&&. Broken Bird // A Sam Drabble
                                 How did she get here?
        It was just last week she was·laid in the exact same position, texting Josh goodnight with a satisfied smile. Her heart was so warm then. So full of innocence, hope and optimism. So...
                        Sam.
    She didnât feel like Sam anymore. She felt conniving and naughty, like she impersonating her old self, putting on a mask and saying she was the same person. How long would it be before the mask broke, she wondered. Broke like itâs wearer. It would chip and crack first, giving people a small glimpse of what it has been hiding, but not enough to be obvious. Then, one of two things could happen. The mask would shatter, dropping to the floor in shards as the creature it had been covering appeared, as damaged as the pieces of cold porcelain surrounding her. Alternatively, the mask would continue to crack, slowly and over a long period of time. Pieces falling one by one, as the façade becomes more and more unconvincing, making people look twice, trying to figure out what is part of her and what isnât.
        The old Sam didnât have to do this. She didnât have to try to be happy, she just was. The old Sam was so easily pleased, so full of joy. This Sam, if she should even be called that, was empty. No happiness or sadness or anger or excitement, just a hollow echo as you tap her on the shoulder. This vessel, filled only with endless amounts of medication, functioned only to keep itself alive. For what reason, she didnât know. She didnt want to be alive, but she didnât want to die either.
              She didnât want anything but him.    The life her soul was missing.
She laid on satin sheets, drifting into haunted dreams as the only sounds that fill the room are the cracking and breaking of her mask. The shards of cold porcelain fell to the ground as she tossed and turned and cried in her slumber, revealing the
                                    broken bird
                                          that hid underneath.
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