meh

meh

[dimisshenanigans]

If you’re reading this...

I’m sorry. About everything. And for not treating you with the same respect you gave me for so long that I clearly didn’t deserve. 

How could I be so selfish? You’re one of the only ones who ever cared about me. I wanted to tell you in person, but it’s not possible right now.  I hope there will soon come a day when we will be able to talk again. I’m probably a problem right now, but I’m working on myself and actively trying now, and it’s a struggle but it will take time. 

And when we’re both ready, I want to make a fresh start - and do it right.

[dimisshenanigans]

“I said I hadn’t seen you in quite some time”

“I said we weren’t even friends”

I don’t want to hold on but I do

So why can’t I let go

[dimisshenanigans]

Update: I came here to let you know the letting go has taken place.

[dimisshenanigans]

You act like we're still friends But we both know better and know our end was already met You just haven't accepted it yet.

[dimisshenanigans]

[rip-abandoned-deactivated201605]

I found a way to actually lose in AC:NL

I didn’t check my town for 6 months and the bamboo overran my town, effectively blocking me off from being able to leave the section with my house or get to town. I have no axes so I am STUCK. 

I HAVE LOST TO A GAME THAT SHOULD BE IMPOSSIBLE TO LOSE.

[dimisshenanigans]

It sucks when you see someone and you know they're nice all around when it comes to aesthetics as well as body parts

And you know they're probably more than likely not into you And even if they were it sucks that you'll never see them again because you're leaving for somewhere else the next morning Because you thought they were cute and missed your chance evidently Even if you didn't have a chance

[dimisshenanigans]

Did I miss my chance with you because I apparently shot you down?

And now you're saying that you'd be fine on you're own but you really want to stay where you are, even if it's not going to help, I guess I'll just go for the easier option. The available one. I know they're interested but I just wish they would admit it to me.

[dimisshenanigans]

My dad may be getting very sick again.

He was just getting better learning to adjust to a new way of life too. And now this. Damn it. I have to talk to him. I need to tell him something. He's in Russia right now. I'm worried about him. It's just too much.

[dimisshenanigans]

Today is a good day. I am fine.

Say something enough, you'll start to believe it. Make it true. But don't lie to yourself.

[dimisshenanigans]

Yesterday she told me to try to be nice to him.

But how the fuck can I be nice to someone like that? I don't have the answers. Neither does she. How the fuck can she still be so defensive? How do you even live trying to justify something terrible by softening the fucking blow? How can you just stay in denial, even after the evidence is presented? Tell me how, damn it.

[whitelaws]

[disneyslittlemermaid]

[lesbiantenets]

Sebastian tried to warn me.

[dimisshenanigans]

I should probably stay away from bourbon

Or maybe just from desserts with a bourbon sauce in it or whatever it's called It makes me exhausted as hell, i keep hearing family members voices that Arent with me when I'm out alone, I keep thinking someone is trying to talk to me. I have already almost passed out SEVEN or eight times. I need a nap

[dimisshenanigans]

I wish my friends would give me more credit for trying.

Yeah, so maybe I don't know how to do some things right. Maybe I'm not packing the right stuff right away, and maybe I don't know the proper type of bag to make an ice pack in. That's why if you don't have the right tools - or don't know where they are - you improvise. That's what I've had to do on many occasion. And still get shot down for it and people insist on taking over and "doing it right". If you're supposed to grow up and learn how to fend for and take care of yourself, then how come no one ever thought to teach me these things? I'm told it's not my fault that I don't know these things. But isn't it, though? I've had to try to teach myself things. And evidently fail miserably. I know my friends love me to death and are only trying to help me out, but I'd just like to be appreciated for at least trying, rather than hearing a "no no no, let me show you how it's done. Look" and them doing it right every time. I know I shouldn't feel bad and that it's not my fault that I don't know these things, and then some. So why do I feel like it is?

[dimisshenanigans]

Is it sad that I have incredibly low self-esteem and self-confidence that when I want to be recognized by a group of people I know who I acknowledged more than enough for them to do so several times? I find myself pathetic that they end up ignoring me and doing their own thing?

It’s like I don’t have a problem just fading into the distance.

But I really thought they would at least glance over and say hi.

I know It’s a stupid thing to be upset over. But it still sucks.

:(

[adeadgirlandherfriends-deactiva]

Let me explain sexuality to you

Through gifs.

Everyone gets straight and gay, so I’m leaving those out.

Bisexual:

Pansexual:

Asexual:

You are now informed.

[nieceoftheserpent-deactivated20]

Actually, this really clears it up for me.

[dykereynclds]

actually, pansexual’s more like “anyone” because we don’t want to fuck everyone let’s be real

[kenziecore]

are you sure because i want to fuck everyone

[dimisshenanigans]

Healing takes time.

As slow or as fast as it needs to be.