heart to pick them up. I don't want to see them. Not now. My poor boy, I've left him to be the man of the house alone again. Mummy's sorry. I just want to sleep. I wish they were never born.

*Olive

[did-system-17]

Specter

I'm feeling panicky but I'm going to keep myself calm. I can't freak out over every little thing for now reason. I just need a moment to relax.

*Teegi

[mintchoc-art-archived]

have some punks

[naniya27]

I drew this last Friday, but left it in my work computer. :D