emotion disposal unit

[dilapidated-treehouse]

no matter how much i internalize the idea that living in a female body is more complicated than a male one, it remains mind-boggling to me that anyone would look at the male form and be like "yeah i want to emulate that"

[the-professional-despiser]

Drone warfare is really sad to me cause it removes all the hot aspects of war (thin athletic men beating each other up and sleeping together) and makes it cold and impersonal with just some guy eating chips all day using an xbox controller to blow up little dots on a screen from 10 miles away. I think this is a tragedy.

[the-professional-despiser]

Straight men will literally talk to other men like "omg I'm gonna marry you you're gonna be my husband and we should make out" and then get offended when someone takes it seriously

[dilapidated-treehouse]

Stop repping faggot, or at least hrtrep so you're not actively masculinizing

[dilapidated-treehouse]

i think my jig is up

[dilapidated-treehouse]

the "repper" may be rationed an ephemeral feeling of humanity as a rare and fleeting treat

[dilapidated-treehouse]

men try not to announce to the fucking tri-state area that they're sneezing challenge level impossible

[dilapidated-treehouse]

every moment when i tried to convince myself that things are "okay" living through a male body, i take it all back. every last one. there is nothing okay, just, or right about this. it's all wrong, so viscerally wrong on a zeroth-order sense that i can't even articulate with any choice of the tens of thousands english vocabulary i've amassed in my twenty painful years on this planet.

it is wrong, so wrong. every time it sinks in that i'm really male, forever, with zero amenable recourse in this lifetime or the next, i get this acrid and sinking feeling in my chest every moment that's so jarring it puts me in third person and it takes everything in my power to not haplessly watch life itself pass me by.

BTW the one material method of making any improvements on this will make you exist as an untenable freak to 90+% of humans. lmao!! 🤣😂🤣😂🤣 😂🤣 nothing i can even fucking do about it by the way because who would listen to a sniveling, groveling, disgusting fucking tranny?

yeah i'll just choose to destroy any chance at sympathy, dignity, and/or self-respect in one fell swoop just to feel +1% better about my body that remains permanently disfigured and tumorous!

maybe i'll just be one of those lucrative architects of impending nuclear armageddon/biosphere collapse and squander my blood money on flushing my brain with such a dose of opiods that nothing sensible could matter as i drift away into a gray, opaque cloud of human waste. i'm one of those animals among humans that should be put down like a dog.

[dilapidated-treehouse]

covered but mandatory srs for all mtf NOWWW

[dilapidated-treehouse]

MAID for reppers

[dilapidated-treehouse]

never have i ever heard a moid glaze themselves as much as when playing a competitive online video game with them

[dilapidated-treehouse]

thinking about type 3 forehead reduction with a 12ga

[dilapidated-treehouse]

fakeboys stop appropriating AGP culture

[dilapidated-treehouse]

i do earnestly believe that transitioning is an option i must avoid at all costs and it would be an indictment of my character and rob me of any dignity

[dilapidated-treehouse]

broken clocks and all that but some will try their hardest to say something about "trans" "discourse" and be genuinely wrong 100% of the time

[dilapidated-treehouse]

if i just detach completely from any and all trans or sexual content and spaces, then by the end of the summer i will have successfully repressed and accepted that i am a cisgender man. nothing more and nothing less.

[dilapidated-treehouse]

oh, you're on fourtran?

like, the programming language?