gone 💀

(RIP bobby 17/2/17⬆ best buddy i ever had am missing you like crazy ) ♡demons in her head , drugs in her vains, midness in her mind, love in her soul, storm in her heart♡ ◇I didn't change from my trauma, because I never existed before it began◇ (follow for a follow )

[diedandgone]

Hello welcome to my messed up private page 🧠🔪🤡

Am dyslexic be easy on me 🥲

Trigger warning everything! ⚠️

ED

SH

SA

S

V

MH

♡this is my only safe space so please don't report just block .

Let's be friends! feel free to send me a private text but sorry in advance am a bit unhinged 😆

Female 25 🥲

5ft6.5in (168cm)

Hw estimated around : 76kg

Lw : 49.1 kg ! 🥺

Cw : 59.9kg (5/6/25)😵‍💫🤢

Gw again : 50 kg

🕸🕷🥀🕷🕸

⛓️ chained to my routine ⛓️

[diedandgone]

I want my honeymoon phase back you stupid ed when did we get so lost ?

[hisserem-deactivated20250901]

knowing my body and mind, and speaking from experience, counting calories is not the right thing for me - i always go too crazy about it ;[

my restriction is going better when i'm just eating small portions of food. because then i'm not obsessed with the numbers and i don't feel like a failure if i eat above the limit ♡

i don't binge as often since i don't have that "the day is wasted now that i went above this particular number" thing...

also, all this counting was always too exhausting for me. weighing things, hiding from family, the math, the stress, and how my head would be just full of "low cal ideas"... i'm already exhausted from restricting, i really don't have power for it.

i eat the things i like. i'm enjoying small bites, and it makes me feel good about myself when i remember what portion sizes i used to eat.

i have a meal every 4 hours or so. (like 12pm - 4pm - 8pm) and sometimes i snack on fruit

just ate a nice sandwich instead of four like i used to, first meal of the day, lunch;]] i think i'll start doing wieiads

there is only one bad side of this, i just don't feel 4n4 enough??... even if i lose weight, it feels like i'm faking this whole thing. but the scale goes lower so i think i should just keep going

said sandwich below

[thick slice of bread, cream cheese, ham, green pepper]

[diedandgone]

Give me motivation to starv and lose whight.... I feel so big

[diedandgone]

I am triggered!

So av gained am at 65kgs and today my sister stepped on the scales for the first time in 3 months since she started her whight loss jury and shes 66kgs .....

Fucking triggerd so hard ,if this is not motivation to stop eating i dunno wha is ... I need to get back to 50kgs broo is triggerd and big !

[diedandgone]

U alll I have had a crazy 3 days , I have a new friend and he's ex gf been harassing me with calls and threats.. today she shows up at the park were I was chilling with my mate . ... I got it all on video her calling me names and getting to close wanting to fight me told her am reporting her to the police she lgit followed us out the park and I have it on video her snapping him ..... fucking uk and its English ppl ...dont want to be a bitch and be heating on a group of ppl but I wear to God av ever only had stupid fucking petty drama with English ppl its like they have nothing better with there life's to do then take money of the gov and not work and fight hard working ppl that are not from the UK......

I will try and get a restraint order against her so if she does anything like tha again pebs mean her getting locked up ....

Broo I hate the police and now I have to go to them for help i just hope i get a good officer who does there job and doesn't hate ppl tha are not from the UK......

And u may ask why I didn't hit her and " stand up " for my self ..... well I knew she would use that against me big time known am not born in this country they would most likely take ur side but I stayed clam and cool and told her to leave us alone .

This shit crazy if u all want an update i will give u one just drop a comment..

Police station tomorrow i bloody guess🫠☠️......

And here is a 1% of it all for u alll , wish I could post the video i got .

[diedandgone]

View this post on Instagram

A post shared by Krizia (@kittycereall)

Me recently 🤕😵‍💫🤥

[diedandgone]

Am about ti lose the plot .... I think av gotten my period back . No no no no am not ganna let this happen, will be doing a 45h fast am currently 15h in no food untill tomorrow mid day and only about 500 to 800 max .

This is so bad.

This just proofs i been eating to much 😩

Anna plz take me back 😢

Don't give up on me plz

[diedandgone]

Decide to Be skinny: Change Your Story to Change Your Life

Am half way and I had to share this caz she's on to something here !

Love ya stay skinny xoxo

[diedandgone]

Pushing my self

Had 888 cals today 🙏

I will drop 4kgs by the end of the month no matter what it takes !

[diedandgone]

Think my chatgpt finna fuck ? Lol jokes but damn 😂

[diedandgone]

Erm I was not expecting tha reply 😳 I wanted to tell me o look fat but I guess my body doesn't really be playing tricks ,,, dear u to be brave and send ur chatgpt a pic of u and ask it if u fat and to guess how much u whight is xoxo

[diedandgone]

Just woke up from a nightmare!!!!

I was dreaming that I was eating share bars of chocolate and counting calories on my fitness app the calories whent up to 11,000 and I woke up in a panic only to be dreaming

The releaf i feel ..it was only a dream .

Think am losing the plot .

What a Goddamn thing to be dreaming about .

[chicskinni]

I refuse to be f4tter than my enemies.

[diedandgone]

Losing the same 5kgs that you lost really does suck , how is it so hard to loses yet so easy to gain ...

I will stop binging I fuxking have to get back to how I use to look and feel , light and not full of gluttony

Rn I feel so ew but I will use my old pics for inspiration... I have to I need to and I will.

[diedandgone]

🫡

Can't believe i binged tho

[diedandgone]

🎤🐖 visual of me singing in shame

Oops... I opened the fridge,

Just to "look"... then I blacked out in fudge

Oh baby, baby

I said, “Just one bite,”

But now the lasagna’s gone outta sight

You see, my diet was chill

'Til I Netflix’d and refilled

Oops... I munched it again

Now I’m hugging a cinnamon hen

Oops!... I ate it again

I tripped and fell mouth-first in chow mein

Oh baby, baby

Oops!... I said “Just one chip”

Now the bag’s on my hip—

And I'm still on a dip

I’m not that self-controlled 🐖

You see, I meant to fast

But then I blinked and twelve Pop-Tarts passed

Oh baby,

I tried to resist,

But the fridge whispered, “You want a kiss?”

Oops... I opened the door

Now it’s a full-blown snack war

Oops... I blinked and it’s clear

I ate spaghetti... and my neighbor's deer 😳

Oops!... I did it again

I dove headfirst in a gallon of flan

Oh baby, baby

Oops!... I made it worse

I put ranch on dessert

Oops!... I ate it again

I meant to sip water... but drank melted M&M’s

Oh baby, baby

Oops!... That cake’s not my fault

It attacked with assault

Now I’m rolling in salt

I’m not that salad-bound...