So I have this Major problem right.
How is it that when i see girls that are round about my height and lets say that they could even weigh just a little more than me but i can clearly see their thigh gap, their flat stomachs, their outstanding collarbones and rib structure and then i look at myslef and think what the fuck are you doing wrong bruv?
Can someone please explain to me how is it possible that i weighed myslef today with the result of 47.8kg (105.3lbs) and have absolutely none of the listed features above. Yes I have a wide knowledge on how people are different and they’re body changes differently but knowing full well I should be at least a size smaller with the weight I have I’m actually starting to believe that I have A THICK BONE STRUCTURE hence why even though I lost weight it wasn’t obvious at all which was great when living at home with parents but not when you look at yourself and see no changes beginning to feel like a 🐷
You ask how it’s possible, here’s my two cents:
In the years I’ve been consistently underweight, I’ve never had a thigh gap, or visible chest bones, or even a flat stomach. I lost around 8 lbs in the last month. I weigh 88 lbs and don’t look like most people my height would at 88 lbs- I’ve done my research.
It might have something to do with bone structure and genetics. I don’t have the answers or a message of hope and how you’re gonna get there eventually.
This is a side blog I stopped using years ago, not because I got better but because I no longer felt comfortable with being part of an echo chamber that boldly proclaims we can all look like dainty skeletons if we try hard enough.
It’s not true.
I don’t know how to get sharp cheek bones or bony hands but I know how to get hospitalized for heart failure. I know what to do to get diagnosed with anaemia, faint at school, and be malnourished to the point that the room sways and I can’t remain standing without leaning on something for support. Nobody notices when I lose weight. It’s like my body doesn’t obey the scale. I just look increasingly ill.
You and I might finally get protruding bones one day, or we might die trying. Reaching below the 90 lbs mark made me understand that.
It’s a fucking hoax- my original goal weight was 100 lbs. I thought at least my ribs would be visible by then. Obviously, that wasn’t the case- 12 lbs down since and you can only see the outline when I stretch. I know for a fact that, by the time my body vaguely resembles anything labelled “thinspo” I will not be able to walk, let alone have a social or professional life.
There’s no formula that reliably demonstrates a correlation between weight loss and body shape. I’m sorry. I wish someone had told me sooner, so I’m telling you now.
Please take care of yourself. x
