@disappointeddyke - Tumblr Blog

realizing nothing can fill my void other than doing everything i promised myself i would do

Honestly...if I were the gf, I would probably want to know that I'm being cheated on with her ex (or that she still has feelings at least). Sorry you're going through this and hope things get better for you :(

Right like I feel so bad for this girl even though she literally cheated on me with her (and another girl the month before that). Her ex also works with us and we’re kinda friends now so the two of us have been trying to get her to tell her new gf (at the VERY least) that she is working with two exes bc she’s admitted to me that her new gf has no idea! I also haven’t been pursuing anything romantic or intimate with her. She told me she wants to try to be friends a few weeks ago and I’m only trying bc we still have to work together, otherwise I’d go no contact. At least once a week my boss sticks us in the same place at work and that’s when she flirts with me, tells me she still loves me and thinks about me every day, puts her hands on me, fucks with my head and asks if I’d ever get back together with her/hook up with her again and so and so….I’ve been applying to teaching positions for the new school year so I literally just need to survive until mid to late august 😭💀

#thank you though :(#it’s partially my fault for falling for a coworker but there’s so many more details I don’t share on here or know how to even talk about #that come into play….but overall it’s honestly all on her #ask

Hate myself for still loving you. Hate that you still have control over me regardless of setting as many boundaries as I possibly can right now. Fuck you for taking advantage of that and fuck you for only picking me up and putting me down when it satisfies you.

#sorry this is all I talk about on here #anything I say here she has already heard 10x over #UGHHHHHHH #screaming into the void atp #I’m two moves away from directly telling her new gf that we work together still and everything she’s been doing to me the past few weeks #including the way she kissed my neck yesterday/slid her hands up the back of my shirt without my fucking consent/saying she still loves me #but I also have decent confidence that she’ll fuck it up all on her own #mine