Thank you so much for mentioning Rose's grief over losing the Doctor. Yes, Tentoo is the Doctor, too. No arguments from me. But still, sometimes it feels that the pieces of the puzzle slotted too fast and too perfect, and I'm always confused, and I think that Rose was confused, too, just as Tentoo was. So, thank you a lot for mentioning that stage of their lives! Tentoo had a lot of things to grieve about, too, and they needed to have some time to process the events of the days before the final time at Bad Wolf Bay.
I think Rose was forced into a decision that she didn't have enough time to think through fully? Like, yes, logically, this makes sense, but Rose has always followed her heart, and she wasn't given the chance to let her heart work out how she felt about the whole situation. She made a rash decision, I think based almost entirely on hearing the love of her life (ish) tell her he loved her over the love of her life telling her he never fully could. Once Ten disappears, she's left with that decision now, and, actually, she realises she's now stuck.
That's not to say she doesn't love Tentoo!! But the concept of clones is extremely difficult to get your head around, and I can't imagine what it would feel like to be in love and end up with their clone. Is it him?? Well, yes, same DNA and memories. But physically... the love of her life is travelling alone in another universe.
Rose also didn't want to settle down. She never wanted to, and I think that's brushed over, too. Rose came back for the Doctor because she loved travelling with him and seeing the universe, so to now be trapped again without being able to travel around time and space must have been so hard for her. She'd been working for years to get back to where she once was, and now she's right back to square one.
Tentoo absolutely confuses her for a while. She won't be able to look at him without feeling the most painful concoction of feelings. Is she happy? Sad? She's looking at a man who looks identical to the man she loves except he's human, and that makes him... not the man she loves. The hand she held, the thousands of hugs were all physically shared with another man. But yet... he looks like this one. She must be so confused!
And then there's Tentoo. And I absolutely believe he doesn't let on to how much he's struggling. Rose knows, of course she does, and it makes it so much worse because she knows he's just lost everything. But he's not about to pile all of his problems on her, he's going to take everything on himself ā he's lost the TARDIS, his home, Donna and all of his friends. He'll never see Martha again, he'll never see everyone he knows and has loved ever again. All those alien planets, all those bonds he had formed over the near-thousand years, gone. He's just as alone as she is... only more, because he hasn't had a few years in this universe building his own life. He's walking into Rose's life now, all her friends, her life she's had over the past few years and he's even more alien than ever.
He can't tell Rose that, and she can't tell him how conflicted she is to see his face. Those first few months would have been so hard for the two of them. Their kisses would have been awkward, their hugs not quite right, hesitating before taking the other's hand and it feels a bit weird because it's not his hand and he feels weird because he knows she's thinking that.
But what do they do? Take time apart? Become their own people so that they can love each other? Because both of them have changed. Rose isn't the Rose the Doctor knew, and the Doctor isn't the Doctor Rose knew. They'll be learning to love each other all over again, only this time, they have the pressure of knowing this was forced on both of them.
They'll get there in the end, and they'll both get there quite soon. After all, it's his eyes that look back at her when he asks about her day, and it's her nose scrunching when she disagrees with something. They love each other, always will and always have, it just takes a bit of time.
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